u/throwitaway112_

so what do yall do when u have introverted friends? I feel like alot of My friends don't like going out or aren't excited abt being outside and it dampens my mood. But they the ones that are like "I wanna go outside more". Okay let's go! ..here are literally types of events that are free to go to.

Rave? Let's go! Too loud or overwhelming? Okay how about a jazz night? I'm flexible, let's just go out! I'll find a activity. Wanna stay inside? I have a switch and uno cards!

I think I'm just tired of dragging people out their house and asking them to not hide in the corner ;_; idk

I'm finding it pulls me back, I wanna be a ball of energy. But I tend to get in my head alot sometimes And I get anxious so I'd like to have someone who is loose and free so I can loosen up too, but if we both anxious and nervous then wtf are we doingggg😭 when I'm at a party or club I like dancing on stage but I'm alot less likely to do that if my shy friend doesn't want To.

I don't know, ig introverts like being around me but I'm tired of making decisions and being around quiet people.

I need loud personalities! Spontaneous people. Open minded! Yappers! and I'm just not finding that...maybe I need to just talk to people at a events, if we both there late then thats means u like to be out too. but that's when my anxiety kicks in lol...that I can work on..with time..

Idk if any of this context helps but my sun and rising is Sagittarius and then ima ENFJ​-T. I'm straightedge , ill gladly run around with my little Sprite. I would say I would be at my computer desk to get my work done in my club/party outfit then go out into the night.

Ik friends are for different things , I find with some extroverts I can't be emotionally deep but ik most introverts will listen

Ig all I want to know is if anyone feels this way at all. And what do you do... thank u.. be polite pls...

CW: body image

I think I've carried the insecurities of being a woman with me, not liking My body but now as a man.

I feel like I have to be Shredded into to be taken and seen as a man

I know men come in all shapes n sizes

but when I look at my body, in the mirror, I have trouble liking it.

yes I go to thr gym, it helps. When I lay my chair down, I notice rhe dip in My chest from chest presses.

And when I tape alot, there's crease which looks like top surgery scars.

it's hard go feel confident, let alone sexy. I've felt this way for years.

I'll admit I get bothered by seeing buff t men bc I feel like in order for me to become a guy I have to look like them. I feel like if I don't work out I've failed as a man.

I know it's dumb. But as someone binary this is how I feel.

Be kind. Please.. And comforting ;_;

hello

I am not aroace, but I would like to ask a question.

I feel very alone with how hyper sexual the queer community can be

it makes me feel isolated. I feel like I'm expected to be promiscuous or have a healthy relationship with sex and I truly don't right now.

I wonder, do any of you get uncomfortable in hyper sexual discussions/spaces?

I understand that alot are most likely solid in their identity, and not phased by people talking about sex. Or simply , don't feel any of those things.

From my understanding, people can become or just be aroace for a multitude of reasons. So I want to hear from all types.

I just get so horribly uncomfortable when talking to friends bc I'm reminded of my troubles with romance and sex

And I wonder If *anyone* who is aroace might feel the same or feel a invisible pressure.

as I'm typing this out, I feel like I'm thinking about this incorrectly. I'm sorry if I am. I just feel very alone in my sentiment and I'm trying to find people who don't live a sex/romantic forward lifestyle.

It feels weird for me to think "well lemme hang out with aroace people bc ik they'll never talk abt sex/romance!" Like idk I don't wanna be invasive but fuck why are some ppl I'm meeting fucking horny and in 4 situationships and telling me abt it.

Ik there's non Aroace people who don't prioritize sex/romance but I'm having trouble finding them bc Alot of my friends are bdsm , kink , hookup, situationship & fwb people. Some literally have kink and sex artwork in their home.

And I guess I feel like I have to be all of those bc I'm young adult, queer and in a big city. There's a culture around it, especially in the club nightlife sphere which I frequent. I don't like the idea of being a romantic / sexual option right now as I heal. I know I'm not aroace, I'm just having alot of troubles in this mindset.

​I feel very lonely in that regard

maybe this isn't the right spot. I don't know

My apologies ​, I don't mean to offend. Perhaps this doesn't even bother yall because you feel comfortable in yourself. But I don't know where to turn. I'm asking if anyone ever feels uncomfortable. To the point where you want to switch spaces or seek new people.

pls be polite..

Thank you

^(..yes I'm in therapy...)

Or server? Mid twenties

thanks ! Just joined.

Is there a group chat or server i can join? Where are we yapping at. Just discovered this. Needed this so bad!!

I'm having trouble meeting trans people and queer people understanding of me being binary

I feel like i have to justify me being binary

Is there any binary guys out there? Can we be friends? Pls lol. Is there a gc I'm missing out on?

I don't want to exclude t mascs but I just don't relate to them and the ones i met keep pushing their trans masculinity to me or make comments abt binary being "sinple" or "a little boring". I want to be perceived as only male. I'm trans when I call it. Does that make sense?

I want to be treated like a cis straight man . I'm not stealth, I just want me being trans to be the afterthought.

Also when I go to "queer" events it only caters to t mascs or wlw and I'm not neither. Or the cis gay men.

Queer includes trans men too

Where are the queers who like me ? I'm sorry I'm not masculine or butch, I'm sorry I'm just a guy. Is me being pan not enough? My circle is too small i think. I imagine if i came out as straight that queer people would not validate me bc im trans. How backwards is that?

Where do I find queer people who respect binary folk. I feel like dolls are more accepted abt being binary then the t guys.

Being seen as t masc or butch makes me so dysphoric like...please :(

I feel like I'm talking to a wall and im alone

Lmk if u relate pls

I live in a very big queer city and im just getting disappointed. Maybe I'm meeting the wrong queers.

I just hate the idea of any queer person being not open minded. Doesn't make sense.

Idk ;_; makes me wanna start my own thing

So many niche covers i miss and i remember how people tuned them

Missing a cyber songman cover of Nekobolo's Song of Love with joy dreamers lyrics

And missing a Party Junkie english cover with Amy

And this Kakoi Nizimine cover of Skyfish that I can only find In a vocaloid chorus video

And this one adachi Rei cover of pink pantheress turn it up!

I would follow a cover artist and like 3 months later everything is deleted dramatically and I'm like NOO

Don't delete your covers I love them please I remember themm

- OG vocaloid fan

Current link from the official site doesn't work and I used the wayback machine and it doesn't work

How can I get her voicebank?

Any public archive of some sort?

Ty

hi i would drop wav. files all the time but now it crashes and im wondering if anyone would know how to fix it.

i have legit 6.13.0 trial + crack

any suggestions? if so leave detailed steps please

thank u!

edit: nvm my file size was too big thats why sorry :P

CW: brief eating mention

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It feels like since being a man I now just have male insecurities about my body.

Like it feels like there's one way to be a man and it's to be super buff, large and athletic . It's seen as masculine. Seeing super buff trans men being comfortable makes me feel so insecure, it feels like I have to look just like them to be admired and desired just like a cisman.

I'm thin, I have trouble eating. I hate that I'm not as wide or buff bc it's not seen as super masculine in the gay male space.

It feels like there is always a gender binary at play in gay male spaces

Why am I automatically seen as less because I'm not as wide, or why am I seen as "cute". Why can't I be hot or fine? Bc I'm not buff enough?

it really messes with me and I realize I'm just super fucking insecure about my self and I don't think anyone will see me as a man even other trans men.

I wanna be kinda like Bruno Mars, very charismatic but obviously respected as a man. Or like a k pop idol, they don't fit the "buff" visual but they are respected and seen as hot or attractive. They aren't seen as feminine.

Ik cis guys also feel insecure about their body, I just rarely hear it from them. I remember being a girl that being thin is everything, I Hate being thin as a guy bc it makes me feel like a girl.​

​idk. Just venting, be polite please.

Him: "The question is whether you are cluster B,

specifically BPD or more than one. Essentially

do you have a PD of any kind/cluster>>is it BPD,

not BPD>>is there BPD and another PD or BPD

and [blank]PD tendencies. This isn't an armchair

kind of deal, I'm trying to understand something

important and again I want to emphasize you

are safe. Ik you're getting some intense therapy

(yay! ow but yay!), I'm wondering if you've been

evaluated for that sort of thing along with the

other things you're dealing with."

...

Who the fuck asks that?

Like at all? I'm not weird right like this is not a normal question?

I feel uncomfortable bc

1. I don't like he just guessed right

2. I don't like he is thinking abt me in this way

3. We are not close enough for him to ask me that

4. Tons of preamble before hand of this is a safe space and I will tell u why I asked when you answer

5. My own personal insecurities with having bpd, I'm tryna navigate that on my own

6. Him being neuro divergent and asking me that.

Like this is not a normal question right ?

I'm not bugging??? Right?

I told him I went thru alot of truama and I'm in therapy, I just go twice a week, and medicated. What image his he imagining ?​

I'm very much don't assume kind of person, I don't like psychoanalyzing people or friends I think that's weird. I'm not a doctor. Neither is he.

Im not bugging right this is weird ??​

just went thru something traumatic and then moving back home has made me relive my childhood trauma so I'm realizing I'm going thru two things at once.

Sometimes I don't even wanna accept this shit bc I'm so tired of being depressed and hurt but I'm realizing this isn't helping me grow.

I'm trying to remember I went through something uniquely different and if someone doesn't understand the severity of it then i need to be ok with only knowing it bc I was in it. Not in a "fuck u guys u don't understand me!" Way But in a way that's like accepting

idk

I want a hug