u/throwrafadedstar

I dont remember what kind of music I liked,.movies, everything.

I feel so sad

I am completely done if I dont figure this out. I cant concentrate for a full day of work. The most I can do is one task.

Then I just simply dont focus, the letters get blurry i get sleepy and cant read.

I am a lawyer. My work has been suffering a lot, the only reason I havent been fired is because my boss is a good kind man. I would've fired myself.

Mind you I take vyvanse. I tried taking 2 vyvanses on the maximum dose but not even this makes me work. It wakes me up, but the letters keep getting blurry.

I have been thinking a lot and I believe is the biggest problem is that I lost the ability to focus even though I dont want to work. Like force myself to focus, you know ?

I've tried everything. Im taking vitamins, I've tried pomodoro, I've tried breathing, taking breaks, forcing myself to at least keep looking at the screen ( wich I did for two days and I like stared at it for like 6 hours frozen)

This started since I got a leadership role, and my work changed from active (writing petitions and documents) to passive (revising and reviewing other people's work).

I am so sad that im ruining a long waited promotion.

If it is an important information ob anything I am only a 27 years old woman.

It looks like im 70.

The only thing I do in my life is work. Can't work out, dont like going out. I've stopped doing all the things I loved, like listening to music and watching movies

I thought my attention was like this because I was really into my phone and tiktok, but I havent had the interest to even watch tiktok. I check my phone constantly at work but I what I think is not that I want to use it, I check it because I just want to look away from my computer screen.

I am suffering so much, im working and trying so hard. But nothing works. At this point I've been like this for like 4 months and getting worse and worse.

I was so good when I focused on things. Im so sad

Any tips ?

I thank you all for your tips and opinions 💛

I am completely done if I dont figure this out. I cant concentrate for a full day of work. The most I can do is one task.

Then I just simply dont focus, the letters get blurry i get sleepy and cant read.

I am a lawyer. My work has been suffering a lot, the only reason I havent been fired is because my boss is a good kind man. I would've fired myself.

Mind you I take vyvanse. I tried taking 2 vyvanses on the maximum dose but not even this makes me work. It wakes me up, but the letters keep getting blurry.

I have been thinking a lot and I believe is the biggest problem is that I lost the ability to focus even though I dont want to work. Like force myself to focus, you know ?

I've tried everything. Im taking vitamins, I've tried pomodoro, I've tried breathing, taking breaks, forcing myself to at least keep looking at the screen ( wich I did for two days and I like stared at it for like 6 hours frozen)

This started since I got a leadership role, and my work changed from active (writing petitions and documents) to passive (revising and reviewing other people's work).

I am so sad that im ruining a long waited promotion.

If it is an important information ob anything I am only a 27 years old woman.

It looks like im 70.

The only thing I do in my life is work. Can't work out, dont like going out. I've stopped doing all the things I loved, like listening to music and watching movies

I thought my attention was like this because I was really into my phone and tiktok, but I havent had the interest to even watch tiktok. I check my phone constantly at work but I what I think is not that I want to use it, I check it because I just want to look away from my computer screen.

I am suffering so much, im working and trying so hard. But nothing works. At this point I've been like this for like 4 months and getting worse and worse.

Any tips ?

I thank you all for your tips and opinions 💛

Please please please help me with your opinion?

I am a 27 year old woman, im 1,65cm weight 100kg.

Obviously my doctor doesnt give me 140mg a day, she gives me 70mg.

But I crash really early like 3 to 5pm, and crash really deep, like super sleepy and no so strenght to even take a bath when I come home from work.

I also take buproprion 300mg and aripiprazole 10mg

I took 140mg (one in the morning and one later in the afternoon) a few days and those were the days I actually functioned like a normal human. Cleaned the dishes, took a bath, worked properly (not even super work, just normal work, still slow.

I know i cant take 140mg, and i won't anymore, I dont want to die. But i feel like that's an indicator of what could be wrong with me.

Can someone give advice on were to start ? Like should I change meds? Should I get blood tests ? I dont know

I dont function like a normal human being if I dont take meds. Im not able to do anything.

Please dont judge me i know how wrong and dangerous that was.

Id really appreciate the help, at this point I dont know what I can do anymore to be normal

Edit with info: Adderall is forbidden in my country, so i cant change meds. I was thinking of asking a small dose of Ritalin at the end of the day but I dont think my doctor will do that. She's very serious.

Also i dont feel any physical problems like heart palpitations if one thing vyvanse stopped the heart palpitations I had from anxiety.

I even get normally hungry and sleep normally at the time I always used to sleep, even before vyvanse (11pm)

But im really scared because I heard someone died because of taking 2 vyvanses a day.

There is no Adderall in my country so switching is not an option.

Im fucking up my work what can I do

Edit: I will respond everyone but just wanted to say yall are so helpful and nice. I love this community

I am no one anymore.

I cant even listen to music that was my favorite thing in the world.

I used to do art, enjoy photography, i was good at my work.

I loved movies.

I worked really hard.

Now i cant concentrate and cant work

For these years i could literally feel the life going away, little by little.

I thought I could live being unhappy if at least I was able to work properly. But im not even being able to work. Im failing.

I am gone. There is nothing left, and i have no strength anymore to try to be better

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I've been having a lot of trouble concentrating at work and dealing with discomfort. All I want to do is crawl into bed and be on my phone. My work is the thing i care most i dont want to be like this.

When Im reading the words get foggy and im not being able to concentrate. Can someone please please please please help me ? What do I do ? I only focus for small periods

I've been so tired and i havent been the same. Im a hard worker I do long hours work from home, but im not being able to anymore im desperate

I have zero discipline, im such a bum but i care so much, it feels like in my mind im such a person that would make things happen but I cant put anything into practice

I've been having a lot of trouble concentrating at work and dealing with discomfort. All I want to do is crawl into bed and be on my phone. My work is the thing i care most i dont want to be like this.

When Im reading the words get foggy and im not being able to concentrate. Can someone please please please please help me ? What do I do ? I only focus for small periods

I've been pretty anxious with fixated thoughts. And I bought a lot of stuff.

I need urgently to stop buying this much but I've been with these fixated thoughts thinking the whole day about buying x thing. What should I do ?

I really need a way out. I know all im doing to myself, but I cant gather the streght to change. I got so far away, I got two promotions in a roll, now im slacking being lazy procrastinating important stuff I never did. Can someone please help me i have no one to help.

I have brain fog while trying to concentrate, cant sit with any bad discomfort, so that made me all the tome on my phone. I need help

He was the perfect dad as a kid. Became a douche when I got older, only saw me as a money problem for him. We finally had our last fought in 2021 after I graduated college.

Even after so.many years I still cry sometimes, I still.cry he never tried to call me.again, I was discarded like trash.

He has a new kid. I sometimes open his Instagram to see the video.of him teacher her how to fish, as we used to.

Even though in my day to day life I dont think about it, and I am.glad he is away, this made a scar I feel.will never heal.

I bet she's getting the version of.a dad I deserved too. But why not me.?

I was always such a good.child. I did everything people told me.

My mom is a fucking bitch too, I hate her as i hate him. But I dont get why only him.let.such a big hole inside of me.

I have my grandpa that gives me the moon, he's the best person in the world, I dont know why I mourn my father abandoning me when my real.father was always my.grandpa

Please someone help, my life is falling apart

Im a 27f. I've come a long way from.how things happened in my life. Im a lawyer, used to do good at my job bedore i started fucking it up.constantly. But im still failing, because of myself. I cant wake up and do what I need to do.

I hate myself so much it makes me crawl into a bed and rot without doing what I need to do

I am not dumb dumb. Im a lawyer, im good at creating thesis and stuff like that.

But im very stupid with material mistakes, im forgetful, sometimes understand simple stuff wrong while the hard ones I understand properly.

If my stupidity came from creating thesis it would be better to fix it, I would just need to study, but im lile just dumb for normal stuff.

What can I do ? Im desperate i cant stop making mistakes my bosses probably hate me at this point HELP ME PLEAAAAAASEEEEEEE SOMEONE

im going to cry

I am not dumb dumb. Im a lawyer, im good at creating thesis and stuff like that.

But im very stupid with material mistakes, im forgetful, sometimes understand simple stuff wrong while the hard ones I understand properly.

If my stupidity came from creating thesis it would be better to fix it, I would just need to study, but im lile just dumb for normal stuff.

What can I do ? Im desperate i cant stop making mistakes my bosses probably hate me at this point HELP ME PLEAAAAAASEEEEEEE SOMEONE

im going to cry

I want to dieeeeeeeeeee nooooooo whyyyyyyy

This is so fucking annoying. I never do anything to anyone and this bitchass arrogant bitch is making things to get my place. Bitch literally doesnt even hide it properly. She pretends to be friendly while throwing me under a bus, clearly being happy I made a big mistake and saying she "wants to learn how to do what I do".

She talked like i was going to be fired.

I genuinely belive there is space for everyone and I never done anything like that ever to anyone.

I wish I could take revenge like telling my boss how her work is slow and how she has no creativity to actually understand the subject. The only thing she's good at is at not making material mistakes, she can't create a thesis.

But I cant do this, one because im not that person and two because I think I suck so im not in the place of judging someone's work, honestly i suck.

I dont care if she takes my place, its my bosses decision, but mean people make me so fucking angry so fucking angry I hate these corporate shitty fake people. She's so fuckong fake aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I helped that bitch so much even though I never liked her I listened to her whining and calmed her down when she first got here.

How can I create boundaries so I dont have to deal with this anymore ? And how to protect myself from this vulture? I cant do corporate right, I always got away with only working hard, but I need to be smarter

Can someone pleaaaase help me

I always procrastinated, but I used to calculate perfectly what I needed to get things done before the deadlines. But im not being able to anymore. I am consciously not doing anything i need. And I know im not doing, but I dont have the strength to move. Does anyone have tips ?