
200 days ago, I released 'My Love for A Thief', a film about how Garrett helped me overcome my fear of the dark as a kid
I was overjoyed whenever I worked on this film. With no prior knowledge on how to make a film, I learned by doing, and applied all my skills, from photography to guitar-playing, to tell a story of my childhood and of Thief's influence upon it. The important part for me was to capture that dreamlike atmosphere that childhood inspires, where nightmares and imaginary friends blend into a strange tapestry.
When my girlfriend joined the project as assistant director is when wild ideas began sprouting. 'We should have a personalized Tarot card with Garrett in it...' 'And it should glow in the dark!' But, honestly, if you look at Garrett's story long enough, and stare at the visual language of the game, you find that there is magic afoot! Aside from the magical symbols, Garrett himself is a sort of prophetic figure, the great balancer of forces, bringing equilibrium to the City. And, as a thief, he teaches us that there is more to the darkness than meets the eye.
It was really my father who introduced me to Thief and this film acts as a sort of homage to him. He was a great photographer and always scanned his film photos, and catalogued them thoroughly. Whenever I would uncover a new folder of photos from when I was 6, a wave of emotions would emerge from some vanished corner. A couple of years after my father's death, I started this project as a way to make a posthumous collaboration and remembrance.
The fear of the dark, just as my father and I had, mirrors our fear of the Unconscious, and of all the strange beings residing there. A kid's imagination is a frightening thing. But that's what Garrett teaches: that darkness is not a negative thing, it is not a lack or a void, but a door, a way. Shamans meditate in the dark to have an easier passage into the realm of the Gods. And Garrett lingers in the darkness to get paid, certainly, but also to unwillingly balance the cosmos. Darkness is a door between our realm and that of the Unconscious. And Garrett, foolish as he may seem at first, becomes enlightened precisely because he can glance into the dark and see the infinity beyond the void.