How do you not give up on your life?
Recently got dignosed with non radiographical axial spondyloarthritis
i am in early 30's
My rhemutologist calls my as mild
I have no morning pain or stiffness or night pain
I have no overt erosions ,no fatty metaplasia , no scelrosis
Clean blood markers and no symptoms other than back pain
I was dignosed solely on billateral sacrolitis with edema more on illac side than sacral
My stiffness is guarding in low back that's goes off by bird dogs instantly
My pain is in only in movement like bending down etc
I have no problem laying down or sitting as long as I want
Very little to no fatigue
However the abolsuute worst part about my disease it's never ending
It's the weight of dignosis
The fact that it will keep getting worse as time goes on
I simply don't see the point of living anymore. Everytime I take med i think what's the point? It won't heal me
I started taking upacidyn one tablet a day just from a day ago
I simply don't see the point of living anymore
I have low key given up i hardly leave my room anymore
What I want is never happening and simply not possible, I don't see the point anymore
Edit : my blood markers are crp 2.5 and esr 7 tested 2 days ago