my parents found a tarantula who was bitten by a hawk wasp and brought her to me. what do i do?
im sorry if this is badly written im like crying my eyes out over this shit and theres no clear cut answer and i dont know what to do and its driving me insane. i just want another opinion
as the title states my parents found a tarantula (texas brown tarantula) who was bitten by a hawk wasp and paralyzed. i dont believe she laid an egg inside the spider because they said the wasp was dragging her across the road after she got bit back to her burrow and they scared the wasp away before she could take the tarantula in. shes in my kitchen right now in a well ventilated box with some water and i did everything she could to make sure she wasnt stressed but i read it can take MONTHS for them to recover.
this is where im feeling torn. i dont know. i cant leave her to die or i dont want to anyways it feels brutal and devastating and i cant do that to her but i cant imagine being completely paralyzed and spoon fed for months on end. she isnt able to comprehend whats going on so im really anxious shes going to be terrified and stressed the whole time. if thats the better choice i will gladly do everything in my power to help her anything for her but i dont know if thats even the more humane choice.
is a quick euthanasia the middle ground?? or is it awful to kill her??? i tried thinking about what i would do for a human but i dont even know there either. i dont know if i have it in me to end her life even if its the more humane option. just thinking about it makes me want to throw up. her entire life is in my hands and im so fucking scared im going to mess up
im most likely autistic and while i struggle with human empathy i feel so strongly for animals it ruins me and i feel like thats clouding my judgement. im just so fucking devastated and heartbroken beyond words for her i wish i could make her feel better. i cant imagine how terrified she was 💔 i named her amber. i want to be able to remember her somehow. she matters to me