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They are all obsessed with worldly gain, it literally all they care about. It’s all their churches care about and all they do is gossip about everyone else. How far they have gotten, how little they did not accomplish, talk crap about the hardships others are going through and drag them through the mud for not being as privileged as their ignorant selves are to their own luck and lot in life.

It’s all I hear any of them every talking about and 99% of the time it’s just cutting others down or bragging about their kids accomplishments or what they have done, etc. If something bad happens in someone else’s life then they must have just “been living in sin” and it’s their one fault. I’m sick of it.

It’s really causing a rift in my faith right now because I don’t feel like I know anyone else who even believes in God whatsoever. Church is just a social club and all they care about is worldly success. Is there anyone out there who actually practices what they preach?

I’ve yet to find anywhere that wants to have a community of listening each other up and helping and sharpening each other. It’s all just tearing down and bragging and gossip every time so far. None of them realize how lucky and blessed they were to have parents that supported them and encouraged them instead of just breaking them down growing up or being entirely absent. Having parental funding or connections or good friends family to just be there for them as friends. Some of us never had that head start and help but it’s our ow ln fault we must have just been too sinful..

I want to preface by saying I am not new to fitness or bodybuilding and have been at it for a quite a long time. However, since hitting my mid 30s my metabolism and muscle building ability have both slowed quite a bit. Fat burning takes much longer and I don’t quite have the energy I used to have to hit workouts extremely hard, I also own and run 2 businesses so getting enough sleep isn’t always an option which affects this as well.

What peptides should I look for as a newbie to peptides in general for fat burning and muscle gain? Maybe some for general energy as well? I was at a fairly high level when I was younger training for both powerlifting and spartan races at the same time. I had to take it easy a while due to business obligations and illness but now I’ve been back on working out hard for a couple years now. The gains in strength and endurance have been much slower than they used to be when I was younger.

Where should I start? Are there in-person clinics that offer peptide treatments or is everyone buying this stuff online somewhere?

I’ve been unable to manifest anything good into my life and I’m pretty sure I’m doing the opposite actually. Every time o think of anything that I want to have or achieve i assume I will fail and imagine all kinds of vivid scenarios where I’m on the street or working at McDonalds because my business venture went up in flames, etc.

To sum everything up, my wife has changed after taking medication and hates my guts now and acts psychotic. She was really all I had in my life since most of my friends moved away or don’t call anymore. Can’t rely on anyone in my family for anything either, never have been able to. My business isnt doing too great and I’m barely making ends meet on top of that so no sense of purpose or satisfaction even in work anymore.

I feel completely alone, without a reason to keep this up and like every single day is like another fresh level of a special hell made just for me. I’m just so done. I don’t want to but at the same time, I don’t see any reason not to anymore. There’s really just not much left to hang on for anymore. I keep saying tomorrow will be better but it never is. I’m just praying that I have the courage to step out for good at this point. Ive already stuck it out through so much misery growing up and then it was ok for a short while and became even worse now. I see no reason to keep opening my eyes for another damn day when I know exactly what’s waiting for me every single time.

I’m seeing other people blessed left and right and it is getting discouraging. I was laid off from yet another job because of staffing reduction and cost cuts and my sales business ain’t doing too great either. I was able to make it ok with those 2 jobs together but now that one is gone I don’t know how I’m going to keep paying for everything for us.

I see others I know who started a business and they’re thriving, other friends getting promotions left and right and others making it just fine. Here I am spending my savings trying to just keep the bills paid hoping for scraps from the masters table while other people are getting full course meals.

I’m starting to think I was an idiot for believe in God or that anything in my life had any purpose whatsoever in the first place.

It’s been almost a week now. Am I kicked out or is there really a technical issue going on with the project right now keeping us from getting in?

You pushed back every time I raised up toward the light.

Dangled a carrot as I starved and made me listen to my stomach squirm with every reach.

I trained and a jumped and struggled always running and bounding and rushing toward that false light every single time it would appear.

Feels like I was born in this hole, I’ve been here so long. Distant memories are all I have of feeling the sunlight and I don’t think they were mine.

You promised and teased and kept me reaching until my arms bled from exhaustion.

Back turned away now I don’t climb toward the light anymore. I’m content in my hole in comfort I know.

Let my bleeding nails rest and my calloused hands heal from constant ascension towards things that were never real.

I’ve stopped looking and I’ve stopped listening.

An honest man or woman is like a ripple in the pool of human consciousness that can spread outward, reverberating and multiplying. No good deed goes unpunished? No, no good deed goes unnoticed and ineffective.

The smallest gesture can echo through a persons heart and from them, into the hearts of others for decades. Never make the mistake of thinking that kindness is a waste of time. It is the only true worthwhile and lasting pursuit in this life to live with integrity in spite of everything the manmade world throws at you.

- Some shower thoughts that came to me after coming back to spirituality after a long time trying to disbelieve for personal comfort.

When I hover over, it says “we are working on a technical issue” curious is this happening for everyone

Been working in Aether for months with a high rating score so it must be an issue, correct? It kicked me out of the outlier timer page and then this showed on the dashboard with the start tasking button grayed out.

There was never an email sent out with the usual 85%, 95% or limit reached warnings as there usually is. I got a whopping 5 seconds in the timer and then it tells me no more tasks available today.

Multiple degrees, nearly two decades of working and we are barely making it, spending our savings to pay bills monthly and possibility of retirement or even owning our own home is a joke at this point. I’m just about fucking done for real. Probably not the right place to post this but fuck it.

Philosophy tag because fuck it is a philosophy I guess.

It’s been one setback after another with our finances, jobs, our business, things breaking needing repairs. Way too much at once for us to keep up with. Both of us have worked hard our entire lives, got degree, studied how to make our business work, worked full time jobs on top of that and everything has been falling apart.

We are barely making it and not even really because we are having to take money out of savings and investments that we worked hard to build up over the years for retirement just to survive monthly right now. Pretty much loosing hope and just really not caring about much of anything anymore at this point.

I get that we are not supposed to love or covet money but we also must have enough of it to survive in this world.

It has been a hard year, we have had health problems among other things and we need a financial miracle. We need our business endeavors to finally have some financial success or somehow to find higher paying jobs or something. I don’t even know anymore. I’m so tired of struggling and just getting exhausted and jaded to everything at this point.

I think it was episode pre-hibernation week when they were sandboarding down the hill. They did an instrumental clip of death rattle for the episode. This is the only clip I could find with the song intact but I clearly remember it being almost 2 minutes long. Heard it when my younger sibling was watching and I remember looking over and thinking ”no fucking way”

I got an email this morning saying that 85% of the budget was reached at 3 AM PST. That would mean the budget was almost filled 2 hours before the reset for today even happened. How is this possible?

I’m in a dark place right now spiritually and we have a lot of misfortune happening while other people around us are being blessed.

Would anyone, preferably people who have believed in God and prayer, spirituality for a long time, maybe care to talk in some dms and share your perspective?

Im combination of sad and in awe of the synchronicity of this universe. She was basically my adopted mother growing up and Chris Cornell was like my guiding voice.

I remember when I would listen to soundgarden, she would tell me to “turn that evil sounding music down” but when I would listen to his solo work, she asked me “who is that man singing, he has a wonderful voice” lol. We lost two wonderful human beings on this day..

I’m really exhausted by the dichotomy that I hear so often that you have to be more of either one or the other. I like both and I think both cats and dogs are equally unique and capable of expressing love and affection in their own way.

I have had a German shepherd and now a black Bombay and she is every bit as intelligent and loving as our Bull/birddog mix and probably almost on par with our shepherd who passed away.

I think both cats and dogs are amazing creatures and I consider myself blessed to have both of these little angels living under my roof.