Threw away every chance I've had. Don't be like me I beg of you
The universe tried with me, it really did. My first kiss was forced upon me by a girl in grade 1 lol.
Had girls start showing real interest in me in high school and some even got their friends to try and set us up but I just ignored them mostly due to low self esteem. I thought I was really fat but looking back at pics that was not true at all.
Girls got braver after HS and quite a few outright confessed how they liked me or would even just ask me out on dates... again I did nothing to follow up.
Worst is in my mid 20s I worked for years with this one amazing girl. We got along really well and I used to day dream of what life would be like with her. One day we were alone and she grabbed my arm, gave me a look that is impossible to really describe but it was unmistakably genuine and sweet, and told me how she really liked me. I started ignoring her after that. She didn't deserve that and I'm a POS for it.
I've no doubt I'll throw away the next chance for reasons I don't yet know.
Please don't be like me. Don't inflict this on yourself willingly.