u/87-percent-gay

I'm really focusing on allowing myself comfort while I'm there. Toiletries and bedding and such is included. I've been there before and they allow everything that I've packed

Extended duffle bag:

Clothing (mainly my usual attire, hoodies and basketball shorts or sweats, but also some T-shirts and underwear and stuff)

Stuffed animals

Extra pair of shoes

Extra charger

Sketch book

Extra bookbag:

Laptop + charger

Switch lite in case + games

5ish coloring books

2 bags of Markers

Crayons

A bunch of fidgets

Origami paper

Tarot cards

Probably some other stuff I'm forgetting

Small blanket strapped to the front

Rolling tobacco, tubes, and cigarette machine

My daily bookbag:

2 journals

File folder (for my group program)

1 coloring book

1 bag of markers

1 case of markers

More fidgets

Things I put in day of will go in there too like wallet, keys, my stuffed bear I sleep with, more fidgets I'm using in the meantime, my vapes

I also have a dino stuffed animal I want to put in day of so I can keep him on my bed for now but that should fit in the extended duffle bag with the other stuffed animals

Thank you please tell me if I'm forgetting anything!

I guess what I told them today technically constitutes a plan but I have no actual intent so I'm not at the point of involuntary hospitalization. This is like the third appointment in a row we talked about inpatient. If things escalated to a point where I thought I'd be involuntarily hospitalized I'm scared I'd lie to my treatment team. I'm normally really really honest with them. I meet with my psychiatrist every other week but my therapist was worried enough they reached out to my psychiatrist and we're meeting again next week instead of the following.

Things for me have been really difficult for a really long time. I deal with a lot of mental health issues, suicidal ideation, self harm, etc etc. So many people talk about how religion and believing in something bigger than yourself can be such a life changing thing. I've always considered myself agnostic, but I was baptized Christian as a child but never learned much about religion even then. Please help me.

I think Jamie being nonbinary would have been really cool full circle from the ambiguity around his birth. Kelly's a really interesting and fun character, but I think it was a missed opportunity and they should have done something else with the youngest