u/AccountantPersonal86

I think Ive clocked like 60 hours just watching various video essays on this game.

The whole story is just very fascinating to me , not sure why, I think I am just projecting my outlook on life and depression to Simon's terminal illness and whole feeling about being a 100+ year old consciousness in a new world he doesnt feel like he would ever fit in with. Questioning what it means to be human, etc.. it just feels relatable even though when everything about it is very unrelatable.

The funny part is this is a game I actually ever played myself hands on, only watched no commentary full play-throughs, and its probably the game with the biggest impact on my life right now from its story.

Its definitely fitting the AI doom-heavy themes we have in todays age too, kind of scary.

I've been waking up earlier and earlier to just have more quiet, peaceful, alone time for my morning routines away from my parents because they are very loud and like a bull running thru a China shop..

Now they wake up earlier and earlier every day lol. Its actually driving me insane. They never would be down in kitchen before 6am now some days they come down at 5am sometimes 430.. wtf man. Im just waking up at 2 am now today.. let's pray.

So my parents went to a rather big family gathering for some relative's wedding , they got to talk to my uncle (dads brother), they talked a lot about my cousin.

My cousin who i spent a lot of time with growing up is 1 year younger than me (30) and still lives with his parents too, but hes been bartending for years (just stuck there and cant live on his own cant afford it). He apparently attempted suicide too so hes not been all okay I believe but atleast he works right?

My uncle was complaining so much at the wedding my parents told me, he couldn't sleep last night cause my cousin had 40 people over his parents house out back at the pool, he has a girlfriend with rich parents who pay for them to travel to places like Italy for 3 weeks, my uncle said "He just might have found the one that can take care of him".

Yet here I am , no job for over 10 years, never attempted to off myself for some reason, attractive (definitely more so than my cousin) yet no job or social skills to leverage the attractiveness for any relationship, so i couldn't even find anyone to take care of me if I wanted to lol.

Weird world, I want what he has but he clearly isnt as happy as me because he attempted before me, yet he has friends, a girlfriend with big inheritance that can potentially take care of him and he could go full fledged neet? Bro found the philosophers stone

31m NEET, 10.5 years neeting and counting, recently anhedonia claimed my #1 cope and reality escape mechanism, gaming. Like completely claimed it, i cant game anymore as of 7 months ago.

I was struggling, rot and isolation NEETing away everyday but without gaming and mindlessly scrolling YouTube/IG shorts and staring at walls was making me go *literally insane*. I was losing my sanity little by little each day.

Decided to get back into my gym routine and now I am somehow happy NEETing again despite anhedonia claiming my gaming hobby. Now I can focus on this new hobby and hopefully the urge to game again will slowly build itself back up and by the end of this year or early next year I'll be sick of my gym routine and want to rot and game all day again. Boys i think we found the long term rotation for happy neeting!

Obviously not applicable / relatable to my neets who have no choice to be a neet because disabilities, im sorry bros/sisters :( but if youre going thru a similar situation as I and struggling to happy NEET due to anhedonia claiming hobbies i suggest you try to set up an excercise routine! If its not your thing, tap into some older hobbies you think you outgrew. I thought i was done with gym 8 years ago when I stopped but here I am again.

At 16:07 in the recent lovemaxxing video, listening to this portion puts me off. Why in society is it okay for a woman to date above her means (look for a male partner who has everything they dont have in order to get stability themselves), but when the male does that to even the slightest extent its looked down upon, frowned on?

This whole section she touches on is extremely hypocritical. Why should i as a male be expected to be above my female partner in all aspects in order for my standards of said partner to be justified? Especially when comitting to marriage puts half of MY assets at risk. I think having some standards that punch above my own means here is warranted with such risks at play.

Women want to be the bread winners in this new society, but still have the societal and legal comforts being a stay-at-home wife always gave. I think we need to re-examine this stigma if we are going into a future society where on paper and statistically women are thriving and making more than men on average.. no wonder women cant find relationships in todays society. They want their cake AND to eat it. The man has to look good, be in shape, make more money than her, own more property than her, have the perfect personality, be able to be the perfect dad, be willing to risk half his assets in marriage, then theyll be considered. Men have been taking up trophy wives who make no money because getting all those checks at once is impossible even for the perfect male.

You should be proud. You've broken into stability and are tearing down old gender roles in the workforce , women arent exactly as disadvantaged as men anymore. This is good stuff. However expecting the same treatment as the stay-at-home wife days and imposing impossible standards on your partners will bite you in the ass.

God..and then she invents a term for it - hobosexual.

You mean the lifestyle your gender lived for 99% of humanities existence? And now that things changed youre all high and mighty? I can see exactly why this woman is single - solopreneur female who wants to be "the man" but also have "the man" at her fingertips, or god forbid her partners financial output falls below hers..

Edit: I dont endorse any harsh dogpiling , pls avoid any direct personal attacks on Brittany. Im sure she is a decent human being and it takes courage to talk about some stuff she did to a large audience for a video on camera. I just think how she views "men wanting things they dont have" in regards to standards highlights a major issue in gender expectation clashes as women become more independent.

Do i even bother putting this panel on my monitor arm or just return 🤔

Getting the absolute worst batch is kind of disappointing

This video spoke too directly to how I think, someone please counter-point what this video is saying so I feel better pls

Context: Currently 31 years old, unemployed (for 8 years now and not searching), 10 year resume gap, former pro gamer (was signed and salaried by an org, 2k followers on twitch + affiliate).

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Feeling uninspired, gaming hobby ravaged by Anhedonia (cant even pursue streaming career anymore despite having everything in my lane for it to succeed). I live healthy, wake up and go to bed early, have a consistent workout routine, I consider myself good looking (well above average), I am lean year round and focus on whole foods/healthy nutrition... Yet I still feel lost and ultimately just not passionate about life anymore.

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I lived a rather very normal life until about when I was 20 years old, in 2015, still in college at the time. My brother passed away and I went through a "discovery" phase of my life and started pursuing unconventional paths that I was passionate about the following years.

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Did a bodybodying and physique show and had a successful social media account around fitness in from 2015 to 2017, tore my left labrum and got depressed and fell out of the hobby/stopped growing social media presence.

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Freelanced video editing for a bit since I taught myself how to use Final Cut Pro X efficiently during this time too, especially after surgery.

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In early 2017 since I was recovering from surgery I was playing a lot of PUBG and winning online tournaments for cash. My team got noticed, we got signed to an org and salaried, traveled world, won lans, competed in global tournaments for millions. My twitch account as a result grew rapidly too from the success and I got affiliate + over 100 concurrent viewers in the span of a few months. My life was gaming at this point and I was living my dream life I wanted ever since a kid, competing as a professional esports athlete early in day, streamer by night until bed - Repeat. For a moment I was making enough money to sustain me and go full time.

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However , sometimes good things come to an end. My manager of the PUBG team at the org I was signed to got a better offer for a bigger org, left us, and the org we were under didnt want to pursue PUBG anymore. We became free agents overnight. Never really returned to the same heights, started disliking gaming because of the stress it induced, tried my hardest for several years to get back into pro scene instead of focusing on growing my twitch channel (foolish). Gave up and now my one hobby i had since a very young child just doesnt bring me any joy like it used to anymore.

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I unhooked my pc for 6 months now I cant even see it, yet I still have no desire. I thought I did a few weeks ago when I started finding myself having the urge to watch some streams and enjoying watching people play, but when i rehooked up the PC and sat down, I felt empty and depressed. Obviously my life situation of being a 31 year old NEET at the moment is probably more concerning for you all but this is a situation ive come to terms with due to my unique pro gaming career putting my life on halt and incurring a huge resume gap - at same time i have no desire to pursue a "standard career" as the way I lived life thru my 20s with the gaming career makes me only want that.

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I really want to make streaming work, I can make it work, but I need to fix my mentality about gaming. I do everything right outside gaming, I live healthy, I have other hobbies, but I just cant break past this weird barrier my prior pro career set up around gaming in my head. Any advice? Its like, I know i have what it takes to live this dream life ive wanted ever since a kid, because ive done it, I LIVED IT for a moment. But now its gone, and now the sight of my PC setup or the act of sitting down to use it is like some symbolic totem that just reinjects all these depressive feelings I had when the pro career first started to falter - stress, anxiety, depression, a feeling of striking out but never going to be able to step up to bat again.. its all illogical feelings now because it was so long ago but for some reason the act of gaming or seeing my pc set up constantly refreshes this agony instead of letting it slowly dissipate.

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