u/AdHuge9438

have thin balding hair due to my PCOS thats neither curly wavy nor straight, it’s a frizz mess, i can never style it properly because of how high porosity it is and how frizzy it quickly gets, i have acne prone skin, dark sunken undereyes, a lot of upper eyelid exposure that make me look lowkey retarded, wide masculine straight nose, masculine face shape (it’s kinda squarish and uneven), double chin, thin nonexistent lips, an ugly ass posture, apple shaped body (literally zero ass and thin legs and all the fat goes to my stomach even tho im a normal weight my body looks fat and ugly af) im hairy asf as it couldnt be enough, im olive skinned which makes me look yellow/greenish in the winters and it’s ugly af, i just ask god everyday why did he have to make me so ugly when my sisters are way more decent looking, and literally no one in the world has so many flaws at once like theres literally nothing good in me except maybe my teeth and my eyebrows. I fantasise about being pretty everyday. I use filters to change my face and wish i looked like that. I compare myself to everyone and i would trade my face with almost anyone. Anyone looks at least somewhat better than me and it hurts, i never had a love life because of it and if i were a male id be the last one id choose. I have to wear 10 pounds of make up and use feature changing filters to look barely a 5/10 in pictures. Everyone of my female friends is so effortlessly pretty and when we go to the beach together i wanna kms bc their bodies look so much better than mine unironically even those who are fatter than me bc their weight distribution is better and at least they have some hips. Everytime i open my frontal camera by accident i get so depressed bc how tf do i walk around looking like that. Everytime someone takes a picture of me theres a 100% chance i look absolutely hideous. Some of my friends reassured me and told me camera lens distort faces but then how come none of them look so horrid in pictures? I just will never accept how unattractive i look. The world was evil to me and i’ll never experience how it feels to be pretty.