Slept with my moms friend
For context I’m 31, and my mom is 50. She has a friend who’s 39 that I met yesterday for 4th of July. My mom invited me and a bunch of her friends to hangout by the pool and then watch fireworks later. When I first met her I thought she was cute and she was really outgoing so we got along well. She would flirt me sometimes in front of my mom which was really weird for me but still thought she was cool. Eventually I got her number and towards the end of the night we hooked up in her car in the parking garage and then my house later. And I have to say that a big part of me regrets it. I haven’t been intimate with anyone in two years and haven’t had sex in 3 and a half and as someone who’s hyper sexual it has been hell dealing with it. And I wasn’t thinking clearly. I’m not going to tell my mom anything, but don’t know about her friend. This is gonna complicate things on so many levels and her friend also has a kid which is a 1000% dealbreaker for me. Also her being my mom’s friend. I feel dumb for doing it but also like I said I haven’t been intimate in years and have been so touch starved. I’m hoping nothing else comes from this and my mom and family don’t ever find out. It’s not all bad bc now I know:
- I still got it
- women are still attracted to me(older women too)
But these things kind of feel shallow. But for the last few years I’ve felt so undesirable.
It’s also helped me realize some things. Despite being hypersexual I realize that hookups don’t work for me(which feels like a cruel joke). I don’t want to have sex with someone if we aren’t dating or I don’t feel strongly about them. It just feels empty… to me. I don’t ever want to do something like this again.