
I want parents
The last time I saw my mother it was in some facility for supervised visitation. It was so sterile and the process you enter and leave were weird and people where right there watching and writing the whole time. I don't remember what my mother sounds like and barely remember how she looks. I didn't know that would be the last time I saw her. I don't want to see them again though, they did many things.
I've gone over half my life without a mother. I aged out of foster care and did a lot alone. I was raped in care and had no one to tell, I had to sneak out of the group home to go to a clinic for testing. I just wish I had parents, I'm tired of going through life alone.
I've been on two dozen different medications and nothing helped. The funny thing is I was in a secure hospital for 2 years with no connection to the outside world when a teen and multiple short term commitments. Yet now I have a degree and professional job, and I'm going for a higher degree in healthcare. I don't think I should be allowed to be here and I'm constantly worried that someone will find out and take it all away. I also feel that I cannot properly ask for help since I am doing 'well'. I dunno.
Anyways, Wawa salad and kids grilled cheese.
They gave me an extra milk for some reason and I couldn't resist, now my stomach is bubbling 😞