u/Auroriia

I keep running Into Ai and ghost positions. Anyone else running into this problem, and Is their anyone actually hiring full time?

Pretty much title? Every time I always ask, it's either a No. Well it's a uncertain, Well You need a waiver? Which one actually is it?

I want to join. I want to work out, get alot of physical training done and Practice for my asvab. I think Being in the Army would be valuable to my life and Not money wise.

Where do I go? I constantly see where I am that a budget RV full time is cheaper then an apartment here because everything is super expensive. I'm reaching out because I think it's getting to my point in life where I grow up and Become independent. I do Have AUDHD however but that won't stop me.

I've been mostly sepreate and Isolated from family and friends and Have tried figuring stuff out on my own and I don't know where to look or go?

What are all my expenses I need to consider first? I am open to moving out of state but need a way to visit parents.

How do I compare my expenses Like from an apartment to RV life?

Do i need to live with somebody? If I go out of state I can find a cheaper place?

What kind of credit would I need? And what happens If I do not have any credit at all? But I'm open to building up credit.

I have severe AUDHD, But I would like to figure stuff out but I don't know what to look for. I have a few options so far.

1. Living with Friends or other people in apartment or home. (I might have to, but I don't want to go for this)
2. The Army. ( I can work towards a medical waiver and score high on asvab. It's possible.)
3. Living in an apartment. ( It's expensive here, But it might be possible to solo)
4. Living full time in an RV (I keep getting told this is the cheaper budget option due to my state, But I don't know where to look)

I can't make sense anymore of AI anymore, It's too difficult for me to understand, Does anyone feel this way? I feel like it's still important to reach out to my community.

The biggest question is, How do I keep going? I've stopped eating and sleeping and I'm very into the void mentally. But how do artists and animators keep going with all this mess?

Pretty much title, How can we be in a massive drought, have severe water issues but have AI data centers going up? Somethings not right here.

It's wild absolute doomscrolling just to see furry avatars with proportions that would make NSFW artists envious. Like holy dang. Chill. Like furries are cool, but Not even anime avatars are that unrealistic. Insane body and back breaking standards.

Maybe it's an indirect conversation, Or indirect body language or convensation, I just feel put down almost every day. My parents, My irl friends and some people online?

IRL Friends:

I moved out awhile back ago Because I intentionally had believed my friend directed me for autism assistance as his ex helped with that kind of thing. Instead he directed me with AI and his ex Barely helped? But I cleaned his house. So I don't know, I feel neutral about it. I offered to pay bills, offered to do my own things. I was anxious about alot. But I kept trying to reach out for CBT, cognitive behavioral therapy help. But He got mad I was trying to seek opinions before just taking medication. So i got frustrated,

Another friend unfriended me for having autistic behavioral issues, I don't think that is friendish but we've been friends for 30 years.

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I struggle alot with parents, I think alot is my fault, But I try to ask for extra help Like to drive, or Land a job, Or Try to set up an application or resume, and it feels like I'm speaking with a wall. We fight alot, But I think it's my fault, i can't understand body language or commucation good enough for their intentions.

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Online friends:

One big thing I became aware of is codependence. A past friend brought up. Alot of why he was getting upset was because of independence I was not adjusted to. I think I could have been better But alot of the conversation I felt was indirectly hinting at things.

Alot of my conversations in general I can't really pick up on and alot of folks have mentioned for me to be stuck or not move on, and I won't have any friends.

I've been spending time with an Npcs in games on vrchat. But I don't know if any other autistics are depressed as well to the point of not wanting to eat or not doing anything. I want to be positive but now it's too hard.

Pretty much title, I've considered Living in an RV rather then Apartments Due alot of issues but is it more expensive then it is apartments? Or they cost the sameish depending on what you do? No one has really given a clear answer.

My game has done nothing but absolute disconnecting, but I noticed In the recent update there is a current issue with opengl/AMD? Do I need to also Set back my driver like everyone else?

I have

Processor, AMD Ryzen 7 6800HS with Radeon Graphics (3.20 GHz) Installed RAM, 16.0 GB (15.3 GB usable) Graphics card, NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3050 Laptop GPU (4 GB) AMD Radeon(TM) Graphics (483 MB) System type 64-bit operating system, x64-based processor

Surely everyone here would be all for Some form of tax on AI, To get people who've been replaced or Had content replicated and or mass produced. Surely A Tax on AI would be beneficial so humanity can work less and have some form of UBI and time off?

I keep trying to look it up. Is it possible I could Have EHS? Exploding head syndrome?

When I wake up it feels like I'm disconnected. Bright flash, No noise it's completely silent and feels like nuclear boom is going off. It's scary, I end up running out of bed to the kitchen in a panic. But I did it yesterday but My brain was punching my leg to see If I'm awake.

I still have a extreme vitamin B12 and D defency, and one of the symptoms is extreme fatigue which may cause this. I believe my Autism, MTHFR Gene, I've been using supplements. L-methyfoliate, Vitamin B complex and Vitamin D and RHODIOLA ROSEA might be cause. I do not know.

My friend mentioned I should reach out and ask because It may lead to seizures.

My ping is exceptionally high and the internet keeps losing connection and I keep doing a tracert and It mentions Qwest? Lumen? and Gtt? (update, Sorry I meant Qwest)

Is there an actual issue in aurora/denver colorado? Like what is going on?

1 3 ms 3 ms 3 ms modem

2 26 ms 23 ms 27 ms

3 77 ms 27 ms 25 ms

4 * * * Request timed out.

5 29 ms 40 ms 31 ms

6 28 ms 24 ms 30 ms

7 52 ms 51 ms *

8 * * * Request timed out.

9 * * * Request timed out.

10 75 ms 72 ms 72 ms 4.2.196.42

11 * * * Request timed out.

12 73 ms 77 ms 73 ms

Centurylink over and over mentions that They have No issues, outages? And it's not from both my Computers?

I don't normally have an issue, But We just got a new modem today and Our ping has always been about 45. Now it's Sticking at 60-62 ping, Can anyone in colorado Or Near confirm? Even in other states?

I thought it was my laptop, And PC build. But I've done everything to updating drivers and to changing the DNS back and fourth. I think it's on centurylink side?