u/Ayush-Mincraft

This is going to be a long one like a life story, I hope someone reads this and it does not get ignored

So I'm 17 years old male legally, in reality I'm a year or so younger than 17, because my parents messed with my birth certificate by giving it to my relatives to change something they wanted, now my date of birth, month and year is messed up for life, which is the least of my concern for now because things are going downhill fast

You know how a kid who grows up without any love or hope might normalize their cold environment because they know nothing else, seeing a sibling receive that love completely shatters that baseline. Basically thats what's happening in my life from start till now and it's getting worst

My sister who is 5 years older then me gets everything because she is better in studies while i am neglected in every way possible. It's not even neglect it's abuse sometimes mentaly and physically

There always have been this comparison between me and my sister, while she gets everything she wants, I'm really underfeed I'm about 40kg at my age and really thin

My parents always celebrated my sister birthday but stopped doing mine they stopped celebrating my birthday from when I was 9 and whenever my distant relatives call to wish me happy birthday they make me lie also whenever I get little money from relatives for any occasion Whether its my birthday I keep it in a box or anywhere it disappears, my father takes it because we are not doing well financially my part offcourse, they would sell me if my sister needs anything they can't afford

Also i don't go out at all like never i only go to school and rot at my house all day. I don't go out because of how thin I'm im like a human twig with body hair like a bear. so I always were full shirts uniform in school and going out normally means i have to wear half T-shirt, it's always hot where i live, people make fun of me even my friends, if I say to my mother i want to wear full to go out and I say the reason she beats me shames me and forces me to wear what she wants

The reason I'm so thin and underweight is because of the food they feed me it's a plate of rice with a sprinkle of vegetables only one kind all day. we eat meat and eggs like once every 3 week mostly because she my mom is religious and thinks eating non veg food is against God and is unhealthy she thinks eating how we eat is good for our health, no wonder our whole relatives and family has multiple health issues

Another reason i don't go out is my body hair i have legs hair like a literal bear my friends tell me to trim it but when I mention it to my parents my mother beats me and screams and shames me, tells me to become a girl and strip myself

Because of which i get shamed by everyone in both ways one tells me to trim it saying people will get scared and other my parents and relatives say not to as it would turn me into a girl

The food situation wasn't always like that when my sister was there before she moved to university my mother would make whatever she wanted

And when i mention my weight and how thin i am she blames that I don't drink enough water my relatives say the same. Im worried what this will do for the long term for my health

While my sister is eating good in her university hostel, every bit of money goes to her for her whatever needs

I really wanted to be a game developer when I grew up so when i was 13 I started to learn game dev from YouTube we did not had a computer, i mean we had a very old laptop which was misteriously broken and blamed on me, I did nothing let me tell you

So when i was 13 I started to learn and do game development on my phone on this game engine name godot which a mobile version is available the progress was slow as expected but I was slowly coding my own 2d dream game on my phone which was my only hope but my old phone could not handle it as it grew bigger so i begged my parents to fix the broken laptop which only the screen was broken it would only cost like 50$ at most. they never did it went into the junk. And then when i was 14 my sister was in college she needed a laptop to do GIS so my parents somehow bought her a 1000$ gaming laptop it was when i realised how unfair my life was and made a promise to myself to leave this house and country when i turn 18 if I was successful in game dev or freelancing, I was able to use her laptop to code my game when she was not using it but only for like a 10 month after which she would be moving to her dream university

(The age or timeline might not be entirely accurate I'm trying to recall most of it)

When i heard that she would be moving I went into depression because I would be put in darkness again with nothing to do, playing mobile game does not bring me joy I wanted a better life where I could eat healthy so my legs does not shiver when i walk downstairs or my hands does not shake when i lift something

So like a month before she left I started a gofund me for my dream game, not gofund me it was kofi. I thought it was another useless attempt but no people helped me I got about a thousand dollars in donation which was insane at that time, it bought me hope and joy which was short lived. my parents called me an Ebegger and took that money and used it for my sisters university expenses i was again devastated. they gave me the excuse that i needed to focus on my study and after the final examination they will bring me a laptop

After 10 months they finally bought me a laptop it was way cheaper than 1000 dollars but they brought me

It was of not much use because if you ever coded before you know if you leave a code for too long dont touch it, don't read it you will forget everything about it so after 10 months my games code was literally unreadable and I was so heartbroken that I could not continue with it in whatsoever way and my dream is now broken

They don't see me as a human that needs love and care they see me as a investment a retirement fund or something

I thought they were being nice or kind to buy me a laptop with my own money but I was wrong. They bought me that laptop in hopes that I can make more money

My mother askes everyday now, what has happened to my game will i upload it or not, am I still working on it

Because if I tell her the truth now she would take my laptop away, these monsters of parents only bought me my laptop so that they can squeeze more money out of me so they can use it on my sister, she guilts trips me by saying that because of my laptop they are now in debt every day.

I have now started a youtube channel but that is also not going to work because i cannot upload regularly, I don't have my own mobile sim or have wifi plan I use wifi from my moms phone she gets 1.5 gb of bandwidth each day which she finishes by morning

I also can't use my own laptop freely because my mother said if relatives comes to our house i should hide my laptop else they will think we are "rich" apparently.

The weather is horrible where i live, high heat and very very high humidity make it feel like 50° celsius or more. im doing nothing but sitting under fan and the heat is killing me we don't have AC, even in night time it's stupidly hot which means i cant use my laptop in any way during this time except at night when i have no internet

Im writing this in my phones notes app because i have nothing to do right now without internet

Studding is not going to work because i live in india and we have this caste system here different people like (ST schedule cast, ST schedule tribe, obc ) gets marks added in competitive exams and gets certain advantages

And I'm in the "highest" (general) so everyone gets advantages over me it is literally impossible to get a seat in anything because of how competitive it is and Because of the caste system for me, not to mention we are not rich at all, all the money went to my sister so I can't get coaching or anything

Because of which i have to eat like shit everyday, I'm even getting thinner now day by day and guess who is getting blamed for it by everyone, LITERALLY EVERYONE is blaming me

I cannot just go and work at McDonald's because that doesn't exist here and no one will hire a teenager there are already millions of unemployed adults ready to take a job

Also in india no teenager works, it is seen as shameful to their parents they would not let me work. not to mention the payments would be in peanuts. here parents are supposed to provide for their kids till they study and become what their parents want them to become, after which the parents would retire from what shîtty jobs they did and leach on their kids income for the rest of their life, living with them and controlling every aspect of living because they gave their boy no freedom so they can controll them however they want, giving them no privacy

There is nothing I don't have anyone to talk to my relatives are pathetic like my parents, my friends will not longer be friends

And most of the people here will say this is just normal life

I have no privacy as a teenager I don't have my own room every door stays open, my mother would knock on the bathroom door every 5 minutes to know what I'm doing and why is what taking so long

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Guys i need some guidance on how things work

Guys I need some guidance on how things work

Guys i need some guidance on how things work

Guys I need some guidance on how things work

Why guys why?

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