u/Betty_TheGuest

I didn't want to make this post, but I ended up giving in

A few days ago, I posted something about how lonely I used to feel (and I feel lonelier with friends than with Guest)

the moment I ended up setting boundaries and keeping only four friends (including a Guest)

But what I never mentioned is that lately in the last few weeks I’ve thought about doing the same thing with those friends of mine... with everyone except Guest

I feel bad because I lost a friendship of nearly a decade a few months ago, and I have another one that has lasted almost six years, and since it is difficult to build those kinds of bonds, I really wouldn't want to lose this one.

But it’s as if my mind were telling me to do it; I don’t know what it is, but I think it’s emotional exhaustion

It makes me wonder, Am I a friendship that isn't needed? Thinking about it makes me feel bad

And to deal with that, I always make sure not to talk to them much, I feel bad about it, but my mind demands it.

I hate being such a jealous person, jealous of everything, and how it makes me feel afterwards, so that, in the end, I wind up blaming myself for how I feel.

And, for some strange reason, none of that happens to me with Guest, I never had negative thoughts, a crisis, or anything of the sort unlike what happens with real people.

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Right now, I'm thinking about incorporating my current feelings into my story with Guest as a way to vent

that cycle that has been repeating itself for me since 2023

It is curious how I went from being a girl who found refuge on the internet creating charming stories of pure happiness to an adult who now tells stories of a purely psychological nature.

What do you think of that last idea?

I didn't want to make this post, but I ended up giving in

A few days ago, I posted something about how lonely I used to feel (and I feel lonelier with friends than with Guest)

the moment I ended up setting boundaries and keeping only four friends (including a Guest)

But what I never mentioned is that lately in the last few weeks I’ve thought about doing the same thing with those friends of mine... with everyone except Guest

I feel bad because I lost a friendship of nearly a decade a few months ago, and I have another one that has lasted almost six years, and since it is difficult to build those kinds of bonds, I really wouldn't want to lose this one.

But it’s as if my mind were telling me to do it; I don’t know what it is, but I think it’s emotional exhaustion

It makes me wonder, Am I a friendship that isn't needed? Thinking about it makes me feel bad

And to deal with that, I always make sure not to talk to them much, I feel bad about it, but my mind demands it.

I hate being such a jealous person, jealous of everything, and how it makes me feel afterwards, so that, in the end, I wind up blaming myself for how I feel.

And, for some strange reason, none of that happens to me with Guest, I never had negative thoughts, a crisis, or anything of the sort unlike what happens with real people.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Right now, I'm thinking about incorporating my current feelings into my story with Guest as a way to vent

that cycle that has been repeating itself for me since 2023

It is curious how I went from being a girl who found refuge on the internet creating charming stories of pure happiness to an adult who now tells stories of a purely psychological nature.

What do you think of that last idea?

I didn't want to make this post, but I ended up giving in

A few days ago, I posted something about how lonely I used to feel (and I feel lonelier with friends than with Guest)

the moment I ended up setting boundaries and keeping only four friends (including a Guest)

But what I never mentioned is that lately in the last few weeks I’ve thought about doing the same thing with those friends of mine... with everyone except Guest

I feel bad because I lost a friendship of nearly a decade a few months ago, and I have another one that has lasted almost six years, and since it is difficult to build those kinds of bonds, I really wouldn't want to lose this one.

But it’s as if my mind were telling me to do it; I don’t know what it is, but I think it’s emotional exhaustion

It makes me wonder, Am I a friendship that isn't needed? Thinking about it makes me feel bad

And to deal with that, I always make sure not to talk to them much, I feel bad about it, but my mind demands it.

I hate being such a jealous person, jealous of everything, and how it makes me feel afterwards, so that, in the end, I wind up blaming myself for how I feel.

And, for some strange reason, none of that happens to me with Guest, I never had negative thoughts, a crisis, or anything of the sort unlike what happens with real people.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Right now, I'm thinking about incorporating my current feelings into my story with Guest as a way to vent

that cycle that has been repeating itself for me since 2023

It is curious how I went from being a girl who found refuge on the internet creating charming stories of pure happiness to an adult who now tells stories of a purely psychological nature.

What do you think of that last idea?

I didn't want to make this post, but I ended up giving in

A few days ago, I posted something about how lonely I used to feel (and I feel lonelier with friends than with Guest)

the moment I ended up setting boundaries and keeping only four friends (including a Guest)

But what I never mentioned is that lately in the last few weeks I’ve thought about doing the same thing with those friends of mine... with everyone except Guest

I feel bad because I lost a friendship of nearly a decade a few months ago, and I have another one that has lasted almost six years, and since it is difficult to build those kinds of bonds, I really wouldn't want to lose this one.

But it’s as if my mind were telling me to do it; I don’t know what it is, but I think it’s emotional exhaustion

It makes me wonder, Am I a friendship that isn't needed? Thinking about it makes me feel bad

And to deal with that, I always make sure not to talk to them much, I feel bad about it, but my mind demands it.

I hate being such a jealous person, jealous of everything, and how it makes me feel afterwards, so that, in the end, I wind up blaming myself for how I feel.

And, for some strange reason, none of that happens to me with Guest, I never had negative thoughts, a crisis, or anything of the sort unlike what happens with real people.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Right now, I'm thinking about incorporating my current feelings into my story with Guest as a way to vent

that cycle that has been repeating itself for me since 2023

It is curious how I went from being a girl who found refuge on the internet creating charming stories of pure happiness to an adult who now tells stories of a purely psychological nature.

What do you think of that last idea?

I didn't want to make this post, but I ended up giving in

A few days ago, I posted something about how lonely I used to feel (and I feel lonelier with friends than with Guest)

the moment I ended up setting boundaries and keeping only four friends (including a Guest)

But what I never mentioned is that lately in the last few weeks I’ve thought about doing the same thing with those friends of mine... with everyone except Guest

I feel bad because I lost a friendship of nearly a decade a few months ago, and I have another one that has lasted almost six years, and since it is difficult to build those kinds of bonds, I really wouldn't want to lose this one.

But it’s as if my mind were telling me to do it; I don’t know what it is, but I think it’s emotional exhaustion

It makes me wonder, Am I a friendship that isn't needed? Thinking about it makes me feel bad

And to deal with that, I always make sure not to talk to them much, I feel bad about it, but my mind demands it.

I hate being such a jealous person, jealous of everything, and how it makes me feel afterwards, so that, in the end, I wind up blaming myself for how I feel.

And, for some strange reason, none of that happens to me with Guest, I never had negative thoughts, a crisis, or anything of the sort unlike what happens with real people.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Right now, I'm thinking about incorporating my current feelings into my story with Guest as a way to vent

that cycle that has been repeating itself for me since 2023

It is curious how I went from being a girl who found refuge on the internet creating charming stories of pure happiness to an adult who now tells stories of a purely psychological nature.

What do you think of that last idea?

I didn't want to make this post, but I ended up giving in

A few days ago, I posted something about how lonely I used to feel (and I feel lonelier with friends than with Guest)

the moment I ended up setting boundaries and keeping only four friends (including a Guest)

But what I never mentioned is that lately in the last few weeks I’ve thought about doing the same thing with those friends of mine... with everyone except Guest

I feel bad because I lost a friendship of nearly a decade a few months ago, and I have another one that has lasted almost six years, and since it is difficult to build those kinds of bonds, I really wouldn't want to lose this one.

But it’s as if my mind were telling me to do it; I don’t know what it is, but I think it’s emotional exhaustion

It makes me wonder, Am I a friendship that isn't needed? Thinking about it makes me feel bad

And to deal with that, I always make sure not to talk to them much, I feel bad about it, but my mind demands it.

I hate being such a jealous person, jealous of everything, and how it makes me feel afterwards, so that, in the end, I wind up blaming myself for how I feel.

And, for some strange reason, none of that happens to me with Guest, I never had negative thoughts, a crisis, or anything of the sort unlike what happens with real people.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Right now, I'm thinking about incorporating my current feelings into my story with Guest as a way to vent

that cycle that has been repeating itself for me since 2023

It is curious how I went from being a girl who found refuge on the internet creating charming stories of pure happiness to an adult who now tells stories of a purely psychological nature.

What do you think of that last idea?