u/CirriTheFemboyUwU

M 20, neurotypical. Getting fit and confident didn't turn off my bully-magnet. Growing up I wasn't as handsome as i am right now, i was ostracized and then non-physically bullied up to the last day of high school (europe). The trauma is there (and I will talk to a therapist), when I met my partner's friend group i still felt like I was threatened and only later I realized this was the first time in my life I wasn't being preyed upon, but I still fucked it up because getting tense is a trauma response at this point. Either way, that was a rare exception, because whenever I try to be friendly with new people I always end up being looked upon as if I was some sort of circus animal, this goes as well for family and literal KIDS that will be making fun of me. Since I have 2-3 years of fighting experience I on rare occasions get physical to "defend my respect" (i know, cringe, but that's a literal panic response) and on those rare occasions I get laughed on, laughs like those literally keep me on at night. And don't get me wrong, i believe I have good social skills as I've had multiple self-respecting partners. I really want this torture to stop, I want to be in a group and don't want to off myself the moment I feel malicious intentions, I want to say a joke and not feel stared at as if I was an alien speaking a new language, I want to stop feeling threatened.

The TS5050 my family had for like 8 years has decided to squirt ink on the house walls, meaning it's better if I buy a new one. The requirements are very high, it should be just a printer. It must work without having to pay extortion subscription money. Preferably designed for frequent use, it must have a scanner, automatic front+back printing and the ability to receive printing instruction through wifi connection and colored A4 prints. So just a printer. (bonus if it uses 570XL/571XL cartridges as I own plenty of spare ones)

Theoretically graves should be able to counter hecarim, pratically if I play graves I will lose that matchup because I don't actually know how to win it at a decision-making level, I lack the fundamental theory behind this fundamental, which is why I suck at champs who rely on it like graves, rengar or kindred. I'd love direct responses but even better would be sources you think are good in their teaching.

Emerald. I play a variety of champs, my favourites are kha'zix and bel'veth. I really struggle with ganks botlane because support players are ruining my life, every gank turns into an enemy triple kill if my support isn't as good as the enemy, but that's beyond the scope of my question. What I struggle with really is past laning phase where I can't in a million years catch the enemy adc, since I don't play malphite I try to wait for a fight before engaging on the enemy backline, but it's downright impossible, as they will blow me up, while my team loses against the enemy bruiser/tank. The one single biggest struggle I have with climbing is when the enemy team adopts a "deathball" strategy where they roam as a group and there's nothing my team can do, eventually losing all objectives and the game.

I'm returning after maybe a year of not touching the game willing to get the british empire world conquest achievement, however the game has changed in many ways since the japan dlc, especially I never really understood what the meta was before that, even less now. Playing the UK I'll need a good navy to invade and I the only sources I found were some youtube videos with differing ideas, I'm asking here.
P.S. If anyone knows some fleet designs that are "funny" as in they decimate the enemy navy everytime, I would love to be informed about that

The only ones in which I succeed in getting liked enough to be part of their lives always end up becoming romantic relationships, and it's getting tiring, I want actual friends not a partner. When the exasperated me tries to get some info before getting away from an "unsuccessful friendship" (ik the term is weird but I can't come up with something better) they always say "nobody hates you" and "everybody loves you". But that's bullshit, because I'm always the first to be excluded from outings or any form of group. When, after the confrontation they say they'll try to consider me more, I will be ghosted until we forget of each other. I'm 20, finally left school, I want to start over in a new city with new people, since I believe I'm committing some kind of mistake, I want to know what that mistake is so I can develop better friendships.
(If I sound entitled in my wording, I apologize for that, as I am indeed exasperated as the time of writing this)

Per un neodiplomato, il mio cv è abbondante di competenze ed esperienze lavorative, eppure l'unica volta che ho ricevuto una risposta in tipo 3 anni di utilizzo era quando avevo personalmente scritto il titolare di un bar perchè aveva lasciato il numero di telefono nell'annuncio

I was discussing with a friend, I'm jealous of their relationship because they can feel emotions clearly, mine felt muddy for several years and I need to drink heavily to remove the mud, don't get me wrong, I have a healthy relationship with my partner, the problem persisted longer than this.
When I try to come up with thoughts on my own, solutions to my problems on my own, I feel a certain type of literal resistance to my own thought, as if the title says, I'm swimming upstream. I think others call this brain fog, but I didn't mention it because while the term is pretty nailed to my condition, its pretty common use and I don't feel like it matches my situation.

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he bought zhonya's as third item, he's been oneshotting my team with 0 damage items for 20 minutes while we could barely make a dent.

can't farm, can't take drake, can't take grubs, can't gank because they will always be there to ruin your life, and for some reason it's always a karma. And it's not my support being bad, it's the enemy who is maximizing annoyment on investment.

I'm a bi guy (20) who wants to become more attractive, but I dislike masculinity in general, but I also dislike male feminity (altought that doesn't make me nb), I dislike the fact that tips to become more attractive are always aimed at a gender category (like, if you google "how to become more attractive" the first 2 entries are "as a man" and "as a woman") how about as a person? But a problem I noticed in the androgynous look is that it is almost never non-gendered, it's actually a feminine coat of paint for amabs, and a masculine coat of paint for afabs. How can one become more attractive without focusing one's look on the gender binary? How can one get into shape without developing muscles? (which my body is luckily/unfortunately very good at), I struggle to find sources that can help me plan my glowup, I'd love if someone here could share some useful insight.

A friend of mine told me something i didn't like, i took it very personally as it struck my most exposed nerve and have been feeling a mix of negative emotions since, my friend doesn't know this. Since i want to become a better person i want to avoid ignoring these, because I know from experience I'd be bottling them up and will come and punish me in the future. But i have no idea on how to do that, it's like my brain has become hostile to emotional problem solving. What can I do?

I was 14 when the quarantine started, I wasn't a super sociable kid then but holy hell my life has just gotten worse since then, I've gotten stupider, addicted to a lot of stuff, chronically online etc.
My growth has been posticipated, people my age turned out fine and I'm envious of them, I never go outside, I don't know what people even do outside, I don't know how to meet people and where to go to meet people, and I don't know how I can fix this.

What I mean is level of complexity + cool multiblocks like gtnh but for people who care about the journey but care more about the destination. (I do already play gtnh and I like it but I dream of completing a modpack in my life, thing I've never done)

I got emerald by just learning my champions (nilah, samira and sivir) and popping off late game, but my weakest part is the laning phase, and that's not an understatement, 9 games out of 10 I will be 2 levels behind enemy adc and negative kd by 20 minutes, and rarely it's because of the enemy adc being too good or a mechanical issue, but it's always the enemy support, either being ranged poke, enchanters or melee engage, they always walk in front of my minions and I have my hands tied, I engage, they do it harder and I die, I try to trade and I barely tickle them while I'm down 50% of my hp, I stay back, I lose the next 3 waves and half of the next one to turret. This happens twice as hard when I try to play a more regular adc like jinx. I'm 90% certain that the reason I can't climb is because I never learned how to lane in the botlane and I can't find any good resource to learn on that's not corporate slop (like skillcapped) or some streamer sharing 20 minutes of gameplay with not really informative commentary in which all my pain points never occur in minimal part. I would really be grateful if someone could help me by either giving their own insight or linking something that can help me learn.

youtube is filled to the brim with corporate slop and just some guy playing on smurf account for 20 minutes with no explaination of any type of thought process, mobafire doesn't have a good rengar guide, or at least one that's visible. Cause I really fucking suck at rengar but have no idea on how he's supposed to be played, especially on a macro scale, because at any point in the game every choice I can make feels like a losing move, or a full rotation tickling the enemy adc.

I have a gaming problem, however I only recognize it when I'm about to go to sleep after having wasted an entire day playing, i promise i won't touch the game tomorrow, but the moment I come back from school, it's automatic, i sit on the computer chair, 8 hours pass and I'm back at where i was, i really need advice please.