u/ComfortableCause418

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I'M HOWLING LOL WHAT IS THIS HAIR

I'm sad and I'm crying, but it has to be done. I'm sick of being obese. I can barely go outside the house without feeling overwhelming guilt and shame over having letting myself go this badly. Doing regular cleaning in the house and basic movement is exhausting for me.

My focus in the beginning is calorie counting. I can eat whatever I want - but it has to be within my budget (which is 1500 calories). After some days (or if I feel like it earlier) I will start introducing physical activity. And, after that, trying to go a few days without sugar and unhealthy stuff (in the beginning I will consume a small amount, within my budget, which will be tough enough as it is). I have counted calories before with great success (lost 10 kg, this is a few years ago), so I know what I'm doing luckily! I want to lose the weight fast the first 15 kg, and then go slow and steady from there.

Here's to becoming a better version of myself. I'm battling mental illness and are in a bad place right now, but I don't care. This is my goal, I need to lose the weight. I deserve better. I have been hating myself for so many years, I have been ignoring my health issues, I have been putting off taking care of myself for SO long. I have treated myself badly, I would never treat any other person like this, and I should not treat myself this way either. Counting calories and becoming aware of what I eat is a huge step in the right direction, I often beat myself up for not doing enough for myself and end up doing nothing - now I'm focused, this is what I'm going to focus on for a while now, and then I can start doing more about my lifestyle to become better and healthy. I'm keeping myself accountable. I CAN DO THIS. I have barely achieved anything in life. But I can achieve this. Food will not control me anymore. It will not ruin me.

SW, HW and CW: 105 kg
Goal weight withing the end of this year: 85 kg
Ultimate goal weight: 75 kg (I weighed this for years before becoming obese)

I don't know why I announce this. Maybe because I want someone to tell me I can do it. And maybe because I can come back in some months and say "I'm doing GREAT!!". I just want to tell someone, because I have no one else to tell. Cheers!!

I have very oily scalp and no I do not want advices on how to "fix" it because I have tried everything for years - I have washed my hair daily for months now and my hair and scalp has never been healthier.

I have been looking at the OUAI Fine Hair series and are considering trying it out. Has anyone used it daily and what is your experience with it? Do you have any other shampoos to recommend? My hair is fine, wavy and my scalp oily. My hair is not dry.

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I'm rewatching DH for the first time in 10+ years and I'm blown away by Eddie's performance. I recently watched the episode about his backstory and how he turned out the way he did - incredible acting and even though he did terrible things, you could not NOT feel sorry for everything he went through. He was a kid that got severly let down by his parents - father leaving, and mother drinking and raising him to hate himself.

Now of course I'm not justifying his action but his character is definitely the most interesting in the show to me and it's a great storyline. Baby Eddie deserved so much better.