How do I let go and make peace of her choosing herself?
For context: we've been together for 3 years and 5 months. And just last May, we broke up. We've kept contact until today June 5. But i told her how i feel i told her sometimes i felt confused with the sudden push-pull dynamics we have. But i was the reason we broke up, i got too controlling too insecure for months since last year, and she got tired of it. She lost herself in the process of trying to adjust on my needs and insecurities. Then today we've talked about our setup and I may have said something in a way that i don't mean to, which i understand why it might've come off, so in the end she told me to let's stop our setup. She told me to stop begging to maintain our friendship, and social media following. I didn't beg i respectfully accepted it. But the real question is, how do i move on? How do i keep moving forward? What do i do now? It feels unbearable to not reach for her when i subconsciously do. Please help me. I respect her and i dont wanna smother her. How do i get better? What are the things I can do now?