u/DarkSouls3Maniac

I grew up a muslim believing in hadith and the quran, i was young and never questioned it. I prayed 5 times a day, did every instruction I was given.

Until another group told me you will go to hell for believing this, asharis say atharis are going to hell, madhkalis with wahabis with this and that. Basically islam in itself is confusing because everyone has a verse in the quran to back up their claims or a hadith.

So i stopped believing in hadith all together i went stricly through the quran, but then I said if we can question hadith why can't we question the quran? Isn't that blind faith?
I learned that even the miracles in the quran aren't miracles they were theories already mentioned by geniuses like aristotle hundreds of years ago. At the end of the day it's all just BELIEF no proof. Allah didn't even show us the correct way to pray and he ALLOWED hadith to exist causing so much division.

Why is our religion the right one if we have 0 proof? I mean even the christians and hindus can say "well you just have to believe" i really need guidance, i'm leading towards agnosticism but I want guidance and I hope one of you who went through the same thing can help.

I started taking 5 mg of ZEPIRA brand for 4 months last year and because I have anxiety which causes paranoia and stuttering, which made med school hell for me.

After 4 months i started passing every exam, my business was going great, sleep was perfect. So i did the mistake and said "maybe I don't need it anymore i already landed on my feet" so now the anxiety is back I can't sit and study, I don't want to leave far from my house i get anxious that something bad will happen. I kind of isolated myself.

My psychologist is saying that maybe I don't need them but I think i really do, are there any side effects to starting again? Except the usual weight gain and drowziness the first weeks.

I'm finally convinced, i wanna get into the genre.

Suggest me the best final fantasy to start with, i want something newer, better graphics, beautiful world.

A cozy world strikes me more than the story itself, for example witcher 3, also something with crisp combat.

(Reason why I decided to play these games is because i heart the community is really good)