u/DeadTiredAndWired

Hey all,

I have ocd that is associated with suicidal thoughts while the thoughts are scare I have lived with them for sometime knowing that it's not what I want and my brain was just misfiring.

But in the last few days I have hit a extremely depressive slump I'm thinking it's because I have been suffering from insomnia for a few weeks so I am so tired but haven't been able to sleep.

For the last 3 days I have wanted to be around my family a ton because I just feel so depressed and I'm getting the same thoughts I always get but it hits alittle different cause I'm depressed.

I have had Anhedonia for many months which I think is the result of stopping anti depressants about 4 months ago. That being said before you all ask I was on antidepressant does anxiety not depression.

This depression thing is new I have never really been depressed just anxiety and ocd. But it feels like I'm going through a really scary slump.

So I'm curious how do you tell if it's just a slump or the onset of major depression. I'm assuming some of this could be just neurotransmitters shifting being that I have been off anti depressants for four months.

I'm hesitant to go to a psych because anti depressants cause me a lot of other types of problems that are very debillitating. This is too but it's only been about 4 days but it is extremely scary cause this is much more then just alittle depressed mood it's bad I can barely work right now. What's crazy though is I have nothing to be depressed about other then I have had insomnia and can't sleep.

Hey all,

I am set up for deviated septum surgery and just counting down the days. I have been having terrible depression horrible plus terrible intrusive thoughts. I think it's cause I am so tired I just don't sleep well I wear breathing strips at night but I they don't help much. I toss and turn because I can't sleep.

I think I am just worn out. Also my cognitive health is failing I'm so tired all the time. I want to nap all the time have no motivation and being able to remember things has become hard cause I can't focus. I also have really bad anxiety as well.

I think I let this nose thing go on for too long. I should have done it awhile ago but I kept thinking I could get away with nasal strips but they just aren't cutting it anymore. I used them for about two years but my breathing seems to be getting worse.

Did any one here have severe cognitive problems because of deviated septum or nasal collapse? If so what were they like?

Also if you have any of you had crippling depression or anxiety caused by the deviated septum or collapse?

Last question did any of you suffered severe lack of motivation like couldn't bring your self to do anything?

Was any of this fixed or corrected by the surgery

WTF is going on we have people cheating damn near every game most of it is what ever this to aim hack is. I think it's some form of ai aim assist but whatever it is it must be super easy to get because I have never seen so much of it. We are playing full teams that at least two have it and the dudes are dropping 3.0 and 4.0 kds every match. I just called a dude out and he said if you know everyone is cheating why aren't you get with the program and laughed then told me even if I got it I would still lose.

Is Activision just not doing anything anymore

The servers have always been shit and there is no way taking away mmr meant the 95 percent of players were iri just by eliminating mmr. Just curious there was no reason to play after the matches over the weekend just curious if they fixed whatever they fucked up over the weekend with the update.

And for all you people who say dumb shit like the lobbies are great. True skill actually matters now, no skill base to save you gtfo your probably cheating too. Their ain't no way people are beaming MPCs across map with no recoil and they always have some dumb response like they can control their recoil push down on the sticks. It's all good we ain't gonna hate just be straight up your cheating

Hey all,

I have a conspiracy thought and I'm gonna put it out there. I was have always been a platinum player the last few cods played with several friends who were diamond and crim before this all fake thing started in black ops 7.

But cod claimed they just eliminated MMR but I know legit diamond and crim players that use to drop 60 or 70 a match and they are getting completely shit on in the current lobbies even by lower ranked players. We have lost matches every day the last four days since the update and the rank didn't matter even golds were more cracked the iri players.

There is no way that just taking our MMR would have equated to straight losses it's not even a 20 percent win ration it's all losses. Guys dropping 40 or 50 kills and like maybe 10 deaths max. There is no way there are this many cracked players in low ranks. Even without the whole mmr thing.

I personally believe cods team made a monumental fuck up and didn't take out MMR they actually some how through players in to the shadow ban lobbies. Every match is god like aim, these guys always have the jump and two steps ahead, even when you shoot and land two or three bullets with their back faced to you they whip around and instant lock on two shots and your out. Also how is it that all these demons are always stacked on the same team even in solo q. Is it possibly because all of them are shadow banned and the random pool is all cheaters.

I just don't believe that there is this many of the top 5 percent of players there is no way you can tell me that dropping mmr means everyone else is iri that's retarted. COD fucked something up you can watch the kill cams and all the kill cams right now are suspect as fuck. And what's hilarious is when you ask the guys about they all just chuckle and say you're just bad or move your fingers. There is no way the skill gap is that large for a huge player pool I get the cdl players but that's a small fraction they eliminated mmr and now suddenly every lobby has three or four iris and damn near everyone is cheating.

I don't know what cod was doing with this one but this ain't it you want to save a franchise they need to fix this shit asap

Has anyone here suffered from low dopamine or a dampened reward system from excessive dopamine habits like gaming. Basically I'm curious if anyone has felt like they drained all their dopamine or severely dampened there reward sensitivity. I don't game much anymore mainly because I don't enjoy it as much.

But I have been in the this no motivation, no libido, can't focus on anything, can't feel good no happiness state for awhile.

I just can't figure out how to fix it. I do still game alittle bit but I figured I would have seen a massive improvement in this feeling but I haven't. I just feel so tired and drained no motivation or reward for anything daily. The only other thing I could do is cut out gaming completely.

Just was curious if anyone else had a low dopamine feeling that improved? What their symptoms were and kinda what recovery looked like.

Hey all,

I have been pretty addicted to gaming usually 3 or 4 hours a night I game on weekends usually 6 hours per day. I also masturbate but lately I just feel so depleted nothing feels rewarding. I barely get any erections at all, when I do I lose them easily. Can't really figure out what's causing the ed but my testosterone levels are perfect and I generally sleep through the night.

Lately I have felt like I have no dopamine. I can't figure out if it's that I have masturbated every night for years or if it is excessive gaming causing the issue. I also don't know if this is a dampened reward system or truly low dopamine.

I just know nothing is exciting or makes me feel good. I'm never horny anymore and I can't focus for long for anything which is making me incredible anxious.

Just i have been trying to cut down on gaming but I can't tell which thing is the bigger culprit in draining or dampening my dopamine.

I'm trying to get better at embracing boredom. But just curious if anyone has battled this low dopamine feeling and successfully got out of it and what was causing it.

Id like my sex drive back but just don't know what or how it fixes.

Hey all,

Do yall know any good methods to determine the cause I'm going back to the urologist at the end of this month. I have had my heart checked 0 CAC score said my heart was in great condition.

Even with cialis I get these sometimes very soft non firm erections. Definately something with blood flow going on in there.

Basically if you remember your dick going pointing straight up mine on a good day just goes straight out and kinda soft like it's just not getting rigid.

I can't figure out why the 5mg cialis daily isn't doing much for it.

I occasionally get alittle pain a few inches below my belly button and I am alittle overweight. Is it possible this is a weak pelvic floor thing I don't really exercise and pretty sedentary but I didn't think pelvic floor issues were that common. That's the only occasional symptoms I have other then I am tired a lot but I take testosterone therapy so my hormones are always on point.

I don't get erections often and they I just get occasional extra blood flow down their with cialis but never get rigidly hard.

I'm just not sure what's going on.

I did take some anti depressants a few months ago but I'm about three months since I took them granted this ed issue developed at the same time but I have a hard time believing I'm psychologically I'm still messed up causing ed when I haven't take the anti depressants in several months. That's what leads me to believe there is some sort of physical issue going on here.

Also before anyone say psychological I guess my concern is I'm have ed even with solo masturbation. I'm not gonna like yes I have a lot of anxiety for the last few months related to this but everything I see with performance anxiety is more for with another person this even happens solo and I'm not nervous about that really other then it's super annoying it not working.

I'm gonna ask the urologist for a Doppler exam and to run some other test like prolactin and thyroid. But this have all been checked many times so I don't imagine that's the issue.

I'm just real confused what's going on

Hey all,

I started some Zoloft then lexapro about 4 or 5 months ago within 4 days I had a terrible reaction to the meds. I started developing suicidal thoughts but had never really had depression before the thoughts were looping consistently. I later learned the thoughts were more OCD like in nature very similar to harm ocd rather then depressive suicidality. The thoughts were just there all the time.

The psych said that was very uncommon and made it sound more like my original condition but my original condition was just anxiety she encouraged me to stick it out. By week 4 or 5 I was so foggy and numb from medication the thoughts did go away but I had a host of sexual problems and just didn't feel good.

I opted to quit but I have been off for nearly two months and the thoughts still linger around some days are horrible some days improve a bit but always there.

I keep thinking somehow the medication damaged my brain because I don't understand how two months off the medication and I'm still having this weird ocd thing going on. On top of that non of my sexual issues really resolved other then I got alittle sensitivity back.

Just curious if anyone else has had a bad reaction that developed something similar. I'm pretty sure this is the reason for black box warnings because when it first happened it was incredibly debilitating it still is but I have been living with it for 3 months so I'm coping with it a little better.

Hey all,

I started some Zoloft then lexapro about 4 or 5 months ago within 4 days I had a terrible reaction to the meds. I started developing suicidal thoughts but had never really had depression before the thoughts were looping consistently. I later learned the thoughts were more OCD like in nature very similar to harm ocd rather then depressive suicidality. The thoughts were just there all the time.

The psych said that was very uncommon and made it sound more like my original condition but my original condition was just anxiety she encouraged me to stick it out. By week 4 or 5 I was so foggy and numb from medication the thoughts did go away but I had a host of sexual problems and just didn't feel good.

I opted to quit but I have been off for nearly two months and the thoughts still linger around some days are horrible some days improve a bit but always there.

I keep thinking somehow the medication damaged my brain because I don't understand how two months off the medication and I'm still having this weird ocd thing going on. On top of that non of my sexual issues really resolved other then I got alittle sensitivity back.

Just curious if anyone else has had a bad reaction that developed something similar. I'm pretty sure this is the reason for black box warnings because when it first happened it was incredibly debilitating it still is but I have been living with it for 3 months so I'm coping with it a little better.

But I'm also hoping my brain will return back to normal

Hey all,

I am two months into SSRI withdraw I had an adverse reaction to medication and was only on them about a two months. I initially went on for anxiety but within days developed suicidal intrusive thoughts and sexual dysfunction. I was encouraged to stick it out as things would get better by the 4th or 5th week I was numb and the thoughts stopped but at the same time I never had those thoughts prior to medication. The sexual dysfunction was so bad I wanted to get off the medication.

I weaned down over about 3 weeks and stopped. The first three weeks of withdraw were miserable. But I have had problems the whole last 2 months. Somedays the intrusive thoughts were alittle less bothersome but the sexual dysfunction has remained consistent mostly ed.

But here it is two months later and depression and intrusive thoughts are ramped up and I had neither of those prior to medication just anxiety panic attacks specifically.

I'm just kinda curious for those who have had a lingering withdraw what did the getting better look like did the stuff eventually stop this has been very debillitating I can barely work. I'm not sure why I am having such a problem when only on for two months or even why I had a bad reaction. I took anti depressants for 15 years about 10 years ago and never had a problem so I figured starting them again would help with my anxiety for a bit but I had immediate adverse reaction and started suffering the black box warning. Never had thoughts like that ever it's been so scary.

I keep wanting to get back to normal but two months and occasionally I get a good day but mostly bad ones.

Any body deal with something similar taking a long time to heal and if so does it just one day all clear up or how does the recovery look

Hey all,

I'm a 41 year old male never really had problems in this department. But about 4 months ago I took some anti depressant and I had immediate erectile dysfunction it happened within 4 days of the meds. The psych insisted I stay on the med and it would go away nothing was changing.

I went to the urologist and got some cialis and it helped alittle for a few successful sex sessions but I also have had a tremendous amount of anxiety surrounding it because my dick is softening quick. I have to be incredibly focused and still might soften some. I did have some nights where I turned down the opportunity because it felt like things weren't going to function like before I even took the cialis.

I went ahead and had my heart checked out and they said my arteries were clear and heart was good. So they didn't think it was blockage related.

I just can't tell if this issue is more psychological or possibly vascular like a venous leak. I never usually had to think about if my dick would stay hard it just was good for however long I needed it to be but now I don't know if it's my head losing some focus so the dick starts softening or if it's leaking blood flow.

I mean the only thing that made me think the anti depressant is cause it developed literally within 4 days of ingesting the drug and I couldn't get my dick up without the cialis it was like something was blocking it. But even with cialis I have to try to stay as focused as possible or the I will start losing strength in it down their it's weird cause I can feel the head softening first then the shaft getting softer. I can usually bring it back with some stimulation and refocus but don't know why it's happening.

I also am hyper focused on it now so that could also be an issue.

Last part I read I can get a penile Doppler which I might do but from what I understand their aren't great treatments for venous leak. It's pretty much cock ring, surgery which isn't very successful, and then penile implant. I just feel so young to be even thinking about potentially needing something like a penile implant I would have hoped atleast getting to my 50s.

And granted I have still been being successful a bit but it's a ton of planning involved and I'm often trying to eat extra cialis to make damn sure the stuff works which creates headaches and shit.

Sorry just needed some thought from guys who have had either performance anxiety or venous leak and what it felt like so I know which path I need to explore

Hey all I had a terrible experience with atorvastatin and frankly I'm scared of trying another drug. But I know I need something to reduce my cholesterol. Has anyone here had a major turn around when trying a different drug? Maybe could you tell me what you initially took and what you take now.

I can't figure out why my brain reacted so poorly I'm almost afraid my cholesterol was dropping too low for adequate brain function but there is no way to explain what exactly happened.

I tried coq10 but it didn't really make my cognitive function good enough to continue.

Hey all I had a terrible experience with atorvastatin and frankly I'm scared of trying another drug. But I know I need something to reduce my cholesterol. Has anyone here had a major turn around when trying a different drug? Maybe could you tell me what you initially took and what you take now.

I can't figure out why my brain reacted so poorly I'm almost afraid my cholesterol was dropping too low for adequate brain function but there is no way to explain what exactly happened.

I tried coq10 but it didn't really make my cognitive function good enough to continue.

Hey all,

I responded really badly to atorvastatin 20mg mainly terrible cognitive function. I'm not sure if my dose was too high my cholesterol was around 220. I had high LDL and apob. But my ct scan came out fine and 0 calcium score. But I do have family history of heart disease.

For some reason I respond horribly cognitively. I'm pretty scared to try another statin but I'm weighing my options of reducing to 10mg and adding another cholesterol lowering medication to see if that works or potentially trying rostuvistatin since they say it doesn't cross the blood brain barrier.

Also let me add I have been significantly fatigued needing to nap alot during the day even though I'm sleeping through the night and had a ton of anxiety during the day.

I take testosterone therapy and several vitamin supplements so there is no real reason for the low energy or the cognitive issues. So it is extremely likely the statin is what's causing my problem.

I am just curious what some of you have tried to get over this hurdle cause I likely do need something managing my cholesterol but not at the expense of my brain. Are any of the other non statins said to be any healthier I'm assuming they prescribe statins because they are well tolerated by the majority but for some reason my body can't seem to tolerate.

I did try coq10 but it didn't seem to help a ton. However the most I tried was 200mg.

Hey all,

I just recently started 20mg atorvastatin but I have been getting alot of brain fog and short term memory issues. Does this go away with time I have only been on about a week. I am trying to reduce my high cholesterol as I have a history of very elevated levels. I likely really need the medication but I have noticed some cognitive changes. I'm hoping it subsides.

Hey all I am typically on a beta blocker but recently started having some problems with ED. The doctor suggested try amlodipine. He said he gave me an equivalent dose. I started feeling terrible check my blood pressure and it was 170 and 120 heart rate.

I don't understand if it was an equivalent dose why I had such a bad effect. Plus im a bit worried cause I'm trying to solve the ED problem but not sure how to get of the beta blocker if that didn't work

Hey all,

I have taken the beta blocker bisoprol for the last 10 years I'm 41 years old. I'm starting to get little bits of ed here and there and the heart doctor suggested trying amlodipine a calcium channel blocker. My heart rate shot up to nearly 120 and my blood pressure close to 170.

On my 10mg bisoprolol I stay around 130 over 85 pretty consistently.

How common is Ed in beta blockers any of y'all experienced it? Also did anyone find a solution not sure why calcium channel blockers didn't control my blood pressure well

Hey all,

I took anti depressants a few months ago lexapro to be exact. I started having libido and erection problems immediately after taking the drug but was encouraged by the psych to wait it out as things get better. A month and a half in nothing got better.

I ultimately decided to quit and I have been off medication for 40 days. All my vitamins are perfect, my hormone panels are great as I take TRT and had a huge sex drive and erection quality before the SSRI.

But here I am 40 days later and I'm still feeling emotionally flat, tons of brain fog and the sexual problems are so disabling. Not only do I have no libido but I'm suffering severe ed that even cialis has trouble fixing. I have been able to have sex a few times if I could get an erection and the cialis started to work.

The main problem is arousal and response. Basically I'm so foggy and blunted my brain feels disconnected from my genitals. It's like low dopamine feeling. Like I'm not really excited to do other things either. This just feels more unsettling because I always had high drive.

Basically I know this is tmi but it's incredibly embarrassing to be with your wife and be trying to do all sorts of stimulation to get your genitals hard enough. I went to my cardiologist and everything is perfect. This is absolutely tied to the antidepressant.

It's like I get no response down there at all if I try to think a thought I barely get anything. Is just like I have to attempt and try and hope that my genitals will respond.

Anyways I know this odd I just know something is off brain wise and not making the connection down below. But the urologist can't really help much since it's a brain thing. Does anyone have any suggestions to get myself producing dopamine naturally again.