u/Diligent_Drink9735

I'm 40 this year. I don't have close friends anymore and I'm not close with my family. Most of the people who used to matter are either gone or cut me off. For a long time the people I considered family were my ex's family. I knew them since I was a teenager. Her mom was like a second mother to me, her brother-in-law was one of my best friends for almost 20 years. Then I got with her in 2014. We were together for years, engaged, had a house, talked about kids, the whole future planned out. I caught her cheating about 6 months before the wedding. She left and her whole family cut me off with basically no explanation. That was over 7 years ago. I still think about her and that life constantly. The memories don't fade. I dream about it. Random stuff still sets it off. I feel empty a lot of the time. I have a girlfriend now who is good to me, but I can't connect the same way and I feel guilty about that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about how bad it still is. I work, I come home, I try to get through the days. Most of the time I just feel alone and stuck. I miss having people who actually knew me and gave a shit. I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere. Not looking for advice on "moving on." Just tired of carrying this with nobody to talk to about it.

I'm 40 this year. I don't have close friends anymore and I'm not close with my family. Most of the people who used to matter are either gone or cut me off. For a long time the people I considered family were my ex's family. I knew them since I was a teenager. Her mom was like a second mother to me, her brother-in-law was one of my best friends for almost 20 years. Then I got with her in 2014. We were together for years, engaged, had a house, talked about kids, the whole future planned out. I caught her cheating about 6 months before the wedding. She left and her whole family cut me off with basically no explanation. That was over 7 years ago. I still think about her and that life constantly. The memories don't fade. I dream about it. Random stuff still sets it off. I feel empty a lot of the time. I have a girlfriend now who is good to me, but I can't connect the same way and I feel guilty about that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about how bad it still is. I work, I come home, I try to get through the days. Most of the time I just feel alone and stuck. I miss having people who actually knew me and gave a shit. I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere. Not looking for advice on "moving on." Just tired of carrying this with nobody to talk to about it. The worst part is I miss them all so much even though I know I shouldn't.

I'm 40 this year. I don't have close friends anymore and I'm not close with my family. Most of the people who used to matter are either gone or cut me off. For a long time the people I considered family were my ex's family. I knew them since I was a teenager. Her mom was like a second mother to me, her brother-in-law was one of my best friends for almost 20 years. Then I got with her in 2014. We were together for years, engaged, had a house, talked about kids, the whole future planned out. I caught her cheating about 6 months before the wedding. She left and her whole family cut me off with basically no explanation. That was over 7 years ago. I still think about her and that life constantly. The memories don't fade. I dream about it. Random stuff still sets it off. I feel empty a lot of the time. I have a girlfriend now who is good to me, but I can't connect the same way and I feel guilty about that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about how bad it still is. I work, I come home, I try to get through the days. Most of the time I just feel alone and stuck. I miss having people who actually knew me and gave a shit. I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere. Not looking for advice on "moving on." Just tired of carrying this with nobody to talk to about it. The worst part is I miss them all so much even though I know I shouldn't.

I'm 40 this year. I don't have close friends anymore and I'm not close with my family. Most of the people who used to matter are either gone or cut me off. For a long time the people I considered family were my ex's family. I knew them since I was a teenager. Her mom was like a second mother to me, her brother-in-law was one of my best friends for almost 20 years. Then I got with her in 2014. We were together for years, engaged, had a house, talked about kids, the whole future planned out. I caught her cheating about 6 months before the wedding. She left and her whole family cut me off with basically no explanation. That was over 7 years ago. I still think about her and that life constantly. The memories don't fade. I dream about it. Random stuff still sets it off. I feel empty a lot of the time. I have a girlfriend now who is good to me, but I can't connect the same way and I feel guilty about that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about how bad it still is. I work, I come home, I try to get through the days. Most of the time I just feel alone and stuck. I miss having people who actually knew me and gave a shit. I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere. Not looking for advice on "moving on." Just tired of carrying this with nobody to talk to about it. The worst part is I miss them all so much even though I know I shouldn't.

I'm 40 this year. I don't have close friends anymore and I'm not close with my family. Most of the people who used to matter are either gone or cut me off. For a long time the people I considered family were my ex's family. I knew them since I was a teenager. Her mom was like a second mother to me, her brother-in-law was one of my best friends for almost 20 years. Then I got with her in 2014. We were together for years, engaged, had a house, talked about kids, the whole future planned out. I caught her cheating about 6 months before the wedding. She left and her whole family cut me off with basically no explanation. That was over 7 years ago. I still think about her and that life constantly. The memories don't fade. I dream about it. Random stuff still sets it off. I feel empty a lot of the time. I have a girlfriend now who is good to me, but I can't connect the same way and I feel guilty about that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about how bad it still is. I work, I come home, I try to get through the days. Most of the time I just feel alone and stuck. I miss having people who actually knew me and gave a shit. I miss feeling like I belonged somewhere. Not looking for advice on "moving on." Just tired of carrying this with nobody to talk to about it.

I hope somebody will be able to shed some light on the issue I'm having, but my desktop computer will arbitrarily not wake up from sleep mode. I've tried moving the mouse, pressing buttons on the keyboard, plugged in an entirely different keyboard/mouse that's hardwired, etc. to no avail. I don't actually put the computer in Sleep mode, and I just hit the Win+L keys to lock it. When I go to wake it up the next day for work, it sometimes won't wake up, I have to manually restart the computer when this happens and I'm tired of not know what the hell is going on.

It is a Lenovo ThinkCentre that is not even a 1 year in use, and I have three separate Samsung monitors hooked up to it. I'm using a wireless Lenovo keyboard and mouse that has no problem working until I try to wake it up from sleep. Oddly enough, I had another computer do this to me that was a Beelink SER 5, which prompted me to get the Lenovo.

Edit: I have tried turning off the Hibernate, Auto Sleep, and Eco Savings options before with no result.

I swear it was a Robocop game for the NES, but I can't find any playthrough video that includes a boss fight(?) where you're fighting what appears to be two men in suits and fedora's. I remember some kind of squeaking noise being made, and it frustrated me that I always seemed incapacitated in the game, where I'm unable to fight back.

Am I high, or is there a game out there that exists like this?

I caught my fiancée cheating over 7 years ago, just months before our wedding. We had been together for years. We shared a house, a cat, plans for kids we had already named, and a future we were building together. Her family had been my real family since I was 12, but they cut me off completely afterward with no explanation. The pain and loneliness have stayed with me ever since. Good memories hurt more than they comfort me. I still dream about her and miss the connection we had. Therapy, letters, support groups, none of it has really helped. Most days I feel numb, but the grief is still there. I am with someone new who treats me well, but I feel like she is getting a broken version of me. I just feel stuck and alone with all of this. I don't know how to move past it. Has anyone else carried this for this long? Does it ever ease up or is this how it stays?

I swear it was a Robocop game for the NES, but I can't find any playthrough video that includes a boss fight(?) where you're fighting what appears to be two men in suits and fedora's. I remember some kind of squeaking noise being made, and it frustrated me that I always seemed incapacitated in the game, where I'm unable to fight back.

Am I high, or is there a game out there that exists like this?