u/Disastrous-Union3173

Im 18. Ive played the flute since i was 12. However i didnt start taking lessons until 14. I grew up in a medium sized rural town and did the best i could and traveled for lessons.

Ive been thinking about prescreening and auditioning for a major conservatory to transfer to after a year of state college because I cant imagine myself doing anything else. I LOVE music and flute.
I guess here ill put my credentials and repertoire.

Credentials:

1. Played in a honor band all four years of high school
2. Was principal flutist all 4 years of high scho
3. Went to state solo ensemble all 4 years and got 4.perfect scores for 2 years
4. Did a master class with two professors
5. Attended an orchestra summer camp
6. I studied with 3 teaches (including my new flute professor and my state school)
7. I participated in a local Bach fest in my state all four years
8. I attended a national invitational at Carnegie hall because the wind ensemble got selected when I was a freshman
9. I also teach 3 flute students
10. Got the John Philip Sousa award by my band director (ik this doesn’t matter)

Major Repertoire (solo performances)(past to present)
-Quantz Concerto in G major (2022/2023)
-La flute de pan (2023)
-La chasse Guill popp. (2024)
-Sonata III -Blavet (2024)
-Sonata VI -Blavet (2024)
-Chaminade (2024-2025)
-Three grand solos kuhlau (2025-2026)

Method books:

1. Melodious and Progressive studies (2022-2023)
2. Double and triple tonguing book (every year)
3. Reichert (warm up)

Assigned and in current progress:
-il Pastor Fido -Vivaldi
-Mozart concerto in G and D (almost done with the one in G)
-drouet etudes

What I’m using/learning currently for prescreenings
-Grande Fantasie -Taffanel
-midsummer’s night’s dream
-Afternoon of a faun
-Carmen act 3 intermezzo
-Telemann 12 movement 2

I can try and put a video of my playing down here.

Hello. I’m 19 and my body went through a really traumatic breakup with a guy I loved dearly at 18 and it was the worst thing that’s ever happened emotionally.

I also have a history of being Sa’d as a child.

I remember going down to my neighborhoods docs and attempting to commit on a tree but then a family came down and I didn’t do it.

But I still died. I walked back in silence not knowing who I was anymore.

For the last several several months I’ve built myself and my identity back together except it’s completely different and I don’t recognize or remember quite exactly who I used to be.

When I look at a picture of myself then I don’t think “that’s me” I think “that’s her”.

I want nothing to do with her, I don’t resonate with any of the memories she made, or the emotions, or the values. I don’t even remember some things, and if I do I’m watching it from the 3d person. I’m just simply in ever sense of the word, a new soul.

I died and I was born again as a new person and I’m actually okay with that. Only one thing has stayed consistent with my old identity, my attraction to other women.

So I consider myself a lesbian, and someone who only is attracted to women. I am extremely happy with the way my life is going. And I don’t want to change it.

I love who I am now.

I just can’t die again.

I’m severely triggered now by pictures of the girl who died.

Hello! I’m looking for a guy between the ages of 18-23 to have a long term relationship with.

Im looking for something serious so please don’t waste my time! (I want to be a wife someday)

Some of my hobbies are:

1. Flute playing (studying in college)
2. Spirituality
3. Cooking/Baking
4. Learning languages
5. Planning out the future

A bit about me: I also am majoring in early childhood education at my university!

I’m looking forward to chatting!

Hello! I’m in wa state and am preferably looking for a someone who takes relationships seriously.

My hobbies include:

1. Baking/cooking
2. Flute playing
3. Learning languages

I’d prefer to get to know an Asian guy mostly because I’m planning on studying languages and I’d like to have a partner I can also learn languages with.

If you are interested send me a DM!

I dated this guy for 6 months and we broke up because he didn’t want to commit because of the long distance.

We were both shattered.

We eventually reunited and ended up being FWB and he tried I hold my hand (and told him that’s not something friends do)

We had a lot of emotional intimacy together and I ended up crying.

He told me he didn’t want either of us to get hurt again.

We talk every day.

I keep asking him when he will find someone but he keeps telling me romantic love isn’t his thing.

I asked him if he actually had feelings for me then and he said he doesn’t think even after all this time that he will ever feel as strongly for someone as he did for me and that he doesn’t want to have a romantic relationship with anybody because of that.

But he insists he’s over it

I’m so confused.

I’ve been an on and off pagan since I was 16 (2 years) and have had an on and off communication line with Aphrodite because of fear of my parents finding out and judgement.

I reached out to her again using tarot and asked my deck if I could channel a message and I got ace of cups (enthusiastic yes)

For advice I pulled the lovers card and gave me the star card as advice. She also made her presence well known through the empress card three times it fell out of my deck.

Lady Aphrodite is so wonderful and I want to set up a discreet physical altar.

I have several seashells, perfumes and beautiful things I can offer.

Any ideas?

I’d also like to say I’m going off to college soon so I’d like digital altar ideas!

Hello.

Me and my friend have been close for a long time and she has helped me through so much battles and struggles throughout my life, and I wan't to help her because I am extremely worried about her.

She hasn't been reaching out unless I have, and when she does I usually get one word responses. She has told me she's been struggling and it has nothing to do with me, but she isn't acting like herself and it's worrying me.

I've tried talking to her, checking in, suggesting therapists, but I feel like I'm at a last resort. I got permission to do this for her.

I know herb correspondences and how to make custom spells, but I would love any ideas for something longer term that can help her.

Thank You so much for understanding.

Hello! I’m 18 (white) (almost 19)! I live in WA state!

Something about me: I’m a very passionate, loyal person who will give my all in a relationship with someone I care about.

The reason I’m on here is because I want to gain more perspectives! (One of my hobbies is also learning languages so I’m looking for someone bilingual that I can do this hobby with together)

My hobbies include:

1. Flute playing
2. Language learning
3. Nature/spirituality

Anyways!! Comment if you are interested. :)

Hello friends!

I consider myself a practicing witch and pagan. And I just wanted to say a few things to connect our communities and clear up misconceptions about us.

Most of us pagans (should) respect all religions and spiritual beliefs, and I’m sorry on behalf of the pagan community for not holding up our end. It is part of our belief system that everyone has their own spiritual beliefs and deserves respect. I will never make fun of Jesus because I grew up Christian. But I also expect the same respect back.

Although some represent our community poorly, most of us have good intentions and a strong sense of justice.

Another thing is some of us actually believe in Jesus and his teachings! (Including me) I don’t believe he’s the son of god, but he was a wise and good person.

I hope we can come together against the evil in this world, that is the elites, the Epstein class, and the terrible people in society.

Thank you!!

Hello me and my friend have been practicing witches for a few months now.

We’ve been exploring glamour magick and so far it has worked pretty well.

I’m looking for a glamour spell that can be done by 2 people and has long lasting effects?

Thanks.

I’m looking for a guy in the 18-21 range.

My hobbies include
\* flute
\* language learning
\*baking/cooking
\*trains and urban planning
\* politics

I am almost 19 years old.

Idk if many guys will find me attractive but I’ll give it a shot.

I (18f) when I was 7-10 was molested and raped by a 13 year old.

The only issue is I only remember a few fragments such as being alone in a dark room with the teenager, him putting on a Barbie movie so he could touch me, and feeling sick after leaving the house.

He was a friends friend. When I was little I would go over to my friends house and from there we would go to her friends house. My friends friend had a teenage older brother.

I recently talked to my friend and her sister only to find out they were molested as children by him and remember everything including rape

I talked to my friends mom and she told me that the teenage boys mom hasn’t talked to her in years after moving away and refuses to keep contact with her.

What can I do??

I (18f) when I was 7-10 was molested and raped by a 13 year old.

The only issue is I only remember a few fragments such as being alone in a dark room with the teenager, him putting on a Barbie movie so he could touch me, and feeling sick after leaving the house.

He was a friends friend. When I was little I would go over to my friends house and from there we would go to her friends house. My friends friend had a teenage older brother.

I recently talked to my friend and her sister only to find out they were molested as children by him and remember everything including rape

I talked to my friends mom and she told me that the teenage boys mom hasn’t talked to her in years after moving away and refuses to keep contact with her.

What can I do??

I live in WA state in grant county.

I, a young woman have struggled with my mental health my entire life.

I have a history of 4+ suicide attempts and bipolar disorder.

I don’t care what I have to do at this point. I just want to feel loved.

My religious grandma told me the other day (a couple days after my most recent attempt) that ‘she didn’t like what she saw’ and it seemed like ‘something was draining the life out of me’.

I just want to be happy and feel loved again.

I recently went through a breakup, been dealing with childhood sexual trauma and not feeling like im loved.

Is there hope for me? I’m serious.

I’ll do anything to make me feel better even if that’s finding some god.

I (18f) have struggled with my mental health my entire life.

I have a history of 4+ suicide attempts and bipolar disorder.

I don’t care what I have to do at this point. I just want to feel loved.

My religious grandma told me the other day (a couple days after my most recent attempt) that ‘she didn’t like what she saw’ and it seemed like ‘something was draining the life out of me’.

I just want to be happy and feel loved again.

I recently went through a breakup, been dealing with childhood sexual trauma and not feeling like im loved.

Is there hope for me? I’m serious.

I just want to chat with someone.

I am an adult now. (18f).

I worked with my therapist today on unpacking things and it popped up. Not super loud, but super quietly.

There’s always this lingering feeling that I’m always unsafe and I can recall some things but I’m not 100% sure if they happened. But I swear something similar must’ve happened.

Its not loud most of the time. The one time it did get loud I buried it again.

I remember most of my childhood being good with my parents but I always get these dreams (to this day) about people I trust raping me, including family and friends.

I’ve had these dreams since I was 6, not exactly the same, but people were violating me. And I was jerking off from the age of 4 to harsh things (I had no internet access)

I feel nauseous typing this and idk if I want to unpack all of this.

I remember being 6 years old, going to a friends house, and meeting this kid who was 2-3 years older than me at the time.

He made me feel unsafe every time I was around him. And I know he was just a kid too and I don’t blame him.

I can recall him backing me into a corner, putting me in a dog cage and touching my thigh while putting on a Barbie movie to distract me.

I recall him having a crush on me and the adults mentioning years later that he has trauma.

I remember a dark room very clearly when I was alone with him. (I think He tried that often) but I don’t remember anything else other than leaving and feeling like my stomach hurt.

To this day I consider myself fairly hypersexual and I guess for context I do struggle with major depression and anxiety.

The times I’ve had consensual sex with my last boyfriend, even though I was aroused, I was never able to get penetrated long or at all because it hurt really bad and my body kept rejecting the act.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to have that kind of sex again it hurts me too much and is too painful.

Idk what’s going on honestly, but something must have happened and I’m scared if I remember then I ll have to live with it.

After dealing with major depression the last 4 years which resulted in several attempts, bipolar ll, a rough breakup and other changes,

I’m finally doing intensive therapy this summer.

I’m choosing for the first time spend 100% of my effort to get better.

I want to be happy and not suicidal all the time.

I’m wondering since I’ll be so busy this summer with therapy what cool things I can do to celebrate this.

I’m thinking I could dye my hair or do something else? Like a tattoo that reminded me of this time in my life and how I’m getting through it (I’m an adult)