just wanted to say potatoes are so so easy to grow! if you were ever thinking of growing some- these are all from my garden 🪴🥔❤️🌍
(i know they have a bit of potato scab but it’s harmless and comes off when scrubbed and or peeled!)
i cannot rave about it enough they are the best if you haven’t already tried them you need to !!!
so i’m in a new relationship now have been for about a year now and he’s amazing he never makes me cry or upsets me (i know this is bare minimum but my ex used to make me cry daily) he puts in so much effort and always makes me feel loved.
I always have dreams that are different but usually the same sort of thing either where I text my ex and ask him how he is of he texts me and says i just want to speak to you or we bump into each other in public and we just have a good conversation that doesn’t last very long but i always feel better in the dream after we’ve spoken and then I wake up just feeling deflated because it didn’t actually happen…
I was with him for 5 years he took my virginity and he proposed after 3 years, then I ended up getting pregnant and having to end it due to me falling out of love with him. He was obsessed with me he never cheated and literally worshipped the ground I walked on but also treated me like shit wouldn’t really let me go anywhere or wear certain things and didn’t want me to go to work wanted me to just stay home with him all day and cuddle. He wouldn’t ever really take me on dates unless i planned them, I sort of started falling out of love and doing my own thing moved back home about a year before we broke up and started going out drinking and basically living my life as a 23yr old as i’d been with this boy since I was 19 and hadn’t really lived my life.
But i just can’t help but feel like I just need to speak to him or something… he’s caused so much shit picking fights with my current boyfriend coming to his house and asking him to fight him. and when he wouldn’t he jumped on his car and caused a massive dent we had to ring the police he got arrested. And messaging me loads of shit calling me a baby killer and a cheater even though I did not cheat (split up in the may and i got with someone else in the august)
How the f*** can i want to have any communication with him?? Am i messed up in the head or something?
I guess I just want some clarification or some sort of explanation as to why this is happening.
So i’m 25F and i’ve always used tik tok, instagram facebook etc but recently i’ve deleted everything to try and live in the moment more which has worked amazingly- my mental is better i don’t compare myself and I just generally feel more alive! But the thing that gets me now is I notice how much people actually go on their phones… it’s like they have to constantly distract themselves by putting a screen in front of them every minute of every day. So for example my boyfriend was making a cup of tea yesterday and instead of just standing there looking out the window or thinking about his day or whatever he decided to pull up youtube shorts and just blast a stupid video ruining the peace in the kitchen. I honestly don’t know if i’m just being uptight or whatever but I feel like it’s just so invasive and annoying. Like the only thing I do is check my emails or look through my camera roll now or mostly just sit with my thoughts and collect myself or better yet make a conversation with him if i’m that bored. And it’s not just him it’s like if i’m sat on the train or walking around everyone’s on their phones and it feels like i’m the only one looking around at it… I just feel like we’ve only got one life I don’t want to spend it with my head in a phone and miss it!!!