u/Emmelientje69

We were watching a movie with flashy effects, and I asked him if cinemas gave warnings about flashes or not (since I rarely go to the cinema)

He simply replied: who cares? If you can't stand this, you're just a pussy. Just close your eyes when it comes on

Bitch wha 😭

(He also discovered today that epilepsy was already a thing as far as back in Ancient Rome... I hate to break it to you, but it's probably been around for about as long as humans and flashes exist)

I told him numerous times DON'T TOUCH MY WINDOW OR FLY SCREEN

Why, you may ask? Well, he one tore out my fly screen and I had to push it back in, but the sides were already damaged permanently

He also often opens my window, doesn't tell me, and when I go upstairs it's freezing in my room

So I told him he can't be near my window anymore, but he KEEPS opening it and closing the damaged screens (which are now very hard to scroll back) and he uses the excuse that he wants to help me

How hard is it to understand NO?? How many times will he open or close my window until he breaks my screens again? Cuz he doesn't give a fuck, he'll tear anything apart if it doesn't cooperate

I've had these friends for a couple years now, and everything was perfect at first (as always...)

However, I started noticing slight changes, as if my existence and random traits of mine started to annoy them (like the fact that I use a lot of hand gestures when explaining something)

I never said anything and always just assumed it's a minor thing, or that I should just change those traits because they could be annoying

However, a couple weeks ago I discovered how they think about me

We had a cosplay event at school recently with theme "films/series" (I'll get back to that)

I asked them if I could hang out after school, but they apparently had to go urgently, meaning they couldn't wait 1 minute for me to get my bike. I called them, they didn't pick up. I texted them, and they basically abandoned me

I had been wondering why they did this for so long, until someone snitched. I decided to cosplay Jinu from Kpop demon hunters because I quite liked the movie (not even in an obsessive way) and I wanted to show that I proudly like it, regardless of what people think

Well apparently they tried to run away because they didn't want to be associated with my appearance, and they had been complaining about my "childish" clothing style for a while

(Look, I know my clothes are quite basic and/or fit for a 13 year old, but I'm busy saving up for a university dorm, a new laptop and a potential car, and as long as my clothes aren't dirty or torn apart I don't really care how I look)

After the snitch, I decided to just stop hanging out as an attempt to drop them, but then all of a sudden one of them starts talking to me again as if he cares about my feelings. I don't know if he feels forced, or if he genuinely feels bad, and he does this a few days after abandoning me after school. I don't want to go back and have history repeat, but I don't want to be a dck towards them (or be perceived as one)

What should I do? I've been trying to make new friends and they keep failing. I feel like my anxiety to have people dislike me has skyrocketed, causing me to come off as too awkward or weird, and it sucks

I have a huge fear of anything that can make a sudden loud noise, like ballons, champagne bottles and fireworks

But whenever I'm at a party, I don't know what to do, because I don't want those objects to be around, but I don't want to ruin the party for others

I usually just leave, cuz I don't want people to either complain or call me childish

I've seen a lot of videos where people explain that quite a few non native English speakers find English easier to understand in their native accent, like Korean

Is this the case for Italian, if we exclude speaking at supersonic speed?