u/EndEmotional8595

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1. I feel I'm fake all the time..like I'm in a dream , also when i talk i feel that this isn't my voice like someone else teleprompting something.

2. I don't have any true sense of any relation..like the relation between me and my father does not belong to me ..i don't feel like the relative is genuinely mine . 3 . I forget things very quickly .. if I've made notes and if i read them after 1 hour it feels like someone else had written them ..they don't feel like mine I can't understand anything..like simplest of simplest concept cannot fit in my mind ..i cannot focus even when i try or not try

3. My own handwriting feels alien to me

4. When i see my old photos i feel no connection to myself , like that person in photo is someone else i tried been to gym , i eat enough nutrition, have friends , i go out but still feels the same I've tried going out for 2 weeks , i tried yoga .. i hangout with friends I have these issues 24/7 for almost 2 years now

Same as title

I'm going to take admission in btech college whenever i ask career related queries in a specific sub i see same responses like

UPSC - it's all luck and a pure gamble

Gate - not worth it , selection ratio is rigged and companies prefer undergrad

CAT - past records matter

Private jobs - it has a toxic culture and it's very hard to switch companies and increase your package

I'm going to take admission in btech college whenever i ask career related queries in a specific sub i see same responses like

UPSC - it's all luck and a pure gamble

Gate - not worth it , selection ratio is rigged and companies prefer undergrad

CAT - past records matter

Private jobs - it has a toxic culture and it's very hard to switch companies and increase your package

Upsc is just a gamble with absolutely no reward for participation ..it is absurb commission then why everyone is preparing for it ?

1. I feel I'm fake all the time..like I'm in a dream , also when i talk i feel that this isn't my voice like someone else teleprompting something.

2. I don't have any true sense of any relation..like the relation between me and my father does not belong to me ..i don't feel like the relative is genuinely mine .

3 . I forget things very quickly .. if I've made notes and if i read them after 1 hour it feels like someone else had written them ..they don't feel like mine I can't understand anything..like simplest of simplest concept cannot fit in my mind ..i cannot focus even when i try or not try

4. My own handwriting feels alien to me

5. When i see my old photos i feel no connection to myself , like that person in photo is someone else i tried been to gym , i eat enough nutrition, have friends , i go out but still feels the same I've tried going out for 2 weeks , i tried yoga .. i hangout with friends I have these issues 24/7 for almost 2 years now

1. I feel I'm fake all the time..like I'm in a dream , also when i talk i feel that this isn't my voice like someone else teleprompting something.
2. I don't have any true sense of any relation..like the relation between me and my father does not belong to me ..i don't feel like the relative is genuinely mine . 3 . I forget things very quickly .. if I've made notes and if i read them after 1 hour it feels like someone else had written them ..they don't feel like mine
3. I can't understand anything..like simplest of simplest concept cannot fit in my mind ..i cannot focus even when i try or not try
4. My own handwriting feels alien to me
5. When i see my old photos i feel no connection to myself , like that person in photo is someone else i tried been to gym , i eat enough nutrition, have friends , i go out but still feels the same I've tried going out for 2 weeks , i tried yoga .. i hangout with friends I have these issues 24/7 for almost 2 years now

1. I feel I'm fake all the time..like I'm in a dream , also when i talk i feel that this isn't my voice like someone else teleprompting something.

2. I don't have any true sense of any relation..like the relation between me and my father does not belong to me ..i don't feel like the relative is genuinely mine . 3 . I forget things very quickly .. if I've made notes and if i read them after 1 hour it feels like someone else had written them ..they don't feel like mine

3. I can't understand anything..like simplest of simplest concept cannot fit in my mind ..i cannot focus even when i try or not try

4. I have no memories of anything of past 5 6 years

5. Wheneveri see my childhood photos or recent photos ..i feel no connection to my photos I've tried been to gym , i eat enough nutrition, have friends , i go out but still feels the same I've tried going out for 2 weeks , i eat enough nutrition, i go to gym , i tried yoga .. i hangout with friends I have these issues 24/7 for almost 2 years now

Same as above

I want to prepare for gate and focus on my skills ..as there is very strict attendance and academics ..which will be a more suitable option Also mathura is 50 km away from my home

Which colleges are lenient in terms of attendance and academics in aktu ?

3 4 btado bhaiyo

I'm 19..always a bright child but then my mom died after that my grandfather followed by my grandmother in 2 years ..then i went to kota for jee prep , i was totally alone that time ..all these scenario led me to these mental condition ... I feel that I'm not in my body feels like monotonous to me , i cannot focus on anything for even a second , i forget everything even when i try to learn I tried yoga , I'm eating enough nutrition, going to gym, stopped using phone , listening to music , talking to peeps but nothing seems to work I don't know whether going to a big city will make my life miserable just like it did to me in kota I'm genuinely concerned

I'm having these issues 24/7 for 2 years

I'm 19 always a bright child but then my mom died after that my grandfather followed by my grandmother in 2 years ..then i went to kota for jee prep , i was totally alone that time ..all these scenario led me to these mental condition ... I feel that I'm not in my body feels like monotonous to me , i cannot focus on anything for even a second , i forget everything even when i try to learn I tried yoga , I'm eating enough nutrition, going to gym, stopped using phone , listening to music , talking to peeps but nothing seems to work I don't know whether going to a big city will make my life miserable just like it did to me in kota I'm genuinely concerned

Ilive in agra - local clg have 3 lakh fees for 4 years + no attendance policy

Should i do btech from hometown or from Ghaziabad as I've heavy depersonalisation issues , zoning out , foggy brain , mild short term memory loss issues ?

I'm 19 , i lost my mom and after that my grandfather followed by my grandmother in 2 years ..then i went to kota for jee prep , i was totally alone that time ..all these scenario led me to these mental condition ... I feel that I'm not in my body feels like monotonous to me , i cannot focus on anything for even a second , i forget everything even when i try to learn I tried yoga , I'm eating enough nutrition, going to gym, stopped using phone , listening to music , talking to peeps but nothing seems to work I don't know whether going to a big city will make my life miserable just like it did to me in kota I'm genuinely concerned

I'm 19 , always a bright child but then my mom died after that my grandfather followed by my grandmother in 2 years ..then i went to kota for jee prep , i was totally alone that time ..all these scenario led me to these mental condition ... I feel that I'm not in my body feels like monotonous to me , i cannot focus on anything for even a second , i forget everything even when i try to learn I tried yoga , I'm eating enough nutrition, going to gym, stopped using phone , listening to music , talking to peeps but nothing seems to work I don't know whether going to a big city will make my life miserable just like it did to me in kota I'm genuinely concerned

Should i do btech from hometown or from Ghaziabad as I've heavy depersonalisation issues , zoning out , foggy brain , mild short term memory loss issues.