u/Evil_airy

because I didn't draw it, I am gonna promote her stream, go follow her at: twitch.tv/dirtsoilmulch

she also doesn't know I'm doing this so if you do end up watching her be friendly please.

so a while back I met this guy, and I had been talking to him for quite a while, we slowly became freinds, and so on. one day he kinda just asked me if we could start dating, and because he was very nice and admittedly kindof cute, I said yes. despite the fact that there were some things that definitely didn't click between us and even some things that were straight up kindpf just wrong between us, like for one he's 2 years younger than me, which I'm not entirely against, but it shows in conversation, like I can tell so easily that he's still just a kid in highschool, he's also across the ocean from me. like literally the only way we can hang out is through games, which is so awkward for me. and I really wish I never said yes to him, I was just trying to be open and try but I'm regretting it because I don't want to just back out and make him feel unspecial, and what's worse is he's going through an extremely rough time right now, he's been constantly hurting himself and trying to kill himself because of his abusive family, and even though he just got put into a temporary housing unit to get away from his family I'm worried he will just kill himself if I tell him I don't think this will work. I wish I never started this because I have NO clue how to navigate myself out of this.

I feel like such an asshole

I don't want to keep doing this anymore. I hate who I am, I'm injured and in pain, I can't afford to keep going but I can't afford to stop.

I came home from work today bleeding out my eye, forehead and arm. I came home hoping for a hug and help but instead got threatened with eviction for getting blood on the floor. just trying to keep up with the people at my job hurts because they're all so much stronger than me, I don't even want this job I'm just forced to work it because I have to pay off debt to own a car, because mine got destroyed just driving to work. it wasn't even my fault there was nothing I could do to prevent it. It was just high centered on something underneath the snow and got destroyed. I don't even know if I'll be able to go to college anymore and escape this life. all of this life I started for somone who doesent even want anything to to with me anymore. all of it. all the cuts and bruises. the stupid muscles and veiny arms making me look like a brute. I don't even have time to properly take care of myself anymore. I look so disgusting. the only way I can keep up is literally burning myself with a lighter to wake up on time in the morning.

I just want it to end. everything I just wish it would go dark. I wish when I jumped off the school at 15 it killed me, I wish I didn't feel it in my back everytime I walk around this stupid reminder that I couldn't even kill myself right.

it takes everything in me to not take a nail gun to my head every day. I'm so tired of this all I just want it all to end please.

After adding the keyboard I wanted to configure to zmk cli, it's not showing up, can anyone with a little bit more experience than I have potentially help walk me through this

Thockies and gentleclacks

After years of chasing an unattainable goal

Endgame

I remember being a smaller younger individual once, a spectator to a greater conflict. The great grand thockoff of 2022 to 2023. I remember a certain creator that generally tends to associate with the name Flur "do-didgery" ples. And I remember when they dropped the now infamous video "this keyboard should not sound this good".

And right then and there I knew.... that I needed that keyboard.

Except one slight issue. I'm lazy and didn't want to go through the effort of recreating a peice of cardboard with switches on it.

Fast forward to december of 2025 and I am sitting in my room dying as all sociable adults do whilst Browsing shop.com, untill I came across a listing for this.

Mini nova 2. A keyboard near identical in layout to the flurples keyboard

Naturally as a as a bored 19 year old keyboard enthusiast. I was interested, and by interested I mean I rushed to my nearest internet browser, slammed in the website, and mashed in my bank account details, and sat waiting patiently for the board to arrive

why is it not here yet?

waits faster

Fast forward to about a week ago (Canada post is an incredible delivery service) I finnsly receive the board and immediately set to work on recreating the flurples keyboard with it and... It sounds nothing like the flurples keyboard.

Lesson learned, don't try to mimic greatness.

The specs: Mini nova 2 with cherry Boba frankenswitches and a Boba cream spacebar for effect.