I don’t feel “black” enough
I just had to get this off my chest. All my life, I never really acted like other young Black people like me. I’m autistic, so I already don’t understand the world like “humans” do. I don’t “dap up” others, don’t hit on girls, never joined a fraternity, never snuck out, any of that. I was raised to be the perfect person, and what did it get me? Alienated! I got one and a half friends, and my love life sucks too. One girl in high school never went further with me, even though we walked home and went to her house (mainly because our parents made an agreement). One girl seemed like a good match, but she stood me up one summer night. And one I met on my last semester of college, I couldn’t really take out because I had no job. I just had to say it, I don’t care what they say, but that’s how I feel.