u/Flux_My_Capacitor

I’ve known this guy for years but I wouldn’t say he’s a friend and there’s nothing “more” happening between us. He tried to hit me up for sex but that’s not happening. I made the simple comment that my OCD was bad that day and he told me that it was unwanted negativity that he didn’t want in his life. So yes, he wants sex from me but not my “negative” disability. I’m clearly not even seen as human to him. Men are seriously not lonely enough. I know my OCD is not easy for others to deal with, but to call it unwanted negativity is just ridiculous. I’m not even hurt because even this is so over the top that I just shake my head and realize how pathetic this man really is. Good riddance to him.

I’m down 15 pounds now and I’ve got about 60 more to go (and then I’ll reevaluate). Does anyone else get really bony in their hands and feet at first? This doesn’t happen when I do other forms of dieting. Even my knees have slimmed down….and yet I put on a pair of shorts that I was hoping would be more comfortable by now and they’re not (I bought them just before I started fasting again about 3 1/2 weeks ago and they don’t feel much better.)

So for now I’ll just admire my bony feet and hands. 😂

We have had the HVAC guy come and fix various problems with our system over the years (rental). Last summer it started dripping water and the bottom of the unit is attached to concrete and since concrete can absorb moisture, the whole floor slab was damp and mold was growing on the walls. Quite a few inches of water build up and it creates a moisture nightmare not only in the air but on the surface areas around the unit in our apartment. I don’t even want to know what the ceiling of the unit below us looks like. I know I need to press for a better fix because this isn’t it. It’s a health and structural problem and the solution isn’t to call maintenance every other week to get them to wet vac the bottom of the unit.

Please, let me know exactly what I need to say to them to get this fixed correctly. Whatever “fix” they tried wasn’t a fix at all. Do you have any idea what the big problem could be? (Any and all potential issues.) Some water does drip into the drain pipe and collection bin, but far more seems to drip onto the filter, making it soaking wet, and then down into the area below the unit.

THANK YOU!

Curious, does anyone know how many bins are at this location in Middletown, PA? I was in Rochester, NY for the week and they have 90+ bins altogether. It was a lot of fun and the people were pretty chill which was nice as ahem my area has “frantic” book flippers who toss books and don’t care if your head is in the way 😡 I’m hoping to make a trip out there sometime soon.

Oh, and are the people there pretty chill, too?

THANKS!

Have you tried this form before? It seems to be less common as I can only find 2 companies that sell it in the USA.

If you use it, what brand do you use? Where do you buy it? Why did you choose this form? Do you find it to be helpful?

I did a search and only found one post about it from 4 years ago with no replies.

I just started taking it because I need a better form of phosphate (dicalcium phosphate will reduce your stomach acid as well as having poor bioavailability; dipotassium phosphate is trickier to dose due to it containing potassium, plus I haven’t found it sold as a supplement in the USA). Oh, and I’m also magnesium deficient so I’m addressing 2 deficiencies and not just one with this supplement.

Nobody warns you about what happens when the obsessions go silent.

Well, maybe not exactly “nobody”, but you know what I mean.

And I know the distress doesn’t happen to everyone but it happened to me.

I am working with the I-CBT model and have the “themes” of scrupulosity (moral and religious), mixed in with perfectionism, just right, and more mild checking behavior.

Of course I jumped right in with one of my worst obsessions and mapped out my thought pattern, because, why not? I got to the point of testing my thoughts and the obsessions simply went silent. And it’s not because I’m afraid of testing it, because oddly I’m not, I’m perfectly fine with that part of treatment.

The silence is so distressing. The OCD noise in my head took up so much of my time and energy that this void is just distressing. Life just feels different and I cannot explain it.

I once was in the hospital for trauma treatment and I met a woman who had DID (real DID, before the TikTok fad). She was there because all of her parts went silent and she could not handle it. I know it’s a different disorder, but knowing one person out there experienced this distressing silence is somehow comforting in that I know I can push through this…

Thanks for reading.