

Calorie count in this filet of salmon?
I don’t have a scale but it was cooked in a pan with oil


I don’t have a scale but it was cooked in a pan with oil
Today I took magnesium citrate around noon and it didn’t really do much besides relieve my stomach from some bloating. I tried to go to the bathroom and managed to pass one piece of stool but it was really hard and it hurt. An hour ago I took an enema and lots of liquid stool came out but I still don’t feel relieved, I feel like there’s a blockage. Whenever I try to push it’s burning a lot but I think that’s probably due to the enema itself. Should I wait until tomorrow and then use an enema again? Honestly nervous because I also have BED which leads to me binging a lot of high carb foods like bread. The other day I ate twelve rice cakes, multiple bagels, and six fiber one bars so there’s definitely a high chance it made it worse.
Yesterday I ate around my TDEE but none of the food was actually satiating. It was just around eight small bags of low calorie snacks and then two bagels with cream cheese. The four days prior to that I binged around 12,000 cals. I look so bloated and puffy, especially in my face and stomach. The scale is up 9lbs from when I weighed myself a week ago and I’m trying to tell myself it’s impossible to gain that much weight that quickly but my body looks so much bigger it’s making me feel hopeless. I can’t even sleep comfortably I feel disgusting.
I was gonna include Bonlijah on here but I couldn’t find a gif of them 💔
Klonnie is growing on me but I’ve always loved Kennett, those old AMVs of them are forever in my heart. I’ve seen some people accuse Kennett shippers of only being into them so Bonnie is out of the way of Klaroline but I personally hate Klaroline so..
I think I’ve ate around 10,000 calories in total (yes I actually calculated it). Every time I wake up and see how puffy and bloated I am, it makes me feel worse and I want to continue. None of the food in my house tastes good either it’s not worth it I ate tons of dark chocolate and I don’t even like dark chocolate. The number on the scale doesn’t help either I know it’s 8lbs higher due to water weight but it makes me more stressed out. I’m so scared of ruining all my progress.
Salmon, avocado with cucumbers, and sweet potato
I’ve found myself in a bad binge restrict cycle. Ever since I finished a 13 day fast and broke it off with a high amount of carbs, I’ve proceeded to binge and then not eat at all the following days. There was one day where I ate a large bag of movie theater popcorn and a cake pop so I didn’t eat the following day. Then another day when I tried to eat around my tdee but ended up binging so I didn’t eat for three days after that. Two days ago I started binging again. I know it’s not a good idea to calculate but I’ve tried estimating and the caloric surplus is 5,360. The scale is 6lbs higher and it’s just really disheartening. I know most of it is water weight but I don’t even feel the urge to pee so it’s making me paranoid. My stomach hurts so bad and I’m extremely bloated. Tomorrow I’m going to try my best to eat normally. Also this is off topic but I don’t know what I really look like anymore. I feel like in every mirror, reflection, photo, and video I see of myself, I look like a totally different person.
Stefonnie vid at 15 yrs ago 🥹 I wish the writers had done more with them after S1
I kept eating and eating despite the nausea, my stomach hurting, and not feeling hungry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want to fast for five days to get rid of it all. I know it’ll probably make it worse but I genuinely don’t know what else to do I can’t cope with looking super bloated and puffy for the next three to four days. None of the food was worth it either, all processed junk food. It was in front of a friend too.
Will probably log this as 1200
Also why did everyone used to ship Ashfur and Scourge 😭
+ had another yasso bar which wasn’t in the pic
I went to Tilton square theater and drizzled the butter for a solid five seconds. Considering making this an OMAD lmao
On the final day of a five day fast and when I slept I imagined myself eating an entire box of Oreos, lornadoones, and cereal. I was relieved when I woke up and found out I didn’t actually do anything 😅
She’s so beautiful 🥹 definitely my favorite hairstyle for her (but she also looked great in the 1920s).
Look, I have no problem with Caroline feeling insecure. My annoyance comes from the writers (mainly Julie Plec) framing her as an underdog and having her say this to Bonnie of all people. Caroline along with Elena got so much opportunities at romance throughout the show, people describing them as pretty, fleshed out dynamics with their family members, etc while Bonnie was left out. Even her pairing with Enzo made him into a different man for the sake of what? Guy who killed and turned Stefan’s girlfriend into a vampire for making Caroline cry is now all encouraging towards peace in S8 😐
Then whenever someone makes a post talking about how they would’ve liked to see Bonnie paired up with Kai or another main villain, the comments treat them like they’re crazy since he never got redemption or praise him for not getting it. Like is it not weird that Bonnie gets a realistic PTSD arc and wanted revenge on Kai for what he did while Elena and Caroline are still lovey dovey with Damon and Klaus despite the amount of shit they committed? You guys can tell me it’s not the same but Klaus tried to kill Caroline repeatedly, made her boyfriend into a slave for him, and made her friend become the darkest version of himself and murder tons of people when he wanted to save his brother. Damon is self explanatory at this point but imagine if Kai had sexually assaulted Bonnie while she told him no over and over again 😭
Then we have Stefan apparently skipping arm day and not being able to lift the both of them out of the water. The plot needed Elena to be a vampire badly.
Stefan (probably obvious by now) but he’s so tragic and full of issues I love it. Could ramble about him for days.
Bonnie — Best girl. She had chemistry with everyone apart from the people she canonically got together with and it’s a shame how they treated her character alongside Kat. They weren’t slick at all with the way they killed off so many off her family members and had Enzo be portrayed as a lover who’d seek revenge if his partner was hurt (Caroline car scene) but then he encourages her to be all forgiving in S8 🙄
Kai — I’m an unironic Kai Parker apologist. He got me through S6 and I have a lot of hot takes about him that would probably get me downvoted 🤷
Finn — Only character who managed to not piss me off once while watching the Originals LOL.
Kol — I would binge watch AMVs of him when I was 12 constantly.
Tyler — All I can say is that I sleep well knowing Klaus is dead 😴 (I have very mixed emotions on that man)
Rebekah — I love her but she gets babied too much by the fandom imo. Will not expand further.
Zach — Rewatched S1 and this guy really grew on me?
Nora — I wish her and Bonnie had been a thing.
Mason Lockwood — Underrated werewolf :(
+ Lucien because he’s one of my favorite villains and he had a lot of sexual tension with Klaus.
I’m still very salty they removed this. It would’ve been such a good moment for the both of them and we needed more scenes of characters being vulnerable with the amount of shit they were going through 😩