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Starting alli a movie promos , dick riding Ella ittu. Ivattu for some reason it popup on my page. Yappa full gooner sub aagide, it’s beaten goonerloka by all means.

I work in corporate and last 2 years have been my horrible. I’ve lost all interest in what I do and nothing excites me anymore.

I’ve been wanting to take a break but whenever I plan so there’s one or the other big that needs to be done in x days. It’s become very exhausting i feel i need a reset I feel I have to go away from all this.

Even taking a sick day feels like an anxiety driven cycle.

To calm myself I go for jogs and do workout at the gym.

But lately on my daily runs i have this feel that I’d wanna fall and break something or even gut run over by a car or a motor bike so I’d sustain injuries and get some rest. Or in the gym i push myself too hard so I’d end up sustaining injuries and be forced to rest.

I’m sorry if this sounds strange but this is what runs through my head. I’ve tried to trip and fall intentionally but I’ve not had the courage I’ve tired to drop a 45 pound plate on my feet but again i fail to do so.

Really sorry I’ve this sounds dumb but I feel this one way i can take a break from my routine and stay away from work.

I can’t quit cuz my life depends on this and the job market is too hard for me just jump the gun. I’d wanna start looking for new work but from what I’ve seen it’s the same everywhere. I’m just clueless at this point.

I’ve read so far thank you and sorry if this felt stupid but this is a feeling I’m struggling with a lot.

In one of the old TISS efisodes Bawa spoke about a hotel he stayed at had a mist for the pillow cuz of which he almost missed a flight.

So any idea what this spray is. Is it something I can buy and from where.

Suffering from sleeplessness and melatonin did not help so thought this is something that I’d try out.

Please help.

Been working since almost 10 years now. Everything was doing good I had all the energy and motivation to build and design new things.

But since last few months I’ve lost all interest in life and motivation to work. I was planning to buy an apartment then all the AI talk and layoffs started. I have some savings and the sole earner so I choose to stay away from risking it with buying myself a house. AI wasn’t something I worried about I started to build with AI but if you’ve been in the IT wheel you’d know how much AI is being shoved on you. And I’m having something I’d call “AI fatigue”. Lost my interest there. But can’t quit or walk away cuz o have to earn.

I’m overweight so I started this weight loss journey I’ve cut close to 15 kilos so far and I was motivated but lately I’m loosing my mind on it as well but I’m pushing myself either cuz I don’t wanna go back to 3 figured body weight cuz it sucks.

But with work and life I’m just exhausted. Every day I dread. I was happy to help folks around me but every ping I get on the messaging app just pisses me off. I just wanna not do anything at this point.

Has anyone been here? Have you been able to come out of it? Is it even possible to come out of it or is this life??

Any help would be great. Please help a brother out.