u/Independent_Lynx1389

i’m having a really hard time finding support groups for myself. i can’t afford a therapist and i liked the community aspect of meetings at AA but the religious aspect makes me so uncomfortable. i try to sort on the apps but you can’t sort where you can exclude stuff and i just can’t seem to find anything. i really don’t wanna do online with zoom because it’s so impersonal and i want to connect with people but i don’t want to be trapped in a room with people telling me to find a higher power and quit smoking weed to be happy when that’s bullshit and i just want a place where i can talk about what’s going on with me to get some peace of mind. i just want fucking people to talk to without being trapped in a religious bubble and i dont wanna talk to a fucking computer! and if you could explain why you like the alternative that you recommend that would be great because i really need help

does anyone else have a hard time moving on in life after recovering? my body looks a great deal different now than i did while in active addiction and sometimes i still have a really hard time even getting up in the morning because of it. i feel like my face is super bloated all the time and i’ve been masking my feelings with a lot of weed and caffeine. i became a heavy alcoholic while in recovery and it caused a lot of issues and changes to my body physical and i’ve just really been struggling since getting sober with moving in with things in the after math. i know im a lot healthier and i can do a lot more and looks aren’t everything, but it consumes my mind and once again it feels like my life is around my weight and waiting to be smaller etc. idk who to talk to

f22. congrats to me 🌝😛

looking for a fic where it’s like a rewrite of the scene where draco is about to kill dumbledore and harry is below listening and he doesn’t know. what if harry came out, or got to draco before and told him he didn’t have to do this? i love that scene and i wish tk read it but with drarry

i’m f22 and i’ve been in a relationship with my now fiance for over 3 years and honestly we’ve never been that sexual. at the beginning we did have sex everyday but overtime it lessened and for a while my partner was struggling mentally and we didn’t have sex for like 8 months and it was fine. it got me yk sometimes due to insecurity because sex=attraction but overall it really didn’t affect our relationship and now we’re back to having sex like twice or once a month and im happy. i have alot of girl friends my age who have casual sex or have started to see people and they always tell these long stories of all the freaky stuff they did and how they came 5 times and it just always makes me feel weird inside. like im missing out on something or i’m not doing all i could be doing but i just don’t have a desire for that. i’m happy with what i do sexually and i’m also on an SSRI so i really don’t get horny like that. and i’m also just in a phase in my life where i’m focused more on my self and my mental health than i am having sex. but the way they talk about it and make it seem like the best thing ever and even have made comments in the past i need to explore my sexual needs more, just makes me feel gross inside. idk how to shake this feeling

some back story on me, i’m 22f and i was anorexic for 6 years and while in recovery i became a heavily alcoholic. i’m been sober now for 10 months and for over a year now have suffered from chronic GERD and ibs from years of self abuse. because of this certain things, like caffeine really hurt my stomach and make me feel nauseous and fatigued in ways it hasn’t ever before even in an empty stomach. but for some reason i can’t kick the addiction , and the love for caffeine, especially coffee but really any caffeine. when i was anorexic i used to starve myself all day at school from 6am til 4 pm and when i would come home every day like clock work i could have a cup of coffee. i loved coffee, it made me feel alive, it was something to look forward to, made me happy. i just have this idea of it in my head i can’t let go no matter how hard i try. and all of it hurts. energy drinks, green tea, i can’t even drink carbonated drinks because of my gerd. i also love the community of coffee, found to a coffee shop and getting a latte, having coffee in the morning in a cute mug. it doesn’t hit the same with chamomile herbal tea. i’m just sad about it. i’ve quit vaping as well 40 days ago and i figured my gerd would get better but hadnt because every week i decide its work it to have a coffee and always regret an hour later. and the only other thing that makes me happy in life aside from friends and family is weed. and that’s starting to be an issue too do to the smoke aspect loosening the LES. it’s always fucking something. always running from the past and can’t get away because i have reminders like this every day. i know im the issue and i need to control myself but it’s hard and i hate myself.

doesn’t need to be a serious chat, just not been feeling happiness lately and it’s making it hard to get up in the morning so i just want someone to talk to

okay i made a post earlier about how i haven’t read past the 3rd book and now i want to read up til the 6th book all original and then switch to a really good really accurate rewrite of the last book where it’s drarry cannon and like drarry based if that is out there..thank you

my fiance is obsessed with harry potter like read the books and all, and i’ve watched all the movies with him which is where i found drarry and became obsessed with the pairing and the fics in the fandom. i read the first 3 books because my fiance begged me to and i did like the but after every book all i could think about was fan fiction and how i would rather be reading that. that’s why i haven’t picked up the fourth book yet. and my fiance begs me to finish them and when i tell him oh i just like romantic books more, he tries to tell me to hang on for harry and ginny (UGH NO) and it’s just not what i want. i love drarry fan fictions and i would read all of harry potter in 1 day if drarry was actually cannon and in the original story. idk i wanted to see if anyone could relate or if im just super weird

about 32 days into vape quitting. i’ve always struggled with finding things that make me happy, i don’t have any hobbies and since recovering from my eating disorder and quitting drinking i’ve found that nothing can really replace the gaping hole thise things have left in my life. like how i wish a good book or tv show would fill me with the same joyful feeling but it just doesn’t. nothing does. not even having out with my friends anymore. my friend had a birthday picnic yesterday and the whole time i was there i was thinking how if j was at home scrolling on my phone i would be having the same amount of fun-little to none. and it’s starting to really kill me because my fiance loves to do things and wants me to do all these things with him but none of it makes me happy at all. and i complain we don’t do things i want to do but i don’t want to do anything and that’s the problem. so i never feel joy unless im smoking weed or having an orgasm. idk what’s wrong with me, i just can’t figure out what makes me want to wake up in the fuckinf morning. and ive been thinking about self harm lately, not in a bad way but just thinking about it. my cat scratched my arm and it hurt and left a arm and it for once made my brain shut up fo 5 seconds and i just keep thinking about how i wish i could hurt myself in private without anyone knowing as a way to deal with these thoughts in my head. but i can’t because i share my life with someone so i can’t

today is day 31 meaning i’ve completed 30 days without vaping! it’s been hard but finally i can wake up without the first thought being where the vape is. yay me!

today is day 18 and i don’t feel anything at all. i gave up vaping because i assumed it was contributing to my bad GERD but things haven’t really gotten any better since i quit. i will say ive been using a disposable cart (weed pen) and everytime i hit it i get terrible trapped gas so im gonna quit using that as well. i’m just sad, and empty. i’ve given up so much that makes me happy because of my gerd and yeah these things are bad for me but they’re what i liked and idk how to fill my time without them. i don’t like anything, i went to work today and after i got home from a miserable shift and smoked bud outside, i didn’t know what to do with myself. i played tomodachi life for a bit but other than that i flipped thru apps on my phone like a mad man and made myself feel insane talking to myself in my head. just a nothing burger ass day and most dad go this way cause i don’t wanna do anything ever not even something simple like watch the tv. i went on a walk but i have fatigue from my gerd episode so i can only do so much. anyways wanted to check in