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I’m struggling with intense fear about PSSD and I don’t know what to do.

I’ve had severe OCD/anxiety for almost 15 years. After 5 years of trial and error with different antidepressants and medications, I finally found something that actually works for me: 225mg clomipramine and Risperidone LS.

For the first time in my life, my head feels calm. The constant fear, mental clutter, intrusive thoughts, and anxiety became much quieter. I can finally breathe mentally and feel somewhat normal.

But now I’ve become obsessed with the fear of PSSD. I keep reading stories online and my brain constantly tells me:

“What if this permanently damages you?”

“What if you lose emotions or sexuality forever?”

“What if you’re making the biggest mistake of your life?”

The fear is becoming so intense that I’m starting to panic even though the medication is helping me a lot. My OCD keeps seeking certainty and reassurance, and I’m stuck in endless checking and researching.

I genuinely don’t know what to do. Part of me wants relief from OCD and another part is terrified of long-term side effects.

Has anyone else gone through this kind of fear while finally finding a medication that worked? How did you handle the obsession and uncertainty around it?

I’m struggling with intense fear about PSSD and I don’t know what to do.

I’ve had severe OCD/anxiety for almost 15 years. After 5 years of trial and error with different antidepressants and medications, I finally found something that actually works for me: 225mg clomipramine and Risperidone LS.

For the first time in my life, my head feels calm. The constant fear, mental clutter, intrusive thoughts, and anxiety became much quieter. I can finally breathe mentally and feel somewhat normal.

But now I’ve become obsessed with the fear of PSSD. I keep reading stories online and my brain constantly tells me:

“What if this permanently damages you?”

“What if you lose emotions or sexuality forever?”

“What if you’re making the biggest mistake of your life?”

The fear is becoming so intense that I’m starting to panic even though the medication is helping me a lot. My OCD keeps seeking certainty and reassurance, and I’m stuck in endless checking and researching.

I genuinely don’t know what to do. Part of me wants relief from OCD and another part is terrified of long-term side effects.

Has anyone else gone through this kind of fear while finally finding a medication that worked? How did you handle the obsession and uncertainty around it?

I’m struggling with intense fear about PSSD and I don’t know what to do.

I’ve had severe OCD/anxiety for almost 15 years. After 5 years of trial and error with different antidepressants and medications, I finally found something that actually works for me: 225mg clomipramine and Risperidone LS.

For the first time in my life, my head feels calm. The constant fear, mental clutter, intrusive thoughts, and anxiety became much quieter. I can finally breathe mentally and feel somewhat normal.

But now I’ve become obsessed with the fear of PSSD. I keep reading stories online and my brain constantly tells me:

“What if this permanently damages you?”

“What if you lose emotions or sexuality forever?”

“What if you’re making the biggest mistake of your life?”

The fear is becoming so intense that I’m starting to panic even though the medication is helping me a lot. My OCD keeps seeking certainty and reassurance, and I’m stuck in endless checking and researching.

I genuinely don’t know what to do. Part of me wants relief from OCD and another part is terrified of long-term side effects.

Has anyone else gone through this kind of fear while finally finding a medication that worked? How did you handle the obsession and uncertainty around it?

I’m struggling with intense fear about PSSD and I don’t know what to do.

I’ve had severe OCD/anxiety for almost 15 years. After 5 years of trial and error with different antidepressants and medications, I finally found something that actually works for me: 225mg clomipramine and Risperidone LS.

For the first time in my life, my head feels calm. The constant fear, mental clutter, intrusive thoughts, and anxiety became much quieter. I can finally breathe mentally and feel somewhat normal.

But now I’ve become obsessed with the fear of PSSD. I keep reading stories online and my brain constantly tells me:

“What if this permanently damages you?”

“What if you lose emotions or sexuality forever?”

“What if you’re making the biggest mistake of your life?”

The fear is becoming so intense that I’m starting to panic even though the medication is helping me a lot. My OCD keeps seeking certainty and reassurance, and I’m stuck in endless checking and researching.

I genuinely don’t know what to do. Part of me wants relief from OCD and another part is terrified of long-term side effects.

Has anyone else gone through this kind of fear while finally finding a medication that worked? How did you handle the obsession and uncertainty around it?

Hi everyone,

I’m really confused and scared about what’s happening with my memory and concentration, and I wanted to ask if anyone has experienced something similar.

I’ve been struggling with OCD, anxiety, and depression for many years. I was taking clomipramine (225 mg) and risperidone.

In October 2025, I stopped taking both medications.

Then I had an exam in November 2025, and during the exam I felt like I completely lost my memory. I couldn’t recall things I studied, couldn’t remember answers properly, and my mind felt blank. It genuinely felt like my brain stopped working.

Because of this, I restarted the same medications again on November 28, 2025.

Then I had another important exam on February 28, 2026, but the same thing happened again:

- I couldn’t recall things properly

- couldn’t memorize well

- poor concentration

- blank mind during studying and exams

- severe brain fog

Now I’m extremely confused.

I don’t understand:

- Is this happening because of the medication?

- Is it because of anxiety/OCD/depression?

- Did years of stress affect my cognition?

- Or is there something seriously wrong with my brain?

The scariest part is that I constantly feel like:

👉 “What if my memory and cognitive abilities never come back?”

I also notice:

- constant overthinking

- difficulty concentrating

- mental exhaustion

- low motivation

- fear while studying

- rereading things again and again but not retaining them

Has anyone experienced something similar with clomipramine, risperidone, OCD, anxiety, or depression?

Did your memory and concentration improve later?

Any advice or experiences would really help because I feel very lost right now.

Thank you.

Hi everyone,

I’m really confused and scared about what’s happening with my memory and concentration, and I wanted to ask if anyone has experienced something similar.

I’ve been struggling with OCD, anxiety, and depression for many years. I was taking clomipramine (225 mg) and risperidone.

In October 2025, I stopped taking both medications.

Then I had an exam in November 2025, and during the exam I felt like I completely lost my memory. I couldn’t recall things I studied, couldn’t remember answers properly, and my mind felt blank. It genuinely felt like my brain stopped working.

Because of this, I restarted the same medications again on November 28, 2025.

Then I had another important exam on February 28, 2026, but the same thing happened again:

- I couldn’t recall things properly

- couldn’t memorize well

- poor concentration

- blank mind during studying and exams

- severe brain fog

Now I’m extremely confused.

I don’t understand:

- Is this happening because of the medication?

- Is it because of anxiety/OCD/depression?

- Did years of stress affect my cognition?

- Or is there something seriously wrong with my brain?

The scariest part is that I constantly feel like:

👉 “What if my memory and cognitive abilities never come back?”

I also notice:

- constant overthinking

- difficulty concentrating

- mental exhaustion

- low motivation

- fear while studying

- rereading things again and again but not retaining them

Has anyone experienced something similar with clomipramine, risperidone, OCD, anxiety, or depression?

Did your memory and concentration improve later?

Any advice or experiences would really help because I feel very lost right now.

Thank you.

Hi everyone,

I’m really confused and scared about what’s happening with my memory and concentration, and I wanted to ask if anyone has experienced something similar.

I’ve been struggling with OCD, anxiety, and depression for many years. I was taking clomipramine (225 mg) and risperidone.

In October 2025, I stopped taking both medications.

Then I had an exam in November 2025, and during the exam I felt like I completely lost my memory. I couldn’t recall things I studied, couldn’t remember answers properly, and my mind felt blank. It genuinely felt like my brain stopped working.

Because of this, I restarted the same medications again on November 28, 2025.

Then I had another important exam on February 28, 2026, but the same thing happened again:

- I couldn’t recall things properly

- couldn’t memorize well

- poor concentration

- blank mind during studying and exams

- severe brain fog

Now I’m extremely confused.

I don’t understand:

- Is this happening because of the medication?

- Is it because of anxiety/OCD/depression?

- Did years of stress affect my cognition?

- Or is there something seriously wrong with my brain?

The scariest part is that I constantly feel like:

👉 “What if my memory and cognitive abilities never come back?”

I also notice:

- constant overthinking

- difficulty concentrating

- mental exhaustion

- low motivation

- fear while studying

- rereading things again and again but not retaining them

Has anyone experienced something similar with clomipramine, risperidone, OCD, anxiety, or depression?

Did your memory and concentration improve later?

Any advice or experiences would really help because I feel very lost right now.

Thank you.

I wanted to discuss a concern regarding my cognition and memory.

I am currently taking Clomipramine and Risperidone,.

Over the past few weeks, especially during exam preparation, I have been experiencing:

Difficulty recalling information while studying

Word retrieval problems at times

Feeling mentally slower than before

Episodes where my mind feels blank under pressure

However, I am still able to:

Understand conversations clearly

Remember daily life details

Communicate normally

Think logically in non-performance situations

The memory difficulty seems worse when I try to study or perform, especially under stress. I am not sure whether this is:

A side effect of Clomipramine or Risperidone

Anxiety/performance-related cognitive block

Mental fatigue

Or something else

My OCD intensity has reduced compared to before medication, which is positive. But I am concerned about this cognitive slowing and want to know:

Is this a known side effect at my current dose?

Is it dose-related and reversible?

Should we adjust timing or dosage?

Is there anything I can do to improve cognitive clarity?

I am not planning to stop medication abruptly. I just want to understand whether what I am experiencing is medication-related or anxiety-related.

Thank you.

I wanted to discuss a concern regarding my cognition and memory.

I am currently taking Clomipramine and Risperidone,.

Over the past few weeks, especially during exam preparation, I have been experiencing:

Difficulty recalling information while studying

Word retrieval problems at times

Feeling mentally slower than before

Episodes where my mind feels blank under pressure

However, I am still able to:

Understand conversations clearly

Remember daily life details

Communicate normally

Think logically in non-performance situations

The memory difficulty seems worse when I try to study or perform, especially under stress. I am not sure whether this is:

A side effect of Clomipramine or Risperidone

Anxiety/performance-related cognitive block

Mental fatigue

Or something else

My OCD intensity has reduced compared to before medication, which is positive. But I am concerned about this cognitive slowing and want to know:

Is this a known side effect at my current dose?

Is it dose-related and reversible?

Should we adjust timing or dosage?

Is there anything I can do to improve cognitive clarity?

I am not planning to stop medication abruptly. I just want to understand whether what I am experiencing is medication-related or anxiety-related.

Thank you.

wanted to discuss a concern regarding my cognition and memory.

I am currently taking Clomipramine and Risperidone,.

Over the past few weeks, especially during exam preparation, I have been experiencing:

Difficulty recalling information while studying

Word retrieval problems at times

Feeling mentally slower than before

Episodes where my mind feels blank under pressure

However, I am still able to:

Understand conversations clearly

Remember daily life details

Communicate normally

Think logically in non-performance situations

The memory difficulty seems worse when I try to study or perform, especially under stress. I am not sure whether this is:

A side effect of Clomipramine or Risperidone

Anxiety/performance-related cognitive block

Mental fatigue

Or something else

My OCD intensity has reduced compared to before medication, which is positive. But I am concerned about this cognitive slowing and want to know:

Is this a known side effect at my current dose?

Is it dose-related and reversible?

Should we adjust timing or dosage?

Is there anything I can do to improve cognitive clarity?

I am not planning to stop medication abruptly. I just want to understand whether what I am experiencing is medication-related or anxiety-related.

Thank you.

wanted to discuss a concern regarding my cognition and memory.

I am currently taking Clomipramine and Risperidone,.

Over the past few weeks, especially during exam preparation, I have been experiencing:

Difficulty recalling information while studying

Word retrieval problems at times

Feeling mentally slower than before

Episodes where my mind feels blank under pressure

However, I am still able to:

Understand conversations clearly

Remember daily life details

Communicate normally

Think logically in non-performance situations

The memory difficulty seems worse when I try to study or perform, especially under stress. I am not sure whether this is:

A side effect of Clomipramine or Risperidone

Anxiety/performance-related cognitive block

Mental fatigue

Or something else

My OCD intensity has reduced compared to before medication, which is positive. But I am concerned about this cognitive slowing and want to know:

Is this a known side effect at my current dose?

Is it dose-related and reversible?

Should we adjust timing or dosage?

Is there anything I can do to improve cognitive clarity?

I am not planning to stop medication abruptly. I just want to understand whether what I am experiencing is medication-related or anxiety-related.

Thank you.

Hi everyone,

I’m looking for some clarity regarding my situation and whether it will affect my chances in SSC CGL.

I have been dealing with OCD and health issues since childhood, which impacted my academics. Here’s my timeline:

- Completed 12th in 2018

- Took a 2-year drop:

- 1 year for NEET preparation

- 1 year due to health-related issues

- Joined BSc in 2020

During my degree, my health was still unstable. Because of that, I couldn’t write many exams in the first 4 semesters. My backlogs were purely due to health issues, not lack of ability.

Now, I have cleared almost everything and have only one backlog remaining. I’ve applied for a special exam conducted by the university for old students to complete my degree.

My concern is:

- Will my gap years affect SSC CGL eligibility?

- Will delayed graduation be an issue?

- Will appearing through a special exam cause any problems during document verification?

I’m planning to prepare seriously for SSC CGL after clearing this final backlog and completing my degree.

If anyone has gone through a similar situation or has knowledge about SSC eligibility rules, please guide me.

Thanks in advance.

Hi everyone,

I’m a life science graduate and I’ve been feeling quite confused about my career direction. I don’t have a tech or engineering background, and I also have some gap years and delays in my education, which makes me a bit worried about my chances.

Lately, I’ve been exploring analytics roles like data analyst and business analyst. I see a lot of people mentioning skills like Excel, SQL, and Power BI, and how they transitioned from non-tech backgrounds.

I wanted to ask honestly:

- Is it realistic for someone from a biology/life science background to move into analytics?

- Do companies actually hire non-tech candidates for data analyst/business analyst roles?

- How much do gaps in career/education affect chances in this field?

- What skills/projects should I focus on to become job-ready?

I’m willing to put in the effort, but I don’t want to blindly choose a path without understanding if it’s practical for someone like me.

Would really appreciate honest advice or experiences from people who have made a similar transition.

Thanks!

Hey everyone,

I wanted to share something that feels like a turning point for me.

After about 4 years of trial and error with different medications, I’ve finally reached a place where things are starting to improve. It’s not perfect, but for the first time in a long time, I feel a sense of relief—like I can breathe again.

I’ve been dealing with OCD (mostly “Pure O” – intrusive thoughts and mental compulsions) along with persistent depressive feelings for years. My mind used to feel constantly “noisy”—like there was always some background chatter, intrusive thoughts, or rumination running non-stop. It made it really hard to focus, take action, or just feel at peace.

Right now, I’m on clomipramine (225 mg) and risperidone. This combination seems to be helping. The mental clutter has reduced, and I feel more stable than before.

Along with medication, I’ve also recently started ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) and behavioural therapy, which I’m taking seriously. I’m hoping this will help me build long-term coping skills and not rely only on medication.

But I still have a few concerns and questions:

1. Is it possible to feel like this without medication?

   Now that I know what “better” feels like, I really want to understand if this state is something I can maintain naturally in the future, or if medication is always going to be necessary.

2. How long do people usually stay on medication for OCD?

   I know this varies from person to person, but I’d really like to hear others’ experiences—especially from those who have tapered off successfully.

3. Side effects—especially sexual dysfunction

   This is something that worries me a lot. I’m concerned whether this is temporary or something that could persist long-term. Has anyone dealt with this and found ways to manage it?

4. Finding purpose after years of struggling

   For a long time, my life felt stuck because of OCD and depression. Now that I’m starting to feel a bit better, I realize I don’t really know what direction to take or what my purpose is.

   How did you start rebuilding your life after getting some relief from symptoms?

I’d really appreciate hearing your experiences, advice, or even just reassurance from people who have been through something similar.

Thanks for reading 🙏

Hey everyone,

I wanted to share something that feels like a turning point for me.

After about 4 years of trial and error with different medications, I’ve finally reached a place where things are starting to improve. It’s not perfect, but for the first time in a long time, I feel a sense of relief—like I can breathe again.

I’ve been dealing with OCD (mostly “Pure O” – intrusive thoughts and mental compulsions) along with persistent depressive feelings for years. My mind used to feel constantly “noisy”—like there was always some background chatter, intrusive thoughts, or rumination running non-stop. It made it really hard to focus, take action, or just feel at peace.

Right now, I’m on clomipramine (225 mg) and risperidone. This combination seems to be helping. The mental clutter has reduced, and I feel more stable than before.

Along with medication, I’ve also recently started ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) and behavioural therapy, which I’m taking seriously. I’m hoping this will help me build long-term coping skills and not rely only on medication.

But I still have a few concerns and questions:

1. Is it possible to feel like this without medication?

   Now that I know what “better” feels like, I really want to understand if this state is something I can maintain naturally in the future, or if medication is always going to be necessary.

2. How long do people usually stay on medication for OCD?

   I know this varies from person to person, but I’d really like to hear others’ experiences—especially from those who have tapered off successfully.

3. Side effects—especially sexual dysfunction

   This is something that worries me a lot. I’m concerned whether this is temporary or something that could persist long-term. Has anyone dealt with this and found ways to manage it?

4. Finding purpose after years of struggling

   For a long time, my life felt stuck because of OCD and depression. Now that I’m starting to feel a bit better, I realize I don’t really know what direction to take or what my purpose is.

   How did you start rebuilding your life after getting some relief from symptoms?

I’d really appreciate hearing your experiences, advice, or even just reassurance from people who have been through something similar.

Thanks for reading 🙏

Need honest career advice. Feeling completely stuck and confused.

I’m 25 (almost 26) from India. I’m a Life Science graduate. My academics are decent: around 8.7 CGPA in 10th, 87% in 12th, and around 7.2 CGPA in graduation. My graduation got delayed, and I have gap years / a non-linear profile because of personal struggles and mental health issues (OCD, anxiety, overthinking).

Right now I’m very confused about my future. Different options keep running in my head:

- Analytics / Data Analyst path (Excel, SQL, Power BI)

- CAT + MBA

- SSC CGL / Government job

- Staying in sales / corporate path

I recently worked in an inside sales job with low salary and long hours, but I quit because it felt like low growth and I couldn’t focus on building my future.

I’m interested in analytics, but I also hesitate and doubt myself because:

- I’m from Life Science background, not commerce/engineering/CS

- I wonder if companies will accept my degree

- I’m not sure if I can compete with stronger profiles

My biggest problems:

- I overthink too much and take very little action

- I compare myself with others

- I feel late because I’m almost 26

- Family has around 15 lakhs debt, so I feel pressure to settle soon

- I want to do something meaningful/big in life, not just survive

What I want:

- Good income

- Stable career

- Growth opportunities

- Respectable life

- Eventually marriage and supporting family

My questions:

1. Given my profile, what career path is most practical now?

2. Is analytics a realistic option for a Life Science graduate with delayed graduation and gaps?

3. Should I forget CAT/MBA for now and first focus on earning?

4. If you were in my place at 25–26, what would you do in the next 2 years?

Please give practical advice, not motivation only. I need direction.