How to effectively detach when feeling like you cannot function without somebody even after a decent stretch of time since they disbanded from you?
Long story short I met someone online 2 months ago and fell out with them a month ago after only 5 weeks in contact. I were spending almost all of my time with them and at one point we were even texting on repeat as soon as we woke up which meant a hell of alot more to me then it ever actually did.
I have had a very sheltered upbringing and had never properly connected with other people in general until meeting them. We shared all of the same interests and they were in a very similar situation to me for many years and I had a hard time managing this new found joy in interacting with them to the point of where I didn't really know how to function without them and constantly got irrationally scared of them moving on even when things were mostly positive.
It became dysfunctional pretty early on because I came to them whenever I was upset expecting them to always have energy for me and felt very worthless when they didn't and also because they pretended to feel something they didn't saying things like ''my friends mentioned a picnic and I said OMG ussss'' then telling me 17 days later they weren't being true to themself and I struggled to accept this because alot of things were built up in my head very quickly so because of those 2 things it wasn't working out. This also = leads me to believe I may have BPD which is something that has crossed my mind in the past due to unrelated things like an unstable self image, and at times I felt like I was getting my personality from them while I were talking to them, like sometimes I would try to copy certain mannerisms and based my entire existence around them and wanting to feel admired or valued by them.
So essentially, I've ended up with a deeply unhealthy obsession with someone who I made hate me and its really draining me mentally and I feel like I can't function anymore even after a month to the point of where I did everything in my power to desperately retain them which made things end on a far worse note.