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I have been talking to a friend who is a bit too kind I suppose. She knows about Egypt and the harsh reality of having to get out and she is offering me to fake marry her for 3 years in order to get the citizenship of a safe country.

I believe it is not gonna work out eventually and it feels like some sort of act of pity which I really hate people feeling sorry for me. but she has been persistent for more thsn a year and keeps bringing it up everytime i try to vent or bring up suicidal tendencies. I dont mind trying but it dprs make it any less impossible?

There has been a pause on making societies for some reason it has been more than year.

Is there any news regarding lifting the pause on former societies applications?

My mother and sister know I am transfem on estrogen. Everytime I do something they don't like or even act generally depressed or talk about suicidal thoughts, they threaten me with being forced into mental health hospital. They are very religious and my sister thinks its the reason for all my problems in life and the family's too. She mentioned she would tell my father couple of times to kick me out of the house but my mother said no.

I need to do something to make sure they dont take me. At least not alive, I dont think I will be able to handle more torture or ptsd.

Its awful. Patients literally change their complaints and if you ask them the same exact question twice, you get two different responses.

You can never find a base to build your history taking on this way

I have fear of darkness but only when I am home. When I am in a hotel or accomodation, I dont feel afraid or anything.

Its like a switch.

Is that a sign of traumas?

I am a transfem nonbinary person and I can't imagine myself cutting my hair or not shaving my body (except when depressed) it feels extremely disappointing that I need the military to approve my 5 years of hard work in medicine just to earn whats mine. I am thinking of never taking my certificate or even finding a way to drop my citizenship.

How are you gonna manage?

Edit: i am talking about 2 weeks military academy not conscription

I am a transfem nonbinary person and I can't imagine myself cutting my hair or not shaving my body (except when depressed) it feels extremely disappointing that I need the military to approve my 5 years of hard work in medicine just to earn whats mine. I am thinking of never taking my certificate or even finding a way to drop my citizenship.

How are you gonna manage?

Edit: i am talking about 2 weeks military academy not conscription

I have unused credit of 38 pounds i am not planning on coming again anytime soon and I want to get a refund for the credit but even when I use a vpn and the email I created in the uk, it says request blocked automatically by security system.

I cant call the tfl because I dont have an international line. I am not sure how to contact them.

I am from a third world country visiting a specific and crucial public university hospital in the UK and I noticed the consultants are very slow in the clinics. The average consultant sees around 9 patients per day. In my third world healthcare things move way faster a doctor could see around 20 or 30 patients per day which wouldn't be even a hard day. It feels like doctors here wait for half an hour just for the patients to come up with questions and while this is very nice, its not reasonable when the average patient has to wait for 12 weeks to start treatment.

I remembering seeing something similar in my country in a private university hospital where the overall uptake was 10 patients per clinic and I remenber how it felt like a waste of money to have this hospital still operating. It felt like there was a money laundering scam behind or they just have this hospital to keep the university running medical degrees.

I understand quality and accuracy are very crucial but why isn't speed as important in healthcare training?

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I find myself family's reaction to my suicidal attempt weird from the very first one. The first time I did it was a drug that take some time to cause multiple organ failure and my parents were like "if you truly want to die, you wouldn't have told us"

Next time I was living in a remote area alone and my mother frequently visits like most of the days and I attempted once and she was like "why while I amnhere? Couldn't you try that when I am not here"

Now that I am pretty far from my parents in another country I wonder what they would say if I actually die. I am very tired of all this.

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