u/Jche98

In March I was working hard on my PhD. As I worked, I started feeling this internal shaking feeling. As I worked it got really intense until one day there was an explosion of colour and sounds. I experienced profound happiness, like I've never experienced before. In the following days I experienced extreme emotions, mostly fear as the colours changed and strange smells happened. Afterwards I lost my sense of smell. Everything just smells like soap. Everything also looks sepia, like I'm watching the world through a Mexico filter. And the worst part is I've lost the ability to feel pleasure and human connection. I have not felt a single iota of joy since March (on top of everything my dad died but the problem started before that so I don't think it's grief). I'm getting desperate. I've had brain scans and therapy and psychiatric treatment. Nothing has worked and nobody can work out why my senses are going crazy and I can't feel. I'm hoping psilocybin can help. I don't need any of the mystical trippy stuff. I just need to feel some genuine happiness, even if it's just for a few hours.

I'm currently suffering from a complex condition where I can't feel positive emotions or smell anything. It's more than depression as it's some kind of brain disorder that the doctors aren't sure about yet. Nevertheless it's made me extremely suicidal. Discworld is the only thing keeping me alive at the moment. So thanks, I guess.

There's panda-monium!

I keep dreaming about my dad. He died last month. I know he's dead but I keep dreaming about him and my brain fills in the gap by saying it must be a clone of him. It can't be the real him. An imposter.

I keep getting angry at anyone alive older than 72. That was my dad's age when he died last week. I keep feeling rage at people in their late 70s or 80s

My dad died yesterday after catching a virus. He had a weakened immune system from a bone marrow transplant that was successful. It was really quick. He went from up and about to dead in three weeks. I was there when the machine flatlined. It's been one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. My mom died back in 2020 so I'm an orphan at the age of 27

But they were waiting for the chair.

My dad is on a ventilator for RSV acquired after a bone marrow transplant. He caught the bug on a plane coming to fetch me after I had a mental breakdown. We argued a lot on the way home and that's the last memories we had together. If he doesn't pull through I don't know what I'll do. I feel so guilty already .

My dad is on a ventilator for RSV acquired after a bone marrow transplant. He caught the bug on a plane coming to fetch me after I had a mental breakdown. We argued a lot on the way home and that's the last memories we had together. If he doesn't pull through I don't know what I'll do. I feel so guilty already .

Imperialist western nation vs fascist Argentina.

"I play Futo-ball"

"What?"

"Futo-ball"

"Ohhh soccer!"

"No not Osaka! I play in Tokyo!"

My uncle's family recently made Aliyah. In the middle of the genocide. Now my 21 year old cousin is being called up to the army. My aunt is distraught because she lost a child 19 years ago to meningitis and she thought the IDF would make an exception for her because she's suffered enough. Genuine thought process.