u/Jupiter0373829

I am dealing with symptoms of hypersexuality, i have not been functioning for years, i never learned how to function in life, and my symptoms of hypersexuality involve feeling like im almost offending, ive had pocd for abt 2 years at this point and at this point theyre starting to become less intrusive and more appealing at times to my dismay, i have intrusive or not fantasies abt fucking children bugs my dog and shit these issues have been affecting me for months to years depending on the issue i have many what made me decide i need inpatient care now was the thoughts that i need to get into camh or away from my house within this month or i will kill myself due to the regret of it all suicidality has been geetting worse and hypersexuality is getting harder to manage day by day in my house i cannot stay there i am emotionally and non emotionally neglected i sleep on a pissy uncovered mattress i have not been able to take care of myself day to day i isolate if i look too hoboey for my taste which is all the time i do not have support at home i live with two pedophiles both female mom and grandma mom saed me for 10 years and emotionally abused me too and she recently abandoned me while still living in the same home as me ig my neglect is making this stressful also grandma pedo just stopped being bedridden school was going boring i cant do shit and i feel guilty every day yes my symptoms have affected attendance and grades i do not feel able to focus or keep up but repeating a grade will give me a fighting chance i want to work on all the ill symptoms ive listed here and more symptoms i havent told u abt cause it would be way way too long 40 thousand words a longer stay of 3 months plus or so is important to me because i am so ill if my dad got a separate apartment for me to stay in i would be a failure to thrive because of my suicidality and csbd symptoms and i fear without support id attempt to kill myself and also i cannot go home homme has been starting and increasing my symptoms for 10 plus years i need help accessing youth housing thats lgbtq safe ig i have the things i need day to day my family needs to help me with getting my old journals i have 10 plus old journals and my mom hid em out of sight from me and denies doing so my dad still needs to get me stuff for skin hair clothing oral care i have gingivitis a reason i need admission around this time is because i cant take it anymore i cannot live in this house anymre i cant i cant and i cant

I am agender he/they today I am going to take a shower with dove sensitive body wash the sensitive bar soap and a cola flavour and decongestant flavour of handmade goats milk soap bars i think clothingly for my agender transition the first thing is getting all Diabetic socka because regular socks hurt me i wanna Eucerin urea lotion for agender euphoria congratulate my neurodivergent ass for taking a shower more often

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I have a psychotherapist i go to once a week, the clinic also does ABA which i hate(im not in aba) but my dads paying for this, sometimes she asks me shit like Do u feel misguided like you say your dad thinks you feel misguided abt your transness and puberty and i said I feel misguided cause the conservatives groomed me into letting estrogen take over my body and told me puberty blockers werent real and she was like ok at that then at another part she implied its my faullt for my mom abandoning me in the laziest way possble(didnt divorce my dad or even leave the house just stopped parenting me) cause i make her feel angry and hurt by calling her a child molester which she is and ive gone in detail abt her raping me a buncha times before and even in this session and then she said she supports trans ppl and is trying to understand em better cause shes a cis woman

I have a small chest i can bnd trans tape to a passable chest shape ut thats not the prooblem the problem is whenever i do that the skin on my chest between the tape strips is TOO stretched and restricts my breathing so how do i put it on propperly!?!? i have Hypermobility

i had a dream where i had 36 sisters and i was one of moms least favourite children also in the dream my 36 sisters and i went trekking thru a stairtop while some of the most favourite children went wow this staircase is good for a family of 36 sisters until we reached a part where the stairs were inaccessible to the typical abled person who was not acrobatic then the oldest called a janitor and the janitor said oh yea its like this because it was an old store not a family house then we went back down stairs but i was too acrophobic to make it down some stairs on my own so the janitor carried me down the sscarier ones untl the first flight of stairs which were normal then i left with my 36 sisters

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I dont wanna gain muscle or get buff....ever......Calisthenics is fine.....Ill do it once i get it Hypermobility modified so i can do it safely....I wanna do T gel so i can adjust my own dose and I rlly wanna start slow on the physical transition so im not Jumpscared by changes i call myself an androgynous boy or ftm/nb im terrified im gonna tuurn ugly on t

Help i need puberty blockers to gain height wwhile i can im ftm i cant go on t at the moment but i can convince him to block my puberty for height reasons

I am 16 ftm trans Ok so my dad is the definition of you cant hold two views on a person at the same time. after he heard i may not grow as much as him and mom(both are tall) because of earlier menarche and me explaining the different types of Puberty Blockers:(antiandrogen, antiiestrogen, puberty blocker to block both puberties?) he finally let me get on puberty blockers that time, last time when i tried to bring it up with him, he said NO its PERMANENT AND BAD FOR YOUR CALCIUM YOULL GET OSTEOPOROSIS(mom was there that time while last time she wasnt idk if that has anything to do with it) hes getting me necessary things for moving out like water flosser to not get gingivitis anymore, he said he loves me very much and says this house is always available even after i move out im going to youth housing btw cause i cant stand to be here anymore), he is supporting me materially while im outta the house until i can be fully independent but hes also(last year and earlier) not stood up for me when mom said i needed to go to the Scientology SRD again cause i failed out the first time for intrusive thoughts to cure my leek allergy and mental ills she was FORCING ME and said i could do hs volunteer hours later thhen i ran away before they could figure out a flight date to send me to the USA clearwater florida with mom being with me the whole time shes a control freak i was convinced if i actually went there id hang myself i didnt want that so i ran away called the cops and cps got involved and told both of em, when my grandma groped me on the thigh and then my brother while the whole family was in the hotel room(grandma, mom, dad, me, bbrother) my mom said ooh shes just playing(she raped me for 12 years at night too and dad still wont divorce her and is still scientologist to this day both of em are but since cps got involved im free from scientology being forced on me) he just stood there didnt do shit, today he keeps confusing me since he keeps doing good things to me now but hes done such bad in the past

Ok so my dad is the definition of you cant hold two views on a person at the same time. after he heard i may not grow as much as him and mom(both are tall) because of earlier menarche and me explaining the different types of Puberty Blockers:(antiandrogen, antiiestrogen, puberty blocker to block both puberties?) he finally let me get on puberty blockers that time, last time when i tried to bring it up with him, he said NO its PERMANENT AND BAD FOR YOUR CALCIUM YOULL GET OSTEOPOROSIS(mom was there that time while last time she wasnt idk if that has anything to do with it) hes getting me necessary things for moving out like water flosser to not get gingivitis anymore, he said he loves me very much and says this house is always available even after i move out im going to youth housing btw cause i cant stand to be here anymore), he is supporting me materially while im outta the house until i can be fully independent but hes also(last year and earlier) not stood up for me when mom said i needed to go to the Scientology SRD again cause i failed out the first time for intrusive thoughts to cure my leek allergy and mental ills she was FORCING ME and said i could do hs volunteer hours later thhen i ran away before they could figure out a flight date to send me to the USA clearwater florida with mom being with me the whole time shes a control freak i was convinced if i actually went there id hang myself i didnt want that so i ran away called the cops and cps got involved and told both of em, when my grandma groped me on the thigh and then my brother while the whole family was in the hotel room(grandma, mom, dad, me, bbrother) my mom said ooh shes just playing(she raped me for 12 years at night too and dad still wont divorce her and is still scientologist to this day both of em are but since cps got involved im free from scientology being forced on me) he just stood there didnt do shit, today he keeps confusing me since he keeps doing good things to me now but hes done such bad in the past

(16 nb)Im stuck on the toilet at school and my stomach hurts ive been gassy my diarrheas been FIZZY!?!? am i pooping out acid? wait no thats another sound, ok i need to figure out if my diarrhea and pain is cause I ate too little today or some sort of lactose, recently whenever I eat mcdonalds like a full meal of it i get the runs taco bell agrees with my stomach?????? ig??? how does that work what if my diarrhea is fizzy tho does this depend on biiological sex at all? Ok so today I ate 60 percent of a tims breakfast burrito a hash brown and 60 percent of a frozen lemonade, wtf is this

i feewl wike i want comfowt i am a sawd wittle(trans boy little) dis way i juswanna eep wif stuffies and tawlk wittle i dont have anyone in dis wife i can wegwess wiffff i want comfowt

i am 16 years old ftm i am getting on Aromatase Inhibitors soon i hope i am 160.7cm i was 160.3cm last month and in december 2025 i was 160.0cm my goal height is soewhere in between 172-175cm i am stage 4 tanner i have a 170cm mom and 185cm dad but mom started her period at 16 while mine was at 13 years and 10 months, from oct 2023(first blood)-nov 2024 it happened every 1.9-2.5 months then in 2025 it was monthly but i couldnt predict the date or semi regular??? always monthly tho then in feb-mar 2026 i started getting my periods always the 19 or 20-24st days of a calendar month ill take AIs(Aromatase Inhibitors) and HGH but only if a doctor approves it ill like calcium max and shit and do height exercises but how do i get the benefits of a reverse table without a reverse table??? I also have Hypermobility syndrome so i cannot do a dead hang or itll be very bad for my joints

i have willy compwicated feewings cause i am agere but also i align mysewlf wif abdl i am so confoosed(regressed rn) im wowwied if i ask fow comfowt im being nsfw comfowt me???(trans boy little)