Decided to light up while excitedly awaiting storms to roll through. Storms have always made me feel calm, and at ease. Like the energy of the storm is transferring into me and easing my spirit.
Anyone else ever get that feeling?
Also blessing my new bowl with his first smoke
Decided to light up, also blessing first smoke on my new pipe, while excitedly awaiting storms to roll through
Here's somethin for ya guys. These outfits my bro and I put together, were literally last moment, the nite before our RenFest. Every clothing piece was bought from Goodwill.
Our accessories have been collected over many years of RenFaires.
Both of us were incredibly surprised the outfits came together so well.
Everyone at the Faire who complimented us would not believe we managed to do so.
My bro is a Goodwill shopping god!
Sadly this is the only pic we thought to get of us, it was 4:30pm by then. We had been there since 8am! Lords, were we exhausted!!!
Hello, This is Berry. She is a 37 y/o Potbelly Bear. My very first xmas present when I was 5 months old. I have slept with her every single nite of my life.
My folks are going to pay to have her be sent to a Teddy Bear Restoration to fix her up. Stich up holes and loose stiches/seams. Refresh bald patches. Give her a proper Wash and Fluff.
My question/concern is, the online form quotes a rough six week turn around for Restoration.
I'm scared of being without her for that long. She's more than just my Bear. She's my Emotional Support. Constant support. I bury my face into her chest when I get upset and cry. I hug her tight to me when I can't sleep. I carry her around the house when I'm severely depressed or hurting, emotionally or physically.
My dad says if I come out of my room holding Berry, they know I'm really not doing good.
How do I get by that long alone?
Does anybody else have this kind of connection with their Bear and understand/know what I'm talking about?
How do you get along for such a long time?
Long story short-ish
Been on Autistic burnout, or at least aware of such, for about 5months now. Possibly been in burnout for longer, just wasn't diagnosed until just before this past November.
I live with my folks and bro. I am on Mental Disability, unable to live independently.
Both my folks are on veterans'disability. My Dad is wheelchair bound, My bro is the only one who works. So I'm the most 'Able-bodied' at home. Cause mum has fucked up her toe. And has ZERO emotional regulation. So her own depression/physical burnout is just sit on the couch and order/'ASK' me around.🙄
We, folks and I, just got home from a week long trip in Baltimore MD to visit extend. Had a great time, just deeling typical physical/mental trip exhaustion.
Been home less than 24hours, and just as before our trip. I already have become the folks' slave;
"Kelz, do this"
"Kelz, grab that"
"Kelz make dinner"
"Kelz...Kelz....Kelz....."
Non-Stop. I've already told them I feel like shit, I don't feel good. Mentally and Physically.
I feel like I have a bad case of I don't know what. My head is killing me, my gut is a knot of tension and pain, my shoulders and back are just a solid stiff muscle aching. My skin itches like the worst case of allergic reaction breakout, I'm dizzy, so far beyong exhausted I don't even think I knlw what 'sleepy/tired' feels like anymore, I've got a scorched swollen throat from trying to smoke a thca preroll last nite and pulled too hard.
My eyes are constant edge of overflowing of tears.
Basically, I'm a huge mess. And don't know how to just stop. Stop, rest, heal, I don't know what I need.
I just can't keep going like this.
But they keep 'ASKING'. read that as, 'ORDERING'
Cause to say no, or to not do what they say, turns into total meltdown in this household.
What the ever living fuck am I supposed to do?! How do I get out of a hell that has no way out?!
How do I say no without having to be stuck with their meltdown when I can't have a meltdown of my own?!
I AM FUCKING 37 YEARS OLD!!! THIS SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING!!!!!!
Finally scored my style I've been searching for years, and many a salon, to get right.
Turns out, neighborhood barbershop was the place to go!!
Got a good setup for a nice smoke with my freshly washed pipe and beautiful Storms rolling in on the wind.
Talk about the healing power of Nature
Hey, I don't know how much this is allowed, I just need to get this out.
My Foster Mom lost her husband, my Foster Dad, this morning suddenly.
He passed peacefully as far as we can tell. At 77 y/o. We were close, and I don't really have any words right now.
I just need to get this out.
I'll probly light up a smoke later, but I don't generally smoke mid-day.