u/Little-Confusion-728

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I was unfortunately kicked out of university due to non payment and because of my government loans basically going like “yeah no we won’t pay anymore” and so after 4 years of struggling I finally managed to pay off my debt (mostly through government rebate payments going straight to the debt) and I applied for uni back in April and I got my reply, but I need a job I tried/am still looking in my area but i figured i should look for any remote jobs also. So if anyone knows of any legit places hiring I would be so grateful idk if it helps but I’m 23F.

I have no means to move out. I have no place, no job and no money but I just can’t live with her for a moment longer. I genuinely feel like I may off myself I started packing up my stuff I know for a fact I won’t need in 6 months and I literally maybe this is a stupid idea but I just can’t be here anymore

I know there is nothing wrong with sex work, it is genuine work, this post is not to shame sex workers. But I’m currently going through a rough time and I decided to take a stab at it. And so I guess I was being naive about it and I sent the pictures before getting paid and shocker I never did get paid, some people did, it was a low amount but honestly Im desperate enough for $1. I don’t do it anymore only because I feel ashamed of how stupid I was for not being “tough?” enough with making sure I got paid. But yeah I just wanted to vent this out. It’s currently 5:30am for me I hope you guys have a great morning if it is morning.

The job market is so bad that I got denied to be a volunteer at 3 different places because they have too many people, like ???????. I want to fix up my life so much but I just need a job even if it’s 5 hours a week I will gladly take it. At least in 3-5 months it’ll snow in Canada and I can shovel peoples snow 🤷‍♀️

I don’t self harming anymore! I found that cutting your hair in small sections help! I accidentally went overboard and I have a small bald patch but my hair grows fast!

I graduated high school in 2020, it’s been YEARS. And I stuck with the same friend group ever since early 2010s in elementary school till now. But throughout elementary school I was awkward and weird and I didn’t smell bad but my mom never taught me basic hygiene so imagine a 12 year old in a skirt with hairy legs while everyone else knew how to shave. And I always liked fantasy and cartoons and I had a weird hyper fixation on ancient Egypt so I read that a lot. And it didn’t help that I grew up poor and so when it came to stuff like scholastic book fairs I could never participate, even school trips my teachers used to pay on my half and I didn’t have the funds to participate in the other stuff, for example if we went to a bowling arena, i was only available to bowl and couldn’t afford the arcade. And in high school with everyone having socials and everything, the people I was with actively used a group chat in front of me and made plans to go to homecoming and decorate sweatshirts and do their makeup, I was never included and worst part I didn’t know how to do makeup and I still don’t. And that honestly messed me up because these are the only people I have ever known, and idk if it was pity or it was me not getting the hint but those scars are still fresh. And literally today, I’m in Ontario and a small group of them went to Niagara Falls and i was never told, i literally saw the insta story of them all. Like im 23 this shouldn’t bother me anymore, it really shouldn’t. Idk why I’m crying over it. I guess that’s what happens when you’re the poor, weird friend. Sorry for my rant, I realize this doesn’t seem like anything, but if you’ve been excluded repeatedly then you know what I mean, and I swear I’m not a weird person, I feel like I have very good social awareness. But again sorry for my rant.

Idk why I do, but I feel happy! I’m not sure how long this is going to last but I feel genuinely fine! I’m riding this high for as long as I can! 😋☺️😊
Which is strange because I have literally zero reason to be happy lol my life is TERRIBLE! But I am! (For the time being hahahaha)

I feel like I never will be.

As a person who borrowed more than once and who definitely needs help again, I feel a sense of “shame?” When it comes to asking, especially when it’s such a low amount like $10, I find myself feeling inferior or embarrassed that as a 23 year old I don’t even have $10 to my name. It just feels really disheartening for myself to see a future for myself. Sorry I do not mean to be all “woe is me” but idk. Do any one you feel embarrassed about asking?

I don’t even know if it’s some weird system that’s rigged or some divine intervention that’s causing this, but everytime I try to improve my life even just a smidge, a problem comes along and punches me right in the face, employment and social development Canada, you are not my favourite person at the moment. It’s so annoying that some people just start life on hard mode, like I really only learned (and am still learning) financial literacy like less than 2 years ago. Growing up with childish, narcissistic, borderline stupid parents (thank god my dad is dead, I’m sorry if that’s the case but I’m glad he’s dead he was a major alcoholic) is honestly not for the weak. Some people wish for millions and millions of dollars, my wish would be just like $5000 and a job to fix my life. And then fucking interest rates suck, which like yeah I get the point of but it’s like omg my gosh please just give me a fucking chance. Sorry for my rant. I realize I’m posting quite a bit on here, I’m sorry for my constant posts, i just truly have no one to talk to and so I come here because I feel like you guys understand and I feel less alone.

I need a job, I want a job, I’m sick and tired of not having a job, all I want is a job. I feel like I can productively contribute to society. Whatever god/deity exists, please give me a job. That’s all I need is a job. Please give me a job. I’m tired of seeing $2 in my bank account. Give me a job. I can fake a customer service mile very well, and 7/10 I truly enjoy the customer interaction. Please before September I wish for a job.

IGNORE THIS POST. I’m hoping for assistance for my phone bill with Chatr, it’s $37.83 and I would greatly appreciate if anyone would be willing to help. I would do repayment on July 10th as I would be selling my books to have the get the money to pay you back. I really need the phone to keep up with potential job interviews. But please don’t be wary about repayment. I have a ton of books I got over the years that I am willing to sell to repay you. I am in Canada so I can only do PayPal or e-transfer. Thank you for reading.

First off I’m not sure what the meta tag means lol I just needed to tag the post. And secondly I wanted to say thank you for you guys. I’m currently going to the worst period in my life and this subreddit is truly my saving grace. Hopefully one day I give a loan instead of asking for one haha. The kindness and generosity that you guys give is inspiring. Thank you all so much. You are all so appreciated.

This subreddit has helped me while I’m currently going through the worst times in my life. Every single one of you that has helped many people like myself. Thank you so much, your kindness and generosity is inspiring and I hope one day I can be financially stable to help others as well. For again thank you all so much.

Pointless

Life is pointless.
Nothing matters.
I don’t matter.
Life sucks.
Everything sucks.

That’s it.

I was looking for where to get free menstrual products where I live (🇨🇦), since my period came unexpectedly (even though it’s been less than a month but that’s a different story), and my entire net worth comes out to $2.13. I did my due diligence and called the places to a see what they have and to see if I could walk there but that they have tampons(put it in one time, not exactly a professional at it) or they have the small standard pads. The fact that they have free products is amazing and wonderful but it’s just unfortunate in my situation since I need to use the largest overnight pads, since I bleed through the standard ones incredibly fast.

Sorry I don’t really have anything to add, other than the title, it’s kind of hard to really explain how I’m feeling but I guess the best way is the feeling of “not being enough” or that of inferiority due to low income. I know life has a different journey for everyone and anyone can “strike gold” whenever. But some days the almost nihilistic feeling of “why bother, this is the best I can do” is very strong. Sorry if this is a jumbled word garbage mess

Hi im 23F I’m just looking for $18.13 for food, please I’m so desperate, that’s all I’m looking for and I can show proof that I used it responsibly. Please if anyone is willing I’d be so so so grateful