u/Meditative-

I mean do they actually know how the human psychology works and they hook you on purpose, or they just do it instinctively?

I assume both. Im curious to hear your opinions on this.

I met some protestant guys that seem like they follow a script in their conversations with me.

Basically today i asked the leader a question and he just ignored it and instead gave me a bible passage with the eternal fire to hook me by fear.

This move makes me think its something conscious in his strategy

Am stat sa imi calculez onest nevoile pt prima data in viata.

Au iesit undeva la 4500 lei - minim, sa imi pot acoperi nevoile de baza avand in vedere ca locuiesc singur.

La viitorul job, o sa cer un salar intre 5000 lei si 6000 de lei.

Orice sub 4500 ma face sa imi sacrific din nevoi.

Orice peste suma asta, imi da un confort mental ca stiu ca e ceva in plus acolo si il pot folosi.

Intrebarea mea e:

-Cati oameni fac calculul asta onest inainte sa ceara un salar?

Si vad ca mai vin niste intrebari:

- Cati porniti cu ideea ca oricum nu va da ce aveti nevoie si cereti un salar mai mic? Si din categoria asta de oameni, cati sunteti nemultumiti aboi de angajator si de sistem?

Eu banuiesc ca foarte multi, pentru ca am vazut asta si la mine in familie si in societate. Dar vreau sa va aud si pe voi ce simtiti in legatura cu asta.

Apoi, cati dintre voi aveti o pasiune creativa, adica va doriti sa creeati ceva pe langa job, nu doar sa supravietuiti?

Traind mult in partea de jos a piramidei lui Maslow, am realizat ca tine doar de mine sa fac ceva pt ca nevoile mele reale sa fie satisfacute. Abia cand baza piramidei e asigurata, ma pot uita spre varf, care este nevoia de auto-actualizare (prin arta sau creatie se realizeaza in general, dar pot fi mai multe activitat

i, un bussiness etc)

Iar intrebare pt angajatori:

- Cati vin si va cer un salar mic, ca mai apoi sa se planga si sa saboteze munca, dand vina pe voi ca ii sclaviti? Mi se pare ca e o mentalitate raspandita asta.

My right hand can help you, while my left one is counting the money.

What, you thought I'm volunteering?

Now let me present myself.

I am very passionate about developing an atmospheric platformer that will touch the player's heart in an unique outstanding way.

I have a lot of programming experience and i preffer working woth godot, because the syntax is simmilar to python, and I know python.

I am making everything, from artwork to music and game programming.

In order for me to finish this project, I need a funding source to safeguard my basic needs.

The offer is this - you help me safeguard my basic needs and I will help you with your game. In my free time, I am working on mine.

I am very serious and talented. If you have the ability to sustain me in my creative journey, there is no reason in this world I would not help you with yours.

My strongest point is coding. Thats where i can bring real value into your project.

Im still struggling myself with drawing and animating and music, but I'm a quick learner. I need to do these things to get my game out.

Last year, I had a game prototype I made with my ex-girlfriend but unfortunately she stole that laptop when we broke up and I cant share that with you. I would have loved that.

Now I started working alone, and need support on this journey.

I already started my new project and I need a funding source in my life to bring it to life.

Waiting for somebody serious that needs real help with his projects code and is willing to give real financial help in return for me to be able to bring my dream to life.

When a philosophy says body is bad, i tend to rebuke it from the start.

I put all my needs on paper and calculated the costs.

The cost is way higher than what i tought i financially deserve. Inherited beliefs from family.

Basically, instead of adapting to these beliefs, I adapt the beliefs to the current reality.

I feel I am worthy of confort to be able to engage in the creative process and not stay stuck in survival.

I also know intuitively which actions to take now to manifest that into reality.

My job interview will be on 5th July.

I am truly confident things will work out in my favor, or none at all. Im not gonna accept any compromise.

So that death might not prevail over the person from that moment on.

This makes me think of baptism, but im new to gnosticism.

Whats this?

A big no to anything you dont want to have in your reality.

A big no, to everything that does not resonate with you.

You feel you dont want to interact with that person, that idea, that environment, that information.

And you feel your way through life, making choices from a place of authenticity.

A felt sense of freedom, freedom in body, mind and speech.

Freedom from everything that you feel is constricting you.

Freeeedom 🤗

I quote: Listen to your body, it has something to say. Ask him.

And I just realized why all this chronic muscular tension. Im actually shielding against religious programming.

I am on a bit of a shrooms come up and this is a very good feeling and realization.

So please, saviours, step back. You will just turn me into a turtle.

When you enter a religious group you give your consent for your identity to be changed.

Identity is tied to who you are in relationship to others.

In all forms of christianity I have witnessed, its basically: They offer you support, emotional, financial, they act like a family for you, only and only if you agree and adopt their beliefs.

My issue right now is the following:

When I was born, i had a clear direction in life and other people projected parts of themselves on me, thus creating my identity?

Or was I just a blank slate and they projected onto me, thus giving me a feeling of I and all actions derive frok this identity which I call myself, and I really dont have a free will, but my free will is confined into this box of all the encountered projections?

I literally feel myself slipping in a meditative state as I write this... its like i am seeing the lie behind what we call self

What tools stack would you use?

I am using godot because of its fast rendering and exporting system as well as minimal project loading times.

For art, I use Inkscape and Krita.

Inkscape is very undertalked about in terms of ehat graphics can deliver.

I am using synfig studio for bone animation, because godot skeletal animations are a bit rigid and its hard to work with.

I export as a png squence any aninations I make and i import them in godot.

For music, I use WaveForm because I'm on linux, and couldnt get FL studio to work.

And oh boy, its been so fun combining these tools.

What would be your tool stack for this project?

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What are your creepy stories?

So my mom is a narc and alcoholic. I am no contact with her, though I sometimes break this no contact just to be reminded why I choose it in the first place.

She transforms into something else when drunk and you can feel the evil vibe, sense an aura of terror in the house long enough before she starts acting out and behaving like a demon possesed person.

One day when she was acting rageful, i said to myself:

- Lets try to speak directly to the demon.

Oh boy, big mistake, never did that same mistake again.

She was with her back at me. I turned toward her and said:

- Show me your real face, so I can see how you look like in reality.

She suddenly turned towards me, her face changed, evil smile and her eyes were glowing in a very powerful and strange way. That shit looked unreal. I just have no words.

The second she fixated her eyes on me, i felt a huge coldness in my heart area, like somebody put my heart in a freezer, or was pointing the AC at my chest.

I left the house then and there 😂

I think most of you are just trying to dress the truth in nice words:

Spiteful, the fighter inside, he/she gets angry at anything and all the other words people use for describing an alcoholic when he is taken over by spirits.

Like, even the name of that drink is spirit. 😂

And there are countless of buddhist/hindu/oriental religious manuscripts that talk about this aspect of consuming alcohol.

For everyone reading this, please get out of there. Dont make a plan, just go and figure it out on the way.

If the person near you starts behaving like a criminal from a bad movie, as another person has put it, please leave now. There are dark forces at play with alcoholics.

I was reading Bhagavad Gita.

Suddenly things started to make sense and i felt tremendous heat and relaxation in my chest.

Felt a direct line with God.

I was staying inside that and heard a voice saying:

- And what if Ill make you very strong?

I didnt even want to focus on that, because that feeling of union was all I needed.

Then I fell asleep.

And i am freaking dreaming about the hidden story of my Uncle's suicide.

The whole toxic dynamic running in my bloodline was represented in that dream.

I was so angry at a character, I dont know and dont recognize, but i think its my grandpa.

In the dream, this guy had a resource all my family needed and he was keeping it away from them, in order to play a sick controlling game.

Every time they felt closer to that resource, he would put it farther away and demand more from them.

I get a phone call in my dream, and when I answer the phone, an evil voice is saying:

- Just try and push the old man away and you'll be seeing your terrible fate unravel.

I firmly stood my position, as I intuitively knew that he is pissed Im not playing his zero sum game. I felt that he wanted me to buy into it and play, so he could control me.

After this, i hang up. And i look into my phone to see the conversation with this guy. Only that I find my phone out of my control and inside the conversation with this dude, its sending all the trauma and lineage healing material ive been studying.

Wtf.

Trigger warning, here comes the hard part.

I told you about ive seen the last moments before my uncle killed himself.

It goes like this. He is a teen, he is holding his face in his hands looking down and with him in his room is a powerful male figure. That could be the old guy calling me. My grandpa.

He says in a harsh tone to my grandma:

-Go out of this room and play.

As im asking myself, why would he tell this to my grandma, she clearly isnt playing outside anymore, i see my grandma turn into my mother, and he repeats the order:

- Go out of this room and play.

It felt evil man.

When i woke up, I was crying in rage because i was literally feeling he is taking my life away, I cant live because of that resource being taken from me. Desperation.

Now, that feeling is clearly not from present, it does not have anything to do with my current situation, yet here we are bro.

What was this all about?

Did I just see the family secret inside a dream? I heard these things dont just fade.

I really need an explanation guys and girls, help a brother out.

I'm trying to find a job. Im in a situation where a good friend of mine pays my rent and i havent yet found my place in life due to childhood abuse.

Im actually discovering who i am, while he offers me a place to stay.

I wanna start trying new jobs, to see how I fit, but i need credit for that. Its like 5 euros.

Omg, this question is so funny.

Like... did you have in your life this rare pokemon with this unique talent? 😄

Ok, hear me out. I wanna know if somebody else went through this.

So, my mom... fakes phone calls and conversations and lies about basically everything.

But here is the catch. She fakes them to instill fear in others, to destabilize them.

One day she was yelling that people from the gas company are in front of the door. Because i use too much gas, she said.

Like wtf man, this is so stupid.

The other time, happened during a longer visit recently, i mean today.

She was faking a phone call to someone I know, telling him that somebody stole her beer, and clearly I was the only one in the house and i dont drink.

After i left she faked a 911 call to the police, I could her her through the door saying: His name is blablabla and the address is blablabla.

Like how stupid things can get?

So, did you have this pokemon in your childhood that terrorized you in this way?

Cuz i never read a story detaiing exactly this.

The sad part is this pokemon also takes tremendous pleasure in hurting others, so that sucked while I was a kid.

But now I have mostly healed and i have gratitude. But still annoys me when i have flashbacks with her saying mean things.

Mothers should be nurturing and protective. Sadly, i got this pokemon who was sexually abused by her father and she just cant stand males, even if this specific pokemon is not aware of how and why.

Its just mean. And you can feel the danger just by being in the proximity of this pokemon

I had a very tense upper back and neck. Im working with energy in that area and i feel like throwing up every time.

First time it happened was because of a person making eye contact with me.

She is an invasive grandmother and is smothering her nephew, im not gonna go into details.

When she made eye contact with me, i felt nauseous instantly. Then she entered my energetic space.

While she was there i closed my eyes and focused on her while repeating:

-Leave now. Leave now. For 2 minutes straight, after which she suddenly left.

When i got home i was salivating excesively and had the image of her in my mind. I almost puked. I was having the reflexes, but nothing would come out.

Second time this happened was today, i was doing my energy work and suddenly felt the need to work with my shoulders and expel tension from there.

I started having this sensation again. Im still spitting as im writing.

After a while I intuitively started to pull my stomach in and with the breath i was raising the energy from that center to my shoulders.

After that i got really dizzy and stopped.

Now, guys, does anyone know what this is and what im going through?

I need some advice because i dont have a clue whats happening.

Some kind of healer told me i have suppresed emotions stuck in the upper back and neck area and I also had an overbearing smothering mother, so i guess im kinda purging all that got stuck there.

Still, i need some reasurance.

And more important, how do i work with the dizziness after breathwork, it gets almost as intense as booze, without the side effects. Thank you.

I started doing the visualizations there and Im curius if you guys have practiced this path and how things changed for you?

Its called Way of Energy. And there are visualizations techniques for breathwork.

Drawing energy from heavens, releasing into the earth, and many others.

So, before i feel like orgasming, i just concentrate and take back the energy and i strain my perineum muscles.

This has the effect of taking that energy back into the body instead of releasing it.

Now what the heck am i doing? 🤣

This feels like you can enjoy sex with your partner without feeling drained or tired, its like a hack.

And the bonus is, you are still into them after sex.