I have to take a class this semester which is always taught by a different professor and is on a topic of their choosing. This year’s topic is a really big trigger for my OCD. There’s no way I can get out of it, if I don’t take it this semester I won’t graduate. I am so anxious going into it, and I would really appreciate advice or support anyone can offer
I had my PSG last night and MSLT today. I was not able to stop my Effexor which my neurologist agreed with, so I‘m sure the results will most likely come back negative. When I was falling asleep last night I heard loud noises and also felt my body vibrating, and that happened during at least one of my naps. I kept feeling like I was about to drift off when I would hear loud bangs or someone loudly speaking gibberish and that would jolt me awake. I also think I kept feeling my body stiffening up, but not sure if I imagined that or not lol. Will that show up as REM intrusions on my results? I’m just really hoping this whole day wasn’t for nothing.
I am not sure if anyone can relate to this, but sometimes my PDA will focus on something I have already done, this is usually a demand that I didn't have a problem with at the time. I will say and think things like I can't believe I did that, or I hate myself for doing that, and I have even hurt myself in the past as a way to punish myself. I was wondering if anyone here could share the ways they deal with this kind of thing. I am really trying to work on my PDA because of how detrimental it is to my mental health, and I wish there were more professionals who knew about it and could help.
At the end of last year I did an IOP and have been seeing one of the therapists that ran it since then. I love her. She is going on vacation for the next couple weeks. She told me today that her supervisor/the person in charge of the IOP wanted to see me while she was away. It wasn't really presented as a choice, so now I have an appointment set with her. My therapist said not to panic, but I'm panicking. Just to clarify I do know this person and I worked with her closely during IOP. She is very good at her job and definitely knows what she's doing, but she kind of intimidates me, and she is not someone I would choose to be my personal therapist.
She said the supervisor just wants to check in with me and talk to me about how my treatment is going and what we can do moving forward to make it better. I'm worried she's going to take me away from my therapist, or tell me my therapist isn't doing a good enough job and I need to see someone else. My therapist reassured me that that won't happen but I'm still scared. I have a history of therapy ending abruptly so it is always in the back of my mind that I'll get abandoned again. I also tend to panic when I feel backed into situations that I didn't have a choice in. My appointment with the supervisor isn't for another two Mondays, so I have until then for my thoughts and worries to spiral out of control.
Is this normal for a supervisor to want to see me like this? Will I get in trouble if I cancel the appointment?
At the end of last year I did an IOP and have been seeing one of the therapists that ran it since then. I love her. She is going on vacation for the next couple weeks. She told me today that her supervisor/the person in charge of the IOP wanted to see me while she was away. It wasn't really presented as a choice, so now I have an appointment set with her. My therapist said not to panic, but I'm panicking. Just to clarify I do know this person and I worked with her closely during IOP. She is very good at her job and definitely knows what she's doing, but she kind of intimidates me, and she is not someone I would choose to be my personal therapist.
She said the supervisor just wants to check in with me and talk to me about how my treatment is going and what we can do moving forward to make it better. I'm worried she's going to take me away from my therapist, or tell me my therapist isn't doing a good enough job and I need to see someone else. My therapist reassured me that that won't happen but I'm still scared. I have a history of therapy ending abruptly so it is always in the back of my mind that I'll get abandoned again. I also tend to panic when I feel backed into situations that I didn't have a choice in. My appointment with the supervisor isn't for another two Mondays, so I have until then for my thoughts and worries to spiral out of control.
Is this normal for a supervisor to want to see me like this? Will I get in trouble if I cancel the appointment?
At the end of last year I did an IOP and have been seeing one of the therapists that ran it since then. I love her. She is going on vacation for the next couple weeks. She told me today that her supervisor/the person in charge of the IOP that I did wanted to see me while she was away. It wasn't really presented as a choice, so now I have an appointment set with her. My therapist said not to panic, but I'm panicking. Just to clarify I do know this person and I worked with her closely during IOP. She is very good at her job and definitely knows what she's doing, but she kind of intimidates me, and she is not someone I would choose to be my personal therapist.
She said the supervisor just wants to check in with me and talk to me about how my treatment is going and what we can do moving forward to make it better. I'm worried she's going to take me away from my therapist, or tell me my therapist isn't doing a good enough job and I need to see someone else. My therapist reassured me that that won't happen but I'm still scared. I have a history of therapy ending abruptly so it is always in the back of my mind that I'll get abandoned again. I also tend to panic when I feel backed into situations that I didn't have a choice in. My appointment with the supervisor isn't for another two Mondays, so I have until then for my thoughts and worries to spiral out of control.
Maybe I'll cancel it but I'm worried I'll get in trouble.
Does anyone else sit up when sleeping? I sit up and then wake up and then go back to sleep sitting up. Sometimes I have sleep paralysis as I’m waking up and it’s really uncomfortable because my mind will be fighting to lay back down but I’m stuck in the sitting position. Like yesterday I was taking a nap and I sat up and saw something on my floor and thought I should go get it, but I couldn’t move, but then when I woke up there was nothing there so it must have been a hallucination.
It’s leading to really restless and sleepless nights, and I’m always exhausted when I wake up. Any advice is welcome too
Does anyone else sit up constantly overnight? I sit up and then wake up and then go back to sleep sitting up. Sometimes I have sleep paralysis as I’m waking up and it’s really uncomfortable because my mind will be fighting to lay back down but I’m stuck in the sitting position. It’s leading to really restless and sleepless nights, and I’m always exhausted in the morning. Any advice is welcome too
Lately my mom has been yelling at me completely randomly at least daily. We’ll be having a normal conversation and all of a sudden she just loses it. I have no idea when it’s coming. She always comes in and apologizes later but it’s always with an excuse (I just lost my patience, I was tired, stuff like that), and then it just happens again later.
It really feels horrible and I can’t predict when she’s going to get angry so I can’t even avoid those situations. The only thing I can think of is to just stop talking to her altogether, which isn’t practical and also I don’t want to. I know her apologies are genuine and I love my mom but this is really difficult for me to live with.
This has been going on for the last few months. I want to play video games or watch movies/TV but I can’t because my OCD is telling me I have to wait for the right time. Earlier in the summer I was taking classes and studying abroad, so it was easier for my OCD to tell me I had to wait until all my schoolwork is done or I have to wait until I get home. Now I have nothing to do, so I would really like to do the things I want, but my OCD is still telling me I have to wait for the perfect time. It’s very frustrating. I don’t even know what I’m waiting for. Does anyone have advice?
I’ve been on Effexor for almost a year now and it helps my OCD, but only at doses where the side effects are intolerable. I’m thinking about talking with my doctor about switching to Pristiq. I’ve tried every SSRI and I react very badly to all of them.
Having a really hard time and seriously considering coming home early. Completing the class online would not be an option. What would happen to my credit and my scholarships - that kind of stuff?
I am studying abroad in Sweden right now (from the us) and I don’t know why I thought this would be a good idea. I have level 2 autism and I love the Nordic countries and my class is on Norse mythology which is a special interest of mine but I don’t know why I thought I could do this. I can’t. i can get around the city but it’s overwhelming. I don't have any kind of plan or itinerary and so I don’t know what to do with myself most of the time. I want to talk to my therapist but she doesn’t have time this week. I can’t make friends with anyone. No one wants anything to do with me. We all went to a restaurant next to the school and everyone else sat outside together while I sat inside by myself. no one invited me or even asked my name. I think a lot of people know each other already because they were all together for the first summer session. I’m lonely and I can’t do this by myself and I just really want to go home. Everyone is going out to clubs and concerts and other countries and I just want someone to explore the city with and go into shops and restaurants and stuff. I don’t even think other people are here because theyre interested in the class. I think they just came to travel. I am here completely on scholarships and aid, I can’t travel for fun. I hate this. I want to go home
I am studying abroad in Sweden right now (from the us) and I don’t know why I thought this would be a good idea. I love the Nordic countries and my class is on Norse mythology which is a special interest of mine but I don’t know why I thought I could do this. I can’t. i can get around the city but it’s overwhelming. I don't have any kind of plan or itinerary and so I don’t know what to do with myself most of the time. I want to talk to my therapist but she doesn’t have time this week. I can’t make friends with anyone. No one wants anything to do with me. We all went to a restaurant next to the school and everyone else sat outside together while I sat inside by myself. no one invited me or even asked my name. I think a lot of people know each other already. I’m lonely and I can’t do this by myself and I just really want to go home. Everyone is going out to clubs and concerts and other countries and I just want someone to explore the city with and go into shops and restaurants and stuff. I don’t even think other people are here because theyre interested in the class. I think they just came to travel. I am here completely on scholarships and aid, I can’t travel for fun. I hate this. I want to go home
I have a compulsion to masturbate and tonight I was doing it so hard and so fast that I hurt myself. I can’t tell anyone and how am I supposed to go to a doctor about this. I don’t even know if I need a doctor. I’m so mad at myself
Having an OCD crisis all day today. My brain is completely foggy and I can’t focus on literally anything. All I can do is stare at the wall and ruminate. In my head I just hear “I want to die“ over and over again. But I can’t go to the hospital or call a crisis line because they won’t understand that it’s an intrusive thought.
Does anyone else feel really overwhelmed by sexual thoughts? They scare and confuse me. Ever since I was little I was disturbed by the concept of sex and now that I’m older (21) and people are actually doing it, it’s really quite scary to me. The worst part is I’m not asexual, I do have a sex drive of some sort, but I wish I didn’t. The thoughts I have are really confusing and I just don’t understand why I’m like this. I was just wondering if anyone could relate
Does anyone else feel really overwhelmed by sexual thoughts? They scare and confuse me. Ever since I was little I was disturbed by the concept of sex and now that I’m older (21) and people are actually doing it, it’s really quite scary to me. The worst part is I’m not asexual, I do have a sex drive of some sort, but I wish I didn’t. The thoughts I have are really confusing and I just don’t understand why I’m like this. I was just wondering if anyone could relate
I’ve been taking 25mg of trazodone for a really long time. I feel like crap in the morning and I don’t sleep well at all. I have hallucinations that wake me up and I often wake up shaking with my heart pounding and sitting up.
I feel much more refreshed after taking a nap than when I wake up in the morning, and it occurred to me that I don’t take trazodone before naps. Is it possible that trazodone causes my nighttime sleep to be really poor?
I’ve been seeing my therapist for a while now and my OCD has me really worried I’m attracted to her and going to behave inappropriately and ruin the relationship. I do think she’s really pretty and she isn’t too much older than me (I’m 21), but I always understood she’s my therapist and that’s the relationship. I‘ve had fantasies about her but not ME with her if that makes sense. I never felt like I wanted to date her or anything like that, if anything she feels like a big sister to me. But today I couldn‘t look at her because every time I did I got a groinal response and it scared me so much. How should I bring this up if I even should at all? it feels like a terrible thing to talk to someone about. Also I want to make sure I avoid confessing because that’s one of my compulsions.