I’ve been on Effexor for almost a year now and it helps my OCD, but only at doses where the side effects are intolerable. I’m thinking about talking with my doctor about switching to Pristiq. I’ve tried every SSRI and I react very badly to all of them.
Having a really hard time and seriously considering coming home early. Completing the class online would not be an option. What would happen to my credit and my scholarships - that kind of stuff?
I am studying abroad in Sweden right now (from the us) and I don’t know why I thought this would be a good idea. I have level 2 autism and I love the Nordic countries and my class is on Norse mythology which is a special interest of mine but I don’t know why I thought I could do this. I can’t. i can get around the city but it’s overwhelming. I don't have any kind of plan or itinerary and so I don’t know what to do with myself most of the time. I want to talk to my therapist but she doesn’t have time this week. I can’t make friends with anyone. No one wants anything to do with me. We all went to a restaurant next to the school and everyone else sat outside together while I sat inside by myself. no one invited me or even asked my name. I think a lot of people know each other already because they were all together for the first summer session. I’m lonely and I can’t do this by myself and I just really want to go home. Everyone is going out to clubs and concerts and other countries and I just want someone to explore the city with and go into shops and restaurants and stuff. I don’t even think other people are here because theyre interested in the class. I think they just came to travel. I am here completely on scholarships and aid, I can’t travel for fun. I hate this. I want to go home
I am studying abroad in Sweden right now (from the us) and I don’t know why I thought this would be a good idea. I love the Nordic countries and my class is on Norse mythology which is a special interest of mine but I don’t know why I thought I could do this. I can’t. i can get around the city but it’s overwhelming. I don't have any kind of plan or itinerary and so I don’t know what to do with myself most of the time. I want to talk to my therapist but she doesn’t have time this week. I can’t make friends with anyone. No one wants anything to do with me. We all went to a restaurant next to the school and everyone else sat outside together while I sat inside by myself. no one invited me or even asked my name. I think a lot of people know each other already. I’m lonely and I can’t do this by myself and I just really want to go home. Everyone is going out to clubs and concerts and other countries and I just want someone to explore the city with and go into shops and restaurants and stuff. I don’t even think other people are here because theyre interested in the class. I think they just came to travel. I am here completely on scholarships and aid, I can’t travel for fun. I hate this. I want to go home
I have a compulsion to masturbate and tonight I was doing it so hard and so fast that I hurt myself. I can’t tell anyone and how am I supposed to go to a doctor about this. I don’t even know if I need a doctor. I’m so mad at myself
Having an OCD crisis all day today. My brain is completely foggy and I can’t focus on literally anything. All I can do is stare at the wall and ruminate. In my head I just hear “I want to die“ over and over again. But I can’t go to the hospital or call a crisis line because they won’t understand that it’s an intrusive thought.
Does anyone else feel really overwhelmed by sexual thoughts? They scare and confuse me. Ever since I was little I was disturbed by the concept of sex and now that I’m older (21) and people are actually doing it, it’s really quite scary to me. The worst part is I’m not asexual, I do have a sex drive of some sort, but I wish I didn’t. The thoughts I have are really confusing and I just don’t understand why I’m like this. I was just wondering if anyone could relate
Does anyone else feel really overwhelmed by sexual thoughts? They scare and confuse me. Ever since I was little I was disturbed by the concept of sex and now that I’m older (21) and people are actually doing it, it’s really quite scary to me. The worst part is I’m not asexual, I do have a sex drive of some sort, but I wish I didn’t. The thoughts I have are really confusing and I just don’t understand why I’m like this. I was just wondering if anyone could relate
I’ve been taking 25mg of trazodone for a really long time. I feel like crap in the morning and I don’t sleep well at all. I have hallucinations that wake me up and I often wake up shaking with my heart pounding and sitting up.
I feel much more refreshed after taking a nap than when I wake up in the morning, and it occurred to me that I don’t take trazodone before naps. Is it possible that trazodone causes my nighttime sleep to be really poor?
I’ve been seeing my therapist for a while now and my OCD has me really worried I’m attracted to her and going to behave inappropriately and ruin the relationship. I do think she’s really pretty and she isn’t too much older than me (I’m 21), but I always understood she’s my therapist and that’s the relationship. I‘ve had fantasies about her but not ME with her if that makes sense. I never felt like I wanted to date her or anything like that, if anything she feels like a big sister to me. But today I couldn‘t look at her because every time I did I got a groinal response and it scared me so much. How should I bring this up if I even should at all? it feels like a terrible thing to talk to someone about. Also I want to make sure I avoid confessing because that’s one of my compulsions.
I saw a psychologist for maybe 6 months last year who was very abusive. She called me names, yelled at me, and generally was just very mean to me. Unfortunately, I do not have written proof of this so it would be her word against mine. I do have my father as a witness to her abuse, but like I said, nothing in writing.
However, she was a DBT therapist and trying very hard to use DBT on me to “get me to a regulated place” where I could treat my extremely severe OCD (i had a 35 out of 40 on the YBOCS test). DBT is known to be an unhelpful and potentially harmful modality for OCD, and I do believe it made it worse. I had to enter an intensive outpatient program, which cost thousands of dollars and I had to leave school for the semester to participate.
My OCD did get better luckily, but I can’t stop stewing over this therapist and how badly she treated me and wondering what would have happened if I had gotten the proper treatment earlier. I would be very interested in reporting her if possible.
I really like my therapist and have been seeing for many months multiple times a week. The thing is that she told me I can text her if I need her or need help with my OCD and every time I mention that on here people say it's bad or unethical. I don't really text her ever but she always reminds me that I can even if it's just to remind us of something i want to talk about. I like it, it makes me feel supported even when I'm not in my sessions. But is this crossing boundaries? Is this unethical? Do I need someone new? I've had bad therapists before and I don't want to fall down the rabbit hole of being hurt by another one.
I have a mast cell disorder which I don't think my DBT therapist even believed. It's triggered by bodily stress, so my doctor advised I stay away from anything that could send my body into a shock - so things like hard exercise, or sudden temperature changes. My DBT therapist always told me to use the TIPP skills. The first time I told her what my doctor said to avoid she just said, "mmmmm." I truly believe she thought I was making it up just to avoid DBT skills. She continued to tell me to use TIPP, and I kept telling her what my doctor had said, leading to her always looking at me disapprovingly. Eventually she got so angry at me and said, "You can't just keep living your life in fear!"
Well, I'm not living my life in fear, but I would like to live my life avoiding known anaphylaxis triggers.
It was that day I learned that DBT was more important than my physical well-being and safety, and that my therapist would have rather seen me need to go to the hospital and get Epi-Pens then not use her DBT "skills."
I've been working on intensive OCD therapy with my therapist for a while now. We did IOP 5 months ago together and have been seeing each other 2-3x a week since. I feel like I can't be honest sometimes, and it's getting harder. I try my best to divert the topics of our sessions. When my OCD does come up, I might understate it, or I might leave out some of the details. When she asks me if there's anything else I want to talk about, I say no, even if there is. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's not her, I love talking to her and she is the first therapist I've ever seen who gets me. It's some invisible blockade within myself.
She said to reach out to her any time my OCD is flaring up in between sessions, or I'm stuck on something, or if I need her. Or I can just send her my thoughts to remind her what to talk about, etc. And I just can't. I really need help tonight, but I just feel like I cannot reach out. I just feel like I'm so used to keeping my suffering inside and to myself, that it almost feels good at this point.
I was watching porn a week or so ago and saw someone who looked young. I watched it and I bookmarked it and then I looked again later and realized that maybe he isn’t an adult like I originally thought and maybe he was 17 or 16. I immediately unbookmarked it and reported it and now I’m so scared the FBI is going to show up and I’m going to prison for looking at child pornography. I feel like I already have no future and there’s no point in doing things like my schoolwork because my brain has already decided that I’m going to prison for the rest of my life.
We have had a pretty close relationship. She was my therapist for 6 weeks while I did IOP and then I've been seeing her three times a week for the past 5ish months. Going to step down to two soon probably. I have autism and OCD. I have seen so many therapists and no one ever got me like her. The funny thing is, I was always seeking out the most qualified and decorated professional I could with no help, but my therapist has only been out of grad school for a year, is not that much older than me, and yet she's made a change in my life like no one else. Because my relationship with her is so strong, it has actually empowered me to be more confident and outgoing socially. Now I know what it means when people say a therapeutic relationship is a model for a real one. I have never told her that.
Anyway lately I've been having thoughts, I guess intrusive thoughts, of her with her other clients and it makes me feel so sad. Or even kind of angry. I don't know, I just don't like the thought of someone else being vulnerable with her. I wish I could keep her to myself (even though I know that's not possible lol). I'm gonna talk to her about it eventually. I just needed to vent.
Today I had a really bad episode of waking up shaking. I wasn’t really awake because I was still hearing and seeing my dream, but I was also awake, and really confused if that makes sense. I was also trembling horribly, mainly in my neck, hands, and shoulders, and my teeth were chattering. Does anyone else have this? And is there any way to make it better?
I’m 21m. I have a lot of trouble with sexual stuff. I don’t really like to hear about it or talk about it, and I feel guilty when I think about it. A lot of things confuse me too. Part of it is my OCD and I think the rest of it is just how I am. My therapist knows, and I’ve been able to talk to her more than any other therapist about this kind of stuff. I think it’s because she’s very young, so it feels more like talking to an older sister rather than an authority figure. But there’s been some stuff on my mind that has been making me really anxious the past couple days and I kind of want to bring it up to get it out of my head, but it feels really scary to do that. Usually she is the one that initiates those conversations. Does anyone have advice for bringing it up?
I’m 21m. I have a lot of trouble with sexual stuff. I don’t really like to hear about it or talk about it, and I feel guilty when I think about it. A lot of things confuse me too. My therapist knows, and I’ve been able to talk to her more than any other therapist about this kind of stuff. I think it’s because she’s very young, so it feels more like talking to an older sister rather than an authority figure. But there’s been some stuff on my mind that has been making me really anxious the past couple days and I kind of want to bring it up to get it out of my head, but it feels really scary to do that. Usually she is the one that initiates those conversations. Does anyone have advice for bringing it up?
I haven’t vacuumed my apartment in a couple weeks. I have pretty bad dust allergies and I am suffering because of it. Can anyone suggest something that could help motivate me to vacuum? For some reason the detrimental effect on my health isn’t a good enough reason to my brain.