It was in the north sky, slowly moving north. It had a faint glow around it. It was not like a star with a crisp clear light, but like a star behind high atmosphere clouds. All the other stars in the sky were clear. It moved like a satellite in the sky, I swear I saw pieces braking off behind it, then it disappeared. Never saw anything like it. No I am not on dr*gs.
I've found purpose in certain "things" throughout my life, but at 39, I still don't know what my purpose is and I don't think I ever will. The person I was supposed to marry left me last November. After our 3rd year together we had to go long distance due to her getting into a very good medical program and me getting an offer with a company as an engineer. I had to stay in the city we met in with the intention of moving where she went in the future. Unfortunately, the distance took it's toll year 4. We were so happy together when we lived together, it gave me purpose to provide and care for someone. We had our ups and downs like every relationship and I fought saw hard to change the problems I've caused in the past and she saw that. She was the only person I've dated that I could see myself marrying, having kids with while also getting old together. It's a very hollow and horrible feeling. My soul feels like it's constantly being tortured all the way back to childhood.
"Adopted adults and relationships issues are unavoidable, some people say. Adoptees can’t properly bond with anyone in their life due to the trauma they experienced at the hands of their birth mother when placed for adoption." - americanadoptions.com
Why tf would they say this.
Just heard the announcement from the park across the street. Any idea?
Has anyone in this community ever obtained their OBC from Pennsylvania? I'd like to start the journey of figuring out who my BP's are. I have horrible adhd, an addictive personality, and pretty much an alcoholic and would like to know if they were drug addicts or alcoholics. The only thing my AP mom knows about my BP mom is she was young.
Did anyone just see that? Northwest to Southeast. Big bright yellow/orange! I'm at Hyland Hills area.
Power is out over at IMT Hyland Hills
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39M title says it all.
Where can one find boardwalk style fries around Westminster or north of Denver?
But wtf is this? It was in his grandfather's toolbox. Is this a victorian era dildo/buttplug?
This woman and her husband use them being AP's for engagement. While they do seem like lovely people, this isn't right. Another example of the savior complex. I ask all of the adoptees who see this post spam their posts on IG.
https://www.instagram.com/p/DaD6AfbD8E1/?igsh=ZjY0czk0NHVhcjE0
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39M. Adopted at 3 days old.
Closed adoption.
I've struggled with an addictive personality my entire life which includes but not limited to porn, sex, drugs, impulsive spending, and mainly alcohol.
At 39 I still struggle. I am currently drinking as I write this.
But as a child, I was "gifted." In elementary school I got all A's and finished most tasks way ahead of the class. But I was a problem child. So my school counselor suggested I take an IQ test. Scored 149 at 10 years old.
My AP's rejoiced. "My son is a genius!" Pump the brakes AP's, these are not your genetics. Though I do love them for everything they've done for me.
Middle school and high school I struggled, it was more social and my parents never socialized me properly. Diagnosed with adhd and put in meds. Barely graduated.
Fast forward.
Chef, drugs, addies, blow, etc. Multiple "careers."
Check myself.
Fast forward again to 39 after lots of triumphs and downfalls.
Decide to take my health seriously. Got a PCP and a health panel done including cancer since I don't know my BP's. PCP is very confident that cancer is not in my bloodline. Great.
Anywho. Here I sit. Drunk. I love alcohol. Did I say I'm an alcoholic? But I wonder if my parents were addicts. I have no birth defects. But I should know.
We have the right to know who our parents are and what hereditary diseases we may face. Were they addicts? Was I rape case? Am I likely to get cancer? This is our right. Closed adoptions bar us from this right. It's bullshit.
How do we change this?
These people use adoption as platform. They may be great people, but we are not commodities. To all of my fellow adoptees, let them have it.
This pizza consisted of:
A sourdough crust
Basil vinaigrette (basil, white balsmic, garlic, olive oil, S&P)
Whipped lemon ricotta
Blistered cherry tomatoes (blistered in the pizza oven before)
Italian chicken sausage
Garnished with arugula tossed with lemon and olive oil
The server said it was one of the best thing's he's ever tasted. Mind you I made the vinaigrette and whipped lemon ricotta just for him. This was a one-off.
Canned ranch style beans with mustard and honey added for balance
Polish Kabanos sausage
Hot sauce
Over jasmine rice
39yo going thru a lot.
But I will prevail
(Would make a damn good camp meal)
I was hired as an Ops Chef for a restaurant to help streamline everything and get shit in order. A chef friend of the owner was in charge of the menu. But, one of my own personal dishes made the menu and became a staple and is still on the menu well after I left.
First pic is a review from a customer and the others are from R&D experimenting at home.
Kung Pao Mushroom Trio
Enoki, Shiitake, Oyster mushrooms
Blistered shishitos
Blistered green onions
Peanuts
House made Kung Pao sauce
Garnish: micro greens, sliced tri-color peppers, sesame seeds
Edit: Forgot to include aromatics: Minced garlic
I am ex-chef an have worked at corporate restaurants. (Say what you will about corporate "chefs" but I was a Dawg and it sustained a high cost of living). I do pride myself by creating amazing foods without recipes.
At one point in my career I was a Sous at TFK.
My favorite thing todo was creating custom items with the restaurants ingredients for anyone's meals.
This pizza consisted of:
A sourdough crust.
Basil vinaigrette (basil, white balsmic, garlic, olive oil, S&P)
Whipped lemon ricotta
Blistered cherry tomatoes (blistered in the pizza oven before)
Italian chicken sausage
Garnished with arugula tossed with lemon and olive oil
The only restaurant created item was the dough.
Yes I know corporate isn't real, but that's not the point. I liked the structure and job security.
The server said it was one of the best thing's he's ever tasted.
This game is insane.
From Marner scoring a natural hattie plus an assist for Vegas to Carolina scoring 3 in 39 seconds and eventually tying it up with 1:42 left.
Seeing ex-Flyers including Walker, Ghost, Hart, and Torts keeps it interesting. Edit: And Brind'Amour.
On the mountain of my family's cabin in PA.