i’m just finishing section 2 unit 1 and it was asking me stuff like how am i and throwing in words i wouldn’t know yet. it always mixes me up and i can’t always answer the questions. is it just basically telling you to go research it yourself?
i have really bad oral hygiene due to depression and i noticed today when looking at my teeth in the mirror that there’s a part of my gum thats a bit swollen and has overgrown, i poked at it and i noticed a hole in my tooth at the top of it where it connects to the gum. i’m so scared and i don’t know what to do and i’m really confused because i’ve been to so many orthondontist appointments recently and they haven’t said anything about it at all. i’ve noticed no pain in that area and it isn’t wobbly
could it be a baby tooth? i’m 17 but i don’t remember all my baby teeth falling out, especially the ones at the back
the first pic is the swollen gum and the second pic is the small hole
17f im on 32mg citalopram and 2mg aripiprazole daily
today i woke up with chest pain and heart palpitations and i thought it was because of anxiety but it hasnt gone away and there isn’t anything i’m overly anxious of. my heart rate is high (120bpm) and i feel sort of flushed. my blood pressure has been as high as 128/87 which is higher than normal for me (it usually sits at about 100/70). i’m shaking a bit and i have this tingly feeling in my hands and fingers and feet. i’ve taken 25mg of promethazine twice today and the first time it stopped the symptoms temporarily but the second time it just kind of reduced them temporarily. i’ve taken paracetamol for the pain but it hasn’t seem to have done anything. does anyone know what this could be? i’ve had serotonin syndrome before and it kind of feels like a mild version of that
ive had like a million different tiktok accounts and a million different emails over the years and ive been logged out of an account that has stuff on it from when i was 12 and i cant get back in because i forget which email i used. i remember the username and the password but not the email and it won’t let me sign in without verifying the email. the way it’s formatted is like [first letter]***[last letter]@gmail.com and i can’t remember what’s between. is there a way to bypass this or even just download the data from my account (tho its private)? or even any web tool i could use to scroll through a list of gmail accounts and try identify mine lol
first picture is bottom teeth second picture is top teeth. sorry for bad quality it was hard to get in-focus pictures
trying to log in to one of my old accounts. i remember the username but not what email i used (i have so many tiktok accounts and have made so many emails in my lifetime). it gives the first and last digit of the email but asterisks in the middle. i can’t work out what it was. i’m guessing there’s no way around this, but just wanted to check
i only got my laptop (asus vivobook go 14/15) at the end of 2024 but for some reason i can’t play most games - even ones with lower graphics - for over an hour or two because the laptop just dies. i don’t want to have to play games on charge all the time because i know it’s bad for the battery, so is there any way i can reduce how much battery is being used, or would it be better to look at getting a replacement?
i’ve seen a lot of debate about this. i type myself as enneagram 4 and i’m pretty mentally unhealthy. i often find myself relating to enneagram 2 traits but because of the uncertainty around (dis)integration i can’t tell if i’m disintegrating or if i could be wrong about being enneagram 4
17F i have a wound on my inner elbow. it’s basically right on the crease, where you’d get an IV inserted. i’ve been leaving it uncovered since i don’t have anything to bandage it with. it’s wide enough that i know it will leave a scar. i’m worried that because my arm is bent a lot of the time and because of the cut’s width and the fact that it’s right on the bend that it’s going to heal weirdly and stunt my arm’s movement somehow. like if i had my arm in a bend it might heal like that and leave my arm in that bent position. would something like this happen? and can i prevent it if it could? don’t be sarcastic plz
i’m really bad at keeping up with brushing my teeth because of depression, but recently ive been making an effort to try and do it twice a day. for the past week ive been able to do that almost every day and the bleeding i experience now is a lot less than i did the first few days, but there are still like two areas in my mouth that are always swollen, always sore when i go over them and always bleeding during brushing. is this something that’ll go away after continuous brushing or is it something that requires direct care, like a specific type of toothbrush or toothpaste. i’m not really sure on any of this, so i’d appreciate any advice
what would someone like this look like? i think i’m a sx4 but i lack some of the traits for one because of my social anxiety. like, i can be outwardly hostile to people but only when i’m in distress, otherwise i’ll be too anxious to say anything out loud, even if i’m fantasising about all these different scenarios where i tell whoever i’m feeling hostile towards what i really think in a tone that reflects how i really feel. in these cases i’ll just clam up and wait until i’m alone to shit talk about them out loud to myself until i calm down lol. and even IN distress i can never just say anything outright, i still have to work myself up to it
and i do have traits that define me from so4 or sp4 and sx4 definitely suits me the best. don’t tell me to read into the other two more please!!
a few days ago i used a blade after two other people did. it had been cleaned with just water. my cuts don’t look or feel infected but i just got these weird sharp pangs on the arm that i did it on. specifically in my wrist, around the area where you can see the vein. they lasted about a minute. i know it’s likely unrelated but should i be concerned?
i kind of half-assed this coz i couldn’t think of satisfying answers to a lot of these questions
i’m a 17 year old girl. i’m quite temperamental but i tend to internalise it a lot, so to others i probably seem more muted. one of my biggest drives is that i want to be unique and recognised for being unique. i want others to see me and pay attention to me and admire me and think to themselves they’ll never be as cool and original and fleshed-out as i am (and i know none of that is true, it’s what i wish could be true and what i strive for)
major depressive disorder
my family aren’t religious, so i never had to deal with that. my parents got divorced when i was 4 and i primarily lived with my mother until i was old enough to choose for myself. my mother was emotionally unstable and would scream at me one minute and give me affection the next. she never explained her outbursts so most of the time when she calmed down the whole thing would just be swept under the rug and we would never talk about it. my younger brother was born when i was almost 8 years old and my mother married my stepfather a year after his birth. it was around this time she finally managed to mature emotionally. i was very jealous and resentful towards my brother for a good four or five years because i didn’t know why she could fix herself for him while i had to get the harsh treatment. i started staying at my dad’s a lot more, but the back and forth was conflicting for me. my dad lived alone, so i was going from being the sole recipient of his attention to feeling like i had to fight for scraps with my mother. i hated that i had this ‘new family’ and that i was expected to get along with my stepdad and his parents and siblings. me and him never really formed a proper relationship. he had clear favouritism towards my brother, which is understandable since he’s his child and i’m not, but his behaviour towards me and the contrast didn’t give a nice feeling nonetheless. i used to make up lies involving him. i would tell my dad that he dropped me off 10 minutes from the house to make me walk in the rain. i can’t remember if i had a motive, but it was probably my way of ‘getting back’ at him and my mother, because as a 10 year old i felt like they were to blame for my sadness and anger
i don’t have a job. i’m completely uninterested in working. and it’s not necessary for me at this age
i actually used to have one. i worked in hospitality. i quit because they weren’t being accommodating and would never reply to any of my messages lol
it really depends. i get really bad FOMO so if i was missing out on something i’d probably be really antsy and mad. otherwise i’d probably feel no different than i usually do, since i spend most of my time alone
i like doing things that stimulate my brain. i don’t like sports and i don’t consider myself good at them. i’m not fit enough for them to be enjoyable and i get too self-conscious. i like swimming because i love the water but i haven’t gone in ages because i don’t want anyone to see me in a swimsuit
im likee pretty curious idk. i used to be more imaginative and have more ideas when i was younger but i find it hard to come up with much anymore tho that could be cause of my mental condition.
most of my ideas are conceptual though, like ideas for a nice outfit i’d wear if i had a nicer body or how certain hairstyles or makeup would look on me, and how others would react
probably not because realistically people are going to misbehave or disagree and that’ll piss me off too much. i wouldn’t be able to be mature or level-headed enough to fulfil that role
i wish i was more coordinated than i am. i can never quite execute my ideas because they just look wonky when i try to. i don’t mind working with my hands but i don’t actively seek those activities out. i like doing origami and stuff and baking
idk. i like to draw and write but i’m not very talented at them. i like to draw my favourite characters and i like to write about my favourite characters or about my thoughts. i’m not very poetic it’s just word vomit basically. i like any art that provokes emotion in me
i always think about what i could’ve done in the past to change the trajectory of my life. like, where i would be if i had just made this tiny different decision. what ifs
even in the present i obsess over the past. either that or i’m focused on doing whatever i want to do the most in that moment, without thinking of the future
i’m very uncertain about my future so idk
usually i don’t want to, but i would help most of the time because it’s the kind thing to do. if i feel like i owe someone something or if i want them to see me in a good light i’ll feel more motivated to
i don’t fully know what this means but i don’t think i NEED it
i like to get boring stuff done as quickly as i can so i suppose efficiency is pretty important to me. if it’s something i think needs thorough work i will spend an adequate amount of time on it though
i am VERY unproductive and i can’t really bring myself to care about getting stuff done unless i literally have to
kind of? i guess i’m always monitoring what i say to people so i can try to control how they react and avoid any interactions or unnecessary discord in our relationship. it’s not really a conscious thing but i know it happens. i can be a little controlling otherwise but i do it in pretty subtle ways so much so that even i don’t really realise that it’s controlling behaviour until i’m thinking about it in hindsight
i like playing plot-heavy/long video games, or visual novels. i like to read and in turn write, though i’m not very good and i get frustrated with it very easily so i never actually make anything i like. i like drawing too but it always results in the same outcome as writing. these all let me use my brain and think and apply knowledge and stuff which i like to do and they also emotionally impact me which i also like
umm i usually remember things best when doing active recall. so like i’ll watch a video on something and pause it after a certain amount of information and i’ll try remember everything that was covered then i’ll go back see what i forgot and repeat until i remember everything. it’s how i passed all my exams after months of lackluster studying
i probably struggle most with just having to listen to someone drone on and on. i work better with faster paced things. so i also don’t do great when it comes to reading information because i get distracted and bored easily
i like both but the subjects i like r bio chem psychology etc so stuff like that
i guess i’m okay at strategising but i rarely do it. i usually try to break stuff up but i procrastinate so much that i end up doing it all at once or very crammed together anyway. sometimes winging stuff ends up better cus i can overthink a lot
no professional aspirations i used to want to be an ER doctor because i like hospitals and i’d probably thrive in the busy environment but then i gave up on that after i dropped out of school
personal aspirations i want to be admired and sought-after and needed i also want to move out as soon as i turn 18 but that’s unrealistic since i don’t have a job
i’m really afraid that people might think of me as boring or ordinary or literally anything that makes me seem like i’m just a nobody, or like i’m not someone worth their time. i’m scared people think i have no personality, because i can be really socially anxious which stops me from being expressive and outspoken which is something i am when i’m on my own
discomfort for me is like an angry feeling of resentment or disgust. i get uncomfortable when people cross my boundaries which is something my mother does a lot. when people show affection towards me or when it’s expected for me to show affection towards others, when people behave like they have me all figured out, when people see me crying
i hate when people r hypocrites (even tho i’m one), when people have perceptions of me that aren’t correct, i hate that i’m so socially awkward and anxious and sometimes i hate that i can’t just be normal even though i’m so obsessed with being the opposite, i automatically hate anyone who has something that i want, i hate most of the people who’ve ever wronged me even if it was something pretty insignificant, i hate everyone who insists they’re trying to ‘help’ me coz it always just makes me feel worse, i hate people who think they know better than me, i hate everyone cuz they’re all so selfish and they pretend like they have me in their best interests when really it only benefits them
it’s simple but a solace for me is sitting either outside or by a window and just feeling the breeze on my face and listening to birds tweeting. it’s very calming which i almost usually never am
also when i’m under the influence or harming myself by taking medicines or other self-destructive behaviours
sometimes i have really bad episodes where i just can’t get out of bed. so i don’t eat or clean myself. and i can barely reply to anyone so they all start getting mad at me
when i’m under the influence and harmful behaviours are here too coz they make me feel happy and sad at the same time
um i daydream sometimes but mostly i’m not really daydreaming, i’m just listening to my own racing thoughts. when i’m not doing this i can be somewhat observant but my thoughts never really shut off
i have a lot of rapid and racing thoughts and when i’m alone i’ll talk out loud about it like i’m livestreaming or something. like asking questions to an invisible audience or addressing imaginary listeners. i’ll also have pretend conversations with myself. so i’d be pretty occupied just doing that
it takes me however long it takes me to process and weigh all the potential outcomes and stuff. depends. but i’ll usually change my mind over and over again afterwards, which is probably because of self-doubt more than anything
26. how long do you take to process your emotions? how important are emotions in your life?
it can take anywhere from hours to never. it’s so stupid. like if someone has made me angry or upset it depends entirely on how they behave after that. i’ve held the same grudges towards certain people since i was 12, but for others they can say something funny two hours after they made me almost lose my mind and it’ll basically be forgotten about (in the moment anyway because i tend to harbour built-up resentment towards people in my life)
in general tho i tend to get over things very quickly which is honestly something i find super annoying. it makes me feel so superficial, like was i ever really upset? was i just overreacting again? i could be screaming at people and crying and a few hours later i’m laughing at my phone like nothing happened. it does affect me in some way, though, cause my emotions builds up over time and i tend to have outbursts. i mostly internalise these
and i’m basically encompassed by my emotions
yes and i hate it so much. it mostly happens with people i’m not really close with but i’m trying to be accepted and liked by. i also do it with my mother sometimes to stop pointless arguments. i just recognise that i don’t agree with half of what i’m saying but i know that if i say what i think and these people disagree with me then they’re less likely to want to be around me
i wouldn’t say i go out of my way to break rules but i’m definitely not opposed to it. if someone in a place of authority tells me to do something i’m going to do everything in my power not to do it, or at least to do it impractically to be spiteful. i definitely think authority should be challenged. they know no more than the rest of us. it’s unfair that we get ordered around by these people. i do believe rules and authority are important to an extent to prevent things like crime but the systems are incredibly flawed and it’s so easy for them to be exploited. they usually are
need to get tickets 2 my friend in the next 12 days and im stressing. is this a bug or something?? it never usually takes this long
i’ve seen quite a few posts recently from people who are annoyed that the drawing feature encapsulates so much of the game, but in my opinion i don’t think it does. i agree that it can be frustrating to see people pulling off all these wild creations, but not being able to draw in this game doesn’t restrict you like, at all. the game prompts you to draw something ONCE as a part of the tutorial and your miis will occasionally ask for something created by you, but that’s about it. the studio palette has templates for everything if you want customisation, and if you want something a little different than what the game’s given you it doesn’t take an artist to change up the colour scheme or tweak a few details. again, i understand people’s frustrations but i’m confused on how people think that the game is centred around the drawing part, or how you have limitations if you aren’t utilising it (just what i’ve picked up from others’ opinions, & i don’t have sources because they’re things i read offhandedly over the past few days ;-;)
quick explanation for context & if any of my actions here sound childish its cause i am a child. also im from northern ireland not england so it mightn’t entirely be the same here but
was at the hospital a few weeks ago for an overdose on antidepressants. ive been told b4 by a nurse that since im over 16 they dont have to tell my parents if they believe im safe, so i told the doctors treating me how much i took but that it wasnt an attempt (because it wasnt), thinking they’d keep it to themselves. they didnt and when they said to me that they’d tell my parents, i threatened 2 harm myself. course, they still told them, and i was sent home a few days later after speaking with the crisis team. since then ive basically just stayed in my room 24/7 i haven’t showered brushed my teeth or my hair or changed clothes. i get out of bed to go to the toilet and that’s it. i wouldn’t eat if food wasn’t being brought to me. i refused any sort of treatment, so like my therapist from camhs and the crisis team want 2 come out to my house but ive kept saying no. cuz of all this some psychiatrist ive never met suggested prescribing me venlafaxine (cuz ive never been on snris b4 only ssris). she said i can be brought into the one ward we have here for some sort of assessment period, and theyll see how the medicine works for me. i think it’s like 2 weeks or something? it’s voluntary so like i have to say yeah. just wondering is it actually worth it. and how is this assessment period different than actual hospitalisation? can they decide afterwards to keep me longer (even if its against my will) and if so what will make them decide that?