u/Ok_Telephone_6466

Hey guyssss! If anyone wants to talk to me then I would appreciate it, no one ever really talks to me and I'm quite lonely and depressed at the moment. Life isn't too good overall but I want some friends to make me happier:)

I hate this stupid life, I just feel at this point like every day is the same, and no day ever gets better. When I was 13/14 and in Secondary School (I'm from the UK) I used to get bullied so much, when I look back on it, I realise just how constant it was. I also got SA'd by my partner at the time and whenever I would try to leave, they would always gaslight me, or find a way to drag me back. Luckily, they're well away now. But I have been traumatised by it, there's no way around that.

And so now, 5 years later, I have to live with this every day. This on top of the fact that I have nearly finished college so everyone is going 'you should learn to drive', 'you should get a job' LIKE PLEASE SHUT UP. I'm trying to work on MYSELF, not for some multi-billion pound corporation. I, am trans. Have I told my parents, yes. Is it making my life hell, yes. My dad accepts me, which is a silver lining. My mum does not, she says she loves me but just tells me to 'forget about it' and then I'll get 'better'. Thanks Mum. I'll just forget about who I am and live my life completely depressed and broken.

Due to all of this, I have extremely bad body dysmorphia and self esteem issues. And so, I find it really hard to go outside, or even just live with myself. Seeing the absolute hellhole of a place I live cracking down even more on the rights of trans people instead of actually dealing with REAL problems is making everything even worse. Seeing that these hateful bastards are the ones winning elections just kills me.

Life was great, for the first 12 years of my life, I'd say. And then it's just fallen apart right in my hands. I got bullied and abused, my Grandma (who was the only person who I could speak to and not feel ashamed) passed away and now I am having to come to terms with being something which is seen by half of my family and the government of MANY countries including MY OWN, as a threat to society.

Maybe I need people to talk to, heck I only have like 2 friends, I made plans to go out with them this weekend but I just really want to sleep my life away at this point. I just am struggling so much with finding reasons to go on. I love music, I love video games and that's all I love, because I don't even love myself anymore.

Rant over, have a good day everyone :)

I'm gonna start by saying that I LOVE this album so much. Definitely a top 3 Periphery album, possibly even my favourite.

I have listened 5 times now, the first listen at midnight on Friday. I loved it from the first listen and the album really resonated with me and made me quite emotional. Musically, this album is incredible. People are saying it doesn't sound like Periphery, and I don't get that at all, it feels so Periphery.

My favourite song is probably Neon Valley, I can't really point to why but there's something about it lyrically and melodically which I just love. And I don't think I could choose a least favourite, maybe it would be Mr. God just because I think every other song is more interesting, but I still love that song as well as everything else.

I feel so happy that I am alive to witness the release of this album and this album has really made my life feel happier. After going through, and still dealing with depression, Periphery have really helped me through it and this album especially so now.

I wish I could go to the London show but sadly I'll be one month off of 18 (the venue has an age restriction) but one day, I'm hoping I can hear some of these songs live. I love Periphery, and I love this album so much too.

I'll finish off by saying, Blackwall is amazing!

About 5 years ago, I was in a large friend group, and I really liked every person in that group. But over time it split as people left until I was by myself and I've never been able to find many friends since then. I had a girlfriend about a year ago, but that also fell through.

I feel like everyone I meet, I just push away somehow and I always think about these people and what I could have done better. I miss them all so much and wish I still had people to talk too but sadly I don't.