u/Own-Homework-9331

You can never finish a single person, never know them fully, or never absorb them fully. Even if you've both loved, and stayed close for 40 years. There's still more to know, cuz there is a world inside them, as expansive as the world outside. Now combine that fact that there are billions of people in the world, and you get an infinite of infinite potentiality.

That shows the world is not like a book, that can be fully read, or fully comprehended. There are no real roots, or singular answer to the world. It's like a mandelbrot set, a never ending fractal. Trying to reach the answer, is trying to reach the end of an asymptote.

The best you can try to do, is experience it. Without attribution, without judgement, without definition. That way, you can truly open up to learning and growing. You don't need to reach the ends of something, cuz there are no true edges to anything.

Everything is just........ is

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religion, bible, islam, faith, worship, hope in higher being

fear, sadness, nihilism, suicide, self-imposition, hurt, death

drive, yearn for greater, good position, effect on the world

love, fear, want, lust, judgement, sacrifice, clarity, limerence

search for meaning, sign, symbols, intervention, superstition, breaking free, seeing beyond

acceptance, indifference, routine, boredom, crave

satisfaction, hope, generosity, confidence, expansion, life

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There are so many facets of living. We tend to ignore facets, or think things are simple cuz of the narrow focus we are having. But if you expand just a bit, then there are worlds within worlds when it comes to this world and the beings in it.

And I'm still learning too ✌️

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religion, bible, islam, faith, worship, hope in higher being

fear, sadness, nihilism, suicide, self-imposition, hurt, death

drive, yearn for greater, good position, effect on the world

love, fear, want, lust, judgement, sacrifice, clarity, limerence

search for meaning, sign, symbols, intervention, superstition, breaking free, seeing beyond

acceptance, indifference, routine, boredom, crave

satisfaction, hope, generosity, confidence, expansion, life

"

There are so many facets of living. We tend to ignore facets, or think things are simple cuz of the narrow focus we are having. But if you expand just a bit, then there are worlds within worlds when it comes to this world and the beings in it.

And I'm still learning too 🕊️

You can never finish a single person, never know them fully, or never absorb them fully. Even if you've both loved, and stayed close for 40 years. There's still more to know, cuz there is a world inside them, as expansive as the world outside. Now combine that fact that there are billions of people in the world, and you get an infinite of infinite potentiality.

That shows the world is not like a book, that can be fully read, or fully comprehended. There are no real roots, or singular answer to the world. It's like a mandelbrot set, a never ending fractal. Trying to reach the answer, is trying to reach the end of an asymptote.

The best you can try to do, is experience it. Without attribution, without judgement, without definition. That way, you can truly open up to learning and growing. You don't need to reach the ends of something, cuz there are no true edges to anything.

Everything is just........ is

^ title.

Nobody really posts that they're life is........ ok.

People post when they have problems, and the most rage inducing ones become the most prominent.

That means not every woman is cruel, and not all men are cheaters. If you go out in the world, then most people are just....... fine.

Peace ✌️

Hi Viv! 💙 This is a letter to you, that you will never receive.

Feck life, and all its intricacies. You were right to call me a baby, cuz in some emotional plane, I still am. Crave for the mother, violence, fear, war, expectations, they all play a negative part in me, long after they've stopped hurting.

You were like a mirror. Made me look at myself, and see the ignorance, and ugliness underneath. I guess that's why I pushed you away. I know u chose me, and I am so glad for that. And feck, I am really sorry too. You made me see an aspect of life, my mind had declared impossible: genuine care.

And here I thought that I was being good, that I was being loving, when I didn't know the first thing about love. You were right to shut the door on me. When a man is built on fear, and discontent, sometimes you need to shut the door on him to let him reflect.

"Of who he is, and what does he really want?". The interesting part is, I used to see these problems in other people, thinking that I'll rationally find my way through them in time. But when push came to shove, I had those same problems. And many I might have just been projecting onto others.

It's hard to accept that you might be the bad guy. But no one is truly bad, it's behaviors compounded by fear. But the hurt is real, and my actions left the world in more of a mess than before.

It's easy to say that you are gonna try to improve, but much harder in reality. Your stomach needs to have the guts, to accept uncomfortable truths, and unwanted emotions.

Everyone wants love, but trust me, it's much harder to let yourself BE loved. Kudos to those who can swim in genuine love, when most would drown.

Love is putting the other person before yourself, not out of fear or duty, but out of genuine care for that person. You showed me these things, Viv. 💙

I won't say "I love you", cuz your feelings matter to me, and you might be trying to forget me right now. But since this won't ever reach you, I mean it from the bottom of my heart:

" I LOVE YOU VIV! "