u/Painfighter

im addicted to having sex and women. 22yo male. Im filling a deep hole in my heart. I have beautiful women all over my Instagram. That I know personally and talk to often. I recently took the first step and removed every page/person/ sexual ppl that doesn’t follow me back or pages that don’t interest me intellectually. Yet im still bombarded with all of this soft-core suggestive content my real life friends post. I talk to my friends and converse with a few women every day through text. Genuine people, feeling mutual a lot of times platonic sometimes not. There are a few very beautiful women that send me nudes every day on demand but most of the time im not even asking. I have multiple beautiful women who I would never marry that I can sleep with whenever I want.

I’ve realized this is perfect concoction for addiction and im living through it now. I have academic goals to get myself out of lower middle class living and a new house. All of these goals I’ve tried but I have been consistently failing I can’t keep living like this.

Women are my drugs

I don’t know how to navigate through all of this and constant triggers feels kinda hopeless?????

im addicted to having sex and women. 22yo male. I have beautiful women all over my Instagram. That I know personally and talk to often. I recently took the first step and removed every page/person that doesn’t follow me back or pages that don’t interest me intellectually. Yet im still bombarded with all of this soft-core suggestive content my real life friends post. I talk to my friends and converse with a few women every day through text. Genuine people, feeling mutual a lot of times platonic sometimes notthem. There are a few very beautiful women that send me nudes every day on demand but most of the time im not even asking. I have multiple beautiful women who I would never marry that I can sleep with whenever I want.

I’ve realized this is perfect concoction for addiction and im living through it now. I have academic goals to get myself out of lower middle class living and a new house. All of these goals I’ve tried but I have been consistently failing I can’t keep living like this.

Women are my drugs

I don’t know how to navigate through all of this feels kinda hopeless?????

The base 17 and 17e are damn near the same price why even bother making an economy phone?

Snazzy Labs made a video on using budget Apple products and using them for a month. His takes on 17e segment seemed very inaccurate, here’s why.
I purchased the 17e at the same time as my boy who got the 16Pro(brand new). The only thing that the 16pro does better is it takes better pictures. That’s it. The battery dies bc 6 hours of out door summer use whereas my 17e can last damn near 2 days on a single charge. He mentioned this phone over heats but I’ve never encountered that other than the first 2 days of purchasing the phone. I am on the beta ios 27 and this phone is even faster now.
I’m using the unreleased Apple Intelligence features they work great!
Thoughts on take?

3 years ago I was on the e line coming home from manhattan at 2am and 2 beautiful Bengali girls immediately sat beside me and one started laying her head against my shoulders and acting like she was sleeping lol I talked to the other one and they invited me over to their spot in kew gardens and we did our thing. A year later I went to a Nets game finished up there and decided to go to one of those 18+ parties in Manhattan(I was 20). I started heading home at around 2-3ish and took the e line again. I was the only one in that car and suddenly I see a woman rushing to get in so I used my spidey sense to get up fast and held the door for her. She was moved by my anxious autopilot act of kindness and immediately showed interest. We made out on the subway and she took me to her crib in Forest Hills.

For context I’m not a chad by any metrics but I have a good face with an athletic build at 5’7. Clubs are draining in every way and I’m just looking to smash and bc I’d hate to be in a relationship. Regular women and even good looking women piss me off. I need a high iq bih that’s a complete whore for me to have the slightest amount of feelings but these bitches are too busy acting boujee for the internet while living in a shoebox lol.

Do you guys have any feedback on how I can experience this kind of serendipity again? Anyone experience anything like this before?

**Background:**
About 3 years ago, I had an incredibly deep connection with a girl who lives across the country from me (I'm in NY, she's in Colorado). We share the same cultural background and bonded over music, art, and long late-night talks. Even though it was mostly over text and calls, it was intense. We were so connected that we even talked about eloping(I was genuinely being fr).

**The Mistake:**
I was immature back then and didn't have my life together. I ended up breaking her trust—not by cheating, but by acting stupid and embarrassing her in front of her friends. She is someone who highly values her peace and has strong boundaries, so after that happened, she pulled back and we stopped talking.

**The Last 3 Years (Silent Communication):**
For the last three years, I haven't been able to let her go. I still think we have this unspoken dynamic lol.

We've both used burner accounts to keep tabs on each other. In December, she actually broke the silence and sent me a meme. We chatted briefly, but I kept it too generic and she pulled back again. Then a couple of months ago, I got drunk and messaged her saying I missed our bond. We ended up having a surprisingly great conversation. She was super supportive, but my feelings for her got too overwhelming and I backed off again.

Recently, she set a firm boundary: she blocked my burner account from her private poetry page, but she intentionally left me unblocked on her main, public account.

**My Current Plan:**
I realized that our past relationship fell apart because it was built entirely on texts and fantasies, and I lacked real-world stability. I've decided to stop the burner account games and the social media stalking. I have muted her stories and posts so I can stop obsessing over what she's doing in Colorado.

Instead, I am dedicating the next few years to completely turning my life around. I'm focusing 100% on building my career, getting healthy, cleaning up my past reputation, and becoming a mature, stable guy. My mindset is: I love her enough to want her to be happy, even if it's not with me. But my ultimate goal is to get my life together so that in a few years, I can reach out to her from my real account, give her a proper apology, and actually be the man she deserves.

**My Questions for Reddit:**
Is stepping back and going completely silent to work on myself the healthiest move right now, or is this a bad strategy?
How do I deal with the overwhelming anxiety that she might find someone else and get married while I'm taking the time to build my life?
Does the fact that she blocked my burner on her private page but kept me unblocked on her main account mean the door might still be open for the future?
Am I mistaken for doing all of this?

**TL;DR:** Embarrassed the girl I loved 3 years ago and ruined our deep connection.

Ps. Right now I’m just focusing on myself and working on sorting out my career. I will circle back after a while. I think she’s still kinda into me. Probably doesn’t think I’m a safe guy since I was kinda wild when I was 19-21 but I’ve chilled out a lot and improved myself since then. I have a long way to go.

**Background:**
About 3 years ago, I had an incredibly deep connection with a girl who lives across the country from me (I'm in NY, she's in Colorado). We share the same cultural background and bonded over music, art, and long late-night talks. Even though it was mostly over text and calls, it was intense. We were so connected that we even talked about eloping(I was genuinely being fr).

**The Mistake:**
I was immature back then and didn't have my life together. I ended up breaking her trust—not by cheating, but by acting stupid and embarrassing her in front of her friends. She is someone who highly values her peace and has strong boundaries, so after that happened, she pulled back and we stopped talking.

**The Last 3 Years (Silent Communication):**
For the last three years, I haven't been able to let her go. I still think we have this unspoken dynamic lol.

We've both used burner accounts to keep tabs on each other. In December, she actually broke the silence and sent me a meme. We chatted briefly, but I kept it too generic and she pulled back again. Then a couple of months ago, I got drunk and messaged her saying I missed our bond. We ended up having a surprisingly great conversation. She was super supportive, but my feelings for her got too overwhelming and I backed off again.

Recently, she set a firm boundary: she blocked my burner account from her private poetry page, but she intentionally left me unblocked on her main, public account.

**My Current Plan:**
I realized that our past relationship fell apart because it was built entirely on texts and fantasies, and I lacked real-world stability. I've decided to stop the burner account games and the social media stalking. I have muted her stories and posts so I can stop obsessing over what she's doing in Colorado.

Instead, I am dedicating the next few years to completely turning my life around. I'm focusing 100% on building my career, getting healthy, cleaning up my past reputation, and becoming a mature, stable guy. My mindset is: I love her enough to want her to be happy, even if it's not with me. But my ultimate goal is to get my life together so that in a few years, I can reach out to her from my real account, give her a proper apology, and actually be the man she deserves.

**My Questions for Reddit:**
Is stepping back and going completely silent to work on myself the healthiest move right now, or is this a bad strategy?
How do I deal with the overwhelming anxiety that she might find someone else and get married while I'm taking the time to build my life?
Does the fact that she blocked my burner on her private page but kept me unblocked on her main account mean the door might still be open for the future?
Am I mistaken for doing all of this?

**TL;DR:** Embarrassed the girl I loved 3 years ago and ruined our deep connection.

Ps. Right now I’m just focusing on myself and working on sorting out my career. I will circle back after a while. I think she’s still kinda into me. Probably doesn’t think I’m a safe guy since I was kinda wild when I was 19-21 but I’ve chilled out a lot and improved myself since then. I have a long way to go.

22yo male. I won’t pass a background check. I still need a job to live regardless of what the court system thinks of me. It’s been impossible to get a job. What should I do? Is there anyone hiring?

Background:
About 3 years ago, I had an incredibly deep connection with a girl who lives across the country from me (I'm in NY, she's in Colorado). We share the same cultural background and bonded over music, art, and long late-night talks. Even though it was mostly over text and calls, it was intense.

The Mistake:
I was immature back then and didn't have my life together. I ended up breaking her trust—not by cheating, but by acting stupid and embarrassing her in front of her friends. She is someone who highly values her peace and has strong boundaries, so after that happened, she pulled back and we stopped talking.

The Last 3 Years (Silent Communication):
For the last three years, I haven't been able to let her go. I still think we have this unspoken dynamic lol.

We've both used burner accounts to keep tabs on each other. In December, she actually broke the silence and sent me a meme. We chatted briefly, but I kept it too generic and she pulled back again. Then a couple of months ago, I got drunk and messaged her saying I missed our bond. We ended up having a surprisingly great conversation. She was super supportive, but my feelings for her got too overwhelming and I backed off again.

Recently, she set a firm boundary: she blocked my burner account from her private poetry page, but she intentionally left me unblocked on her main, public account.

My Current Plan:
I realized that our past relationship fell apart because it was built entirely on texts and fantasies, and I lacked real-world stability. I've decided to stop the burner account games and the social media stalking. I have muted her stories and posts so I can stop obsessing over what she's doing in Colorado.

Instead, I am dedicating the next few years to completely turning my life around. I'm focusing 100% on building my career, getting healthy, cleaning up my past reputation, and becoming a mature, stable guy. My mindset is: I love her enough to want her to be happy, even if it's not with me. But my ultimate goal is to get my life together so that in a few years, I can reach out to her from my real account, give her a proper apology, and actually be the man she deserves.

My Questions for Reddit:
Is stepping back and going completely silent to work on myself the healthiest move right now, or is this a bad strategy?
How do I deal with the overwhelming anxiety that she might find someone else and get married while I'm taking the time to build my life?
Does the fact that she blocked my burner on her private page but kept me unblocked on her main account mean the door might still be open for the future?
Am I wrong for doing all of this?

From the moment I wake up and see them my days always begin with insults or various forms of verbal abuse. I spent the rest of the day trying to get back to “normal”. This is almost everyday. It’s been affecting my self-esteem and most importantly my productivity. Moving out isn’t an option right now because of my unique situation. How can I at least reclaim my productivity in an environment that intends to destroy my sanity?

From the moment I wake up and see them my days always begin with insults or various forms of verbal abuse. I spent the rest of the day trying to get back to “normal”. This is almost everyday. It’s been affecting my self-esteem and most importantly my productivity. Moving out isn’t an option right now because of my unique situation. How can I at least reclaim my productivity in an environment that intends to destroy your sanity?