ugh rant na ceny

hiii all

mam juz tego szczerze dosyć pod względem finansów.. jestem na HRT od 8 miesięcy i generalnie w większość czasu jest git, Estrogen i anty T są w miarę tanie i na długo starczają. Problem się pojawia, kiedy trzeba iść do endokrynologa.. lub załatwiać papiery od innych lekarzy do sadu itp. Zanim zaczęłam, prosta opinia od psychologa - 550PLN. Wizyta u endo, 300 PLN. badania krwi, E i T oraz te wszystkie inne zalecane aby sprawdzić stan organizmu, wyjdzie z 300+ PLN, co będę musiała zapłacić w kolejnym miesiącu.. Psychiatra, aby mieć papiery do sadu (nie żeby rodzice mi pozwolili złożyć wniosek przed ukończeniem szkoły.. AAAAA), 420PLN za jedna wizytę, a jak będzie chcieć więcej to ja nie wiem co ja zrobie

TLDR: w tym miesiacu wywalę 1000+ PLN na sama tranzycje 👍

Jeszcze żebym miała prace a nie chodziła do szkoły..

End of rant.. (PS: wiecie może czy doktor Stradomski jest w stanie wystawić opinie po jednej wizycie? na HRT jestem i tak.. a chyba więcej funduszy już nie mam ;-;)

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 17 hours ago
▲ 56 r/MtF

I think I'm finally experiencing patriarchy..

I dont know if you girls have had the chance to experience it too, but it sucks

Welcome to a conversation with my mum, who claims that all women should be very skinny and have an "hourglass silhouette" (more like the old barbies where reaching said silhouette would make you die), and is trying to enforce that on me... despite me struggling with gaining weight

Fuck, I've had a long history with being underweight, only *just* barely broke out of it, at 174 cm tall I weigh maybe 59 kg on a good day. And here she is "checking with AI" to say that Im dangerously close to being overweight apparently???

Decided to take waist and hip measurements today, over the 8 months ive been on HRT I gained 5cm in the hips, and, due to gaining a bit of weight prior to starting, about 2-4cm in the waist, which honestly just looks healthier lol (still can easily see my ribs tho..)

And again she insists I must balance it out because it's unhealthy and looks bad if you have too large of a bottom.. excuse me??

Am I going insane.. I was always taught women come in all shapes, colours, sizes and whatever else, hell, by my mum's definition all my friends would be overweight ugly slops for reason X Y Z etc.

I guess I just needed to rant.. do you gals experience that too? is it just the beginning?

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 1 day ago

What are the proper E levels for tgirls?

Hiii all!! I’ve been on HRT for a lil while and, as far as I’ve known, my E has been around 175-190pg/ml (tho I’ll be having another test in a few weeks) and T has been absolutely obliterated at 10ng/dl

Now.. I constantly see online that there’s a debate going on whether we should be targeting 100-200pg/ml or above 300, and I’m worried I’m not having the best feminisation

Especially considering the fact, that I’ve been on HRT for 8 months as of yesterday, and I started very young, I mean very very young at 16. And I haven’t exactly had that many changes… sure my skin is softer I think, now I need to wear a bra daily (tho not a large one I admit) and my butt has gotten much larger. In the face department however… I’ve seen little changes and I don’t pass :c. In the first 1-2 months acne went away and… honestly comparing photos after that to now, I can’t see a difference unless I zoom in a loooot. Helppppp!! Has anyone got any idea what the levels should actually be? Should I suggest my doctor next month that I want another pill? (I only take 2 a day now) what are the options?

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 3 days ago

Girlies I’m too emotional helpppp!! :33

Girliessss, I’ve been on hrt for 8 months and idk why but I suddenly became this lil emotional person and I care about my friends so much that it’s becoming scary :c

I feel the need to cry bc… bc… my long distance friend went on a long trip far away and as much as I’m happy for her (very much so actually), I just worry so much and and and wanna hug her in person, despite us never meeting irl. And like most of my best friends live around 2k kms away and so we never met irl and and I can’t stop crying and being so grateful about having them and worrying and everything, so many emotions going on recently.

Now that the distance is more like 9k kms and we’ll be in completely different time zones for over a month I worry about losing her and and.. I don’t know what actually

All emotions blend in together to the point I’ve got no idea who I’m crushing on, caring and worrying about, or just developing deep friendly attachment

Edit: thought I could paraphrase my best friend’s words about how I feel here, “I love all my friends so much,I care and worry about them so much, it’s as if they were little kittens, whom I’d gently put into my jeans’ front pocket to make sure they’re all okay and safe”

No idea what flair to use here, it’s a bit relatable, a bit needed positivity, a bit who knows what

Have you ever had Sth similar happen? Do you also cry over everything now and feel this emotional?

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 4 days ago
▲ 208 r/MtF

So like.. do you girls cry too?

I hope the flair is appropriate, I’ve noticed that now, after um, self pleasure, more often than not I’ll just end up crying like a little baby, depending on what the stuff I was was and how I felt about it, those can be anything from the tears of joy to tears of shame haha, but I won’t go into the latter

I never used to um, cry after finalising the self pleasure moment, but now, sometimes I’ll even start crying of joy before I get there!

Have you all experienced this too or is something going terribly wrong for me haha, I’d love to hear your stories

If context is needed, I’m very gay

Edit: oh fuck it’s been 3 minutes and I already got a creepy dm, damn ppl are weird lol

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 5 days ago
▲ 222 r/cars

What’s up with car suspensions nowadays??

I promise this is not rage bait, just my damn experience

Over the years my family hasn’t changed cars often, but I got to ride around in many taxis, friends’ cars and so on.
Any “bigger” car I’ve ever sat in, seems to have terrible, and I mean absolutely terrible suspension when dealing with bumps. And some were quite expensive vehicles. A 2018 Ford Fusion? So hard. 2020 Toyota Camry? Hard. 2025 BMW X1 ev? Horrendously hard

Meanwhile, whenever I drive with my parents, in either our ‘13 Renault Clio or a ‘20 Hyundai I30, it feels much much softer over.. any bumps or bad road segments, genuinely! Is the recipe to comfort just.. driving something smaller? I got to drive around in a a few Fiat Pandas and Skoda Citigos over the years, and they seemed soft and comfy just like the Clio.
Please tell me I’m not hallucinating…

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 12 days ago
▲ 0 r/Polska

dyskusja na temat nauki jazdy

Witam wszystkich, i zapraszam do dyskusji na temat tego jak kto się nauczył jeździć / będzie to robić

Ciekawi mnie to, gdyż sama się teraz uczę (narazie na teorie) a moi rodzice nie mogą się przestać kłócić, czy teraz młodzi uczą się praktyki podczas jazd od 0, czy może większość rodziców uczy swoje dzieci jeździć własnym samochodem po polach / parkingach / whatever

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 14 days ago

tried "driving" for the first time

hiiii all!! for the first time I got to sit in a car and well, try driving (which has been my dream since I was born basically lol) and well.. I may have an issue. Of too much mechanical sympathy lol. so as you would, I put my foot on the clutch (which has surprisingly longer travel than I'd have expected lol), put the car in first (which takes way more effort than I'd have thought), and well, slightly lift off the clutch while applying throttle.. I instantly feel that I'm riding the clutch, let go.. launch the car forwards, and stall bc I press the brake (which... again need more pressure than I'd expect), fair okay might have burnt a bit of... the tyres? I saw skid marks on the pavement lol. But I try again... and same story. I'm too afraid of riding the clutch so I let go way too quickly... how to stop that?

(also... HOW THE F are all the controls so heavy... it's a damn '13 Clio lol, it's got one of the lightest controls on the market... I'm very very very weak physically but like... I am genuinely scared I will never be able to perform an emergency stop as the brakes get progressively harder the more you push them.. HELP I am a bit new :) (to driving cars in general lol )

And yess, I am a car enthusiast so this matters to me very much, might have spent my whole life watching car reviews, POV drives, learning to drive tips from instructors, playing too many car games... and well, at least I've mastered the theory of it all...

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 18 days ago

any good GL recommendations?

hiiiiiii everyoneee! might have recently gotten into Thai GL, and so far only seen two, but I can't seem to find any other ones... have you seen any that you could recommend? preferably available for free on YouTube, with English subtitles? alternatively if someone knows a lesbian series/movie in French, that'd be highly appreciated as well. Thank you so much in advance for fulfilling my yearning :)

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 24 days ago

Finally biology lessons are euphoric for onceeee!!!

Hi girlssss since it’s pride month I wanna share some good transition news!!!

So like we’ve had a biology lesson about gender characteristics, I look at those diagrams and demonstration of what a girl loooks like apparently (very very old fashioned btw, girls come in all shapes, colours and sizes not just a white skinny European girl but whatever), and my dysphoric ass finally wasn’t as dysphoric, I’m constantly worried my shoulders are too wide and hips are tiny, but wait wait, this gal in the picture literally has basically the same shoulders and somehow much less wide hips than I do! Then we watch a video about girl and guy puberty and the feeling of saying “no u” to testosterone is amazing!!!! Somehow all that avoided me and I somehow was always pretty curvyyyyy!!! I’m literally blooming with happiness!!!

Anyway, just sharing so that there’s tons of positivity and positive stories out here :)

Love you allllll girlies :3, wishing everyone an amazing pride month and very gay gfs

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 1 month ago

ugh fuck school biology

already made a post about blatant transphobia during my biology classes at school, which especially wore me down during a class about reproduction (yay gender dysphoria, trans girl reporting here), but this isn't this sub's topic is it...

Can I just say, fucking straight sex or whatever they tell you at school makes me wanna throw up? Why don't we also hear anything about the existence of lesbians? I know it's about reproduction, but at that point, you can always tell us about options WE have, and stop with all that straight nonsense... it's actually disgusting to me... am I the only one with this reaction to this topic?

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago
▲ 862 r/MtF

Fuck biology at school

Ah fuck I just need to vent. I’m however many years old who gives a fuck, our biology teacher apparently believes there are 2 genders until the new bi and whatever get accepted wtf. A lesson about all the sex characteristics and reproduction system went by… I’ve been holding my tears for over an hour at this point, with the whole class laughing at trans ppl, mocking intersex ppl, and over here I’m trying not to burst into tears due to all the shitty body parts and features I have, and the never ending jealousy of cis women. Also, when the topic of straight sex comes up I wanna throw up, I’m lesbian to the core, fuck that

Context: rural ish high school in Poland, age group… whatever my friends are between 15-19, you get the idea. I started HRT 6 months ago. Generally never dysphoric and super happy about how it’s going… tho I wish to pass quicker, but fuck this made me almost suicidal

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago

How hard is it to get in?

Hi all!! I'm so sorry for not using French.. I am not all too confident in it to say the least currently

I'm from Poland, and in 2 years I will be done with high school. I tried my best navigating some of the French university websites, and as I understand one of the ways to get in is La Prepa... which as I've read is VERY hard. I've mostly been interested in what INSA (mostly Toulouse, maybe in Lyon) offers, do they also have their version of Prepa? It is a lil confusing for me.

I also have another question... am I dreaming and hallucinating, how does one know if they will get accepted, and even if they do, they won't fail miserably? Currently I am in my 2nd year of high school, since I am mostly interested in civil (or similar) engineering, I mostly focus on Physics and Maths, we have a 1-6 grading system, and I generally get a 4, 5 or 6 (which would be from 80%-100%) on every test from these subjects currently.. I need to improve a lil I know D:. Another one of my concerns is French, I am currently... at an A2 level? Is it possible to go from A2 to B2 in 2 years, and will it be sufficient to study? I would say I am good at learning new languages and enjoy it quite a lot, so at least that's good!

I hope this is the right subreddit and I havent violated any rules, thank you in advance for all the replies!!! (I'd appreciate replies in French too, I think I am good at understanding written text beyond the A2 level I am at : D )

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago
▲ 2 r/ios

Sooo… for context, I’ve had my iPhone 12 mini for close to 4 years now, and over time I started noticing that more often, and in lower temperatures, I’d get warnings when driving that it stopped charging to reach a normal temperature, or now even when it isn’t plugged in and just displaying maps, it overheats and displays a note that maps can’t be shown on Lock Screen

Is it the phone case that I’m using that is shit? Or is something worse happening here… first time I got it was in about 37 degrees in Greece 2 years ago, but right now? The lowest it occurred in was 15 degrees outside and plugged in, or 27 degrees and unplugged… I’m starting to get worried

Do your phones also like to get toasty? I’d appreciate every reply :)

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago

Salut tout le monde ! J’ai quelques questions sur le fait d’être trans en France. Comment est-ce de vivre sa vie au quotidien ? Comment se passe la discrimination et le comportement des autres ? Comment est l’accès aux hormones et aux opérations ? Comment est la vie amoureuse ? (pour les lesbiennes trans :D)

Je pose ces questions car j’envisage de venir étudier en France (je viens de Pologne…) et j’espère y rester ensuite, pour échapper à la situation actuelle. Je m’intéresse particulièrement aux écoles d’ingénieurs à Lyon et Toulouse. Comment sont ces villes pour nous ?

(J’espère que vous comprenez mon message, j’ai utilisé Google Traduction. Mon français n’est qu’au niveau A2 et… j’ai vraiment besoin de travailler dur pendant les deux prochaines années pour progresser si ce projet se concrétise. J’espère que ce sera suffisant…)

Merci d’avance pour vos réponses !

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago
▲ 9 r/lgbt

Hi all!!! your local trans lesbian girlie here!!

I was tasked with making a presentation for my English class, and since we were free to choose our topic... obviously my mind went to "Queer people throughout the world", I'm Polish and while it's a very conservative place, I don't give a damn and wanna trigger my whole class with the topic lol

So my question to you is, could you describe who you are, where you live, and what it's like for queer ppl (and you!!!) in your country/region?

Yes, I could just use statistical data... but I much prefer lived in experienced in my presentations. Thankfully I have many (generally) queer friends in the world, but it still it is not enough data : D

Thanks so much in advance for every reply :333 have a great day too

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago

Salut tout le monde !!!

J'ai une question : auriez-vous des recommandations de séries lesbiennes françaises que vous avez trouvées intéressantes et qui valent le coup d'œil, de préférence gratuites, sur YouTube, avec des sous-titres anglais, ou une combinaison de ces options ?

Je suis une lesbienne transgenre polonaise et j'aimerais beaucoup aller à l'université en France (pour échapper à ce pays conservateur…), mais j'ai besoin d'améliorer mon français avant cela. Je me suis dit que cela m'aiderait à progresser et à avoir plus de choix de cours à l'université (j'imagine qu'il y a moins de cours en anglais). Merci d'avance pour vos commentaires !

(J'espère que vous comprendrez mon message. Je n'ai étudié le français qu'à l'école pendant deux ans et j'ai à peine le niveau A2. Je comprends tout à l'écrit, mais j'ai du mal à écrire, alors j'utilise Google Traduction.)

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago

Hiii girliessss!!

I hope I’m not breaking any subreddit rules haha. How comeeee is it that since I’ve started meeting ppl online (not through dating apps, we’re all um.. under 20 hehe), every single lesbian I’ve chatted with found her gf within the first month of us knowing each otherrrr, I’m the only single one leftttt what to dooooooooo?

Have you all got similar stories maybeee? Is it the fate of transbians? (I’ve only been meeting cis ppl tbf). Share some positivityyyy

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u/Panda_Panda69 — 2 months ago