u/Personal-Aerie-4519

Why do people call me weird but never leave me?

People say im weird and that i ask weird questions or they say im very random

So then i stop and set a boundary and move on with my life

Then they start begging or acting weird to get my attention
it happens with everyone. No one can handle my silence?

the begging followed by their disrespect is so weird

like im weird and annoying but my silence triggers u that much?

No one has ever blocked me.
They ALL come back. Add me to their close story. Send a reel. Or whatever

Happens with teachers. Secure friends. Family members. Everyone

People say some crazy shit to my face but right when i walk away they start saying sorry or going crazy for my attention. And i give in easily so they become normal. Otherwise theyll stay in the crazy phase until im my "real" self again

Every Qaqa I see seems to follow the exact same blueprint.

Same haircut with the long fringe covering half their forehead. Same Gucci obsession. Same flashy jeans. Same walk. Same way of talking. Same habit of randomly throwing English and Russian words into Azerbaijani.

It’s weird because they don’t just have a similar style. They almost have the same personality and mannerisms too. You can spot one from 100 meters away.

Like who are they? How do they just keep spawning? I swear they're like exact copies irl and online. I swear to god it feels like a gta lobby. Are they even real?

Btw not trying to be disrespectful at all, just very, very curious..

It's really weird. She never labeled the relationship yet did things a perfect girlfriend would. I was always and always her "close person," and nothing else.

In terms of "love," I was apparently in the same category as her cat, mom, and female friends. She loved me the same why she loved her cat. Even though she clearly said our love was romantic.

She's adamant she hates 99% of people. And has an insanely close circle she trusts (as mentioned before)

She didn't understand romantic love it seemed. Or exclusivity. Or commitment. We always had superficial conversations that led absolutely nowhere that continued forever and ever without any closure about what we even were.
I was going crazy. She would try getting me back with jealousy, selfies, emojis, and just wouldn't stop until I finally gave in and matched her energy. You just never understand what they want. It's a never ending loop.

I know everything about her yet nothing about her. Everything feels like a blur. I know every single thing about her life and childhood but I don't know a single thing about what goes on in her mind. It's as if she's my best friend and acquaintance at the same time.

Fast forward to now, she keeps insisting we are just friends, which I of course find insanely weird because friends do not interact like this. Calling me a "toy" was the last straw.

It's like dealing with the most independent yet dependent person ever.

But at the same I can't imagine her ever giving attention to another man the way she gave me. I can't even visualize it. It feels impossible.

I think bpd people can possess aspd traits, for sure.