u/Present_Community_55

For my entire life I have been through a lot and I no longer care about what everyone thinks about me and I no longer care about their expectations, their wants , their needs.

I no longer want a shoulder to cry on.

The urge to be loved, accepted and validated has disappeared.

I no longer want to be idolised, no longer want to be understood and no longer want to be the good girl who can never harm anyone.

Because being a good girl with lack of boundaries made me a scapegoat.

Being considered good came with a lot of taking of abuse.

My own father threw my entire family out when I was 12 and I was rejected by relatives for not being the ideal good girl.

I was just a child and I deserved to loved not trying to always walk on eggshells to please my father.

When I got into college , it was my goal to make everyone love me, I would go above and beyond just so everything will love me but I quickly realised that how pathetic I looked.

I am not longer the person I used to be.

I no longer dream of love like I used to .

I no longer wants to fall in love.

I am fine with being by myself.

I no longer wants to pick up my relatives calls and I no longer wants to talk my father ever.

I am the same unlovable girl I used to be and I have no desire to change it.