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Idk. I’m going crazy. Exactly what the title says.

But I just can’t see a world in which you cut off your 24 year old daughter who is dying alone across the country because you want “peace”.

I’m gonna fucking die and nobody is gonna care, they’ll be happy.

How do you go on?? How am I supposed to want to fight?? I don’t even have many fucking friends??

I think God if he exists is asking me to give up.

My 24F doctor is off on holiday and I have no idea how to interpret this. I’ve been having a myriad of different symptoms, 6 hospital visits can’t figure out what’s wrong but I just got this result, I was sex trafficked in the past but even after that I had the same test come back normal, I’ve narrowed it down and the only way it could be is my fiancé?? He is scared to get tested, idk what to do but I don’t want to jump to conclusions just yet.

Results (since I can’t post a pic) **HPV, Aptima High 16/18,45 POSITIVE**

Awaiting Pap smear and coloscopy results.

Thanks. I’m scared.

I’m scared. I’m only 24, I thought I was doing everything right. What do I do??? I don’t even want to go through with treatment or more tests. I just escaped trafficking like a couple years ago and yesterday was two years sober too. I barely have any family. How do I get through the day?

Like anything helps. I can’t work either I have little money that’s gonna run out soon but I can’t do anything.

What would you do?

I 24F, looking to relocate somewhere more permanent with my fiancé. I was born and grew up in Pittsburgh, PA and my Fiancé lived and grew up in a small town in west Tennessee. Both of us have been living in San Diego and LOVING it, but as we plan for the future and as complicated health issues arise, we are kinda realizing that as much as we love it, SD just isn’t the right fit (specifically with how bad the healthcare and law enforcement is).

I have been definitely leaning toward St. Petersburg, FL., as I have a lot of family there, and also spent every single summer in my childhood in Indian Shores/St.Pete’s Beach for 20 years, but I haven’t been there since 2024.

My fiancé and I also both love Erie, PA, which I lived in for 4 years and loved.

We definitely want a house and a kid or two someday, but for the next 3-5 years want to live somewhere pretty metro but with outdoor activities and access to large bodies of water. Also, as I am starting to develop a lot of health issues pretty young, access to a good healthcare system would be great.

We do have a car, but public transportation would be great especially until we get another.

We both have degrees in more creative fields, me with more of an educational/marketing background and him in music production and education as well.

Our shortlist is in no particular order:

Erie PA
Asheville NC
St Petersburg FL
Savannah GA

Any insight/suggestions?

I 24F, looking to relocate somewhere more permanent with my fiancé. I was born and grew up in Pittsburgh, PA and my Fiancé lived and grew up in a small town in west Tennessee. Both of us have been living in San Diego and LOVING it, but as we plan for the future and as complicated health issues arise, we are kinda realizing that as much as we love it, SD just isn’t the right fit (specifically with how bad the healthcare and law enforcement is).

I have been definitely leaning toward St. Petersburg, FL., as I have a lot of family there, and also spent every single summer in my childhood in Indian Shores/St.Pete’s Beach for 20 years, but I haven’t been there since 2024.

My fiancé and I also both love Erie, PA, which I lived in for 4 years and loved.

We definitely want a house and a kid or two someday, but for the next 3-5 years want to live somewhere pretty metro but with outdoor activities and access to large bodies of water. Also, as I am starting to develop a lot of health issues pretty young, access to a good healthcare system would be great.

We do have a car, but public transportation would be great especially until we get another.

We both have degrees in more creative fields, me with more of an educational/marketing background and him in music production and education as well.

Our shortlist is in no particular order:

Erie PA
Asheville NC
St Petersburg FL
Savannah GA

Any insight/suggestions?

I 24 F have been experiencing increasingly frequent seizures that last 2 minutes to 5 minutes with the longest one being in my PCP’s office this week for 10 minutes on and off.

It’s debilitating, I’m in pain and exhausted and my teeth are getting messed up because of this. My city sucks with healthcare so they don’t really take me too seriously, I’m being screened for some cancers/autoimmune diseases but I’ll be having like 1-5 seizures a day guaranteed. I can’t leave my house for more than an hour at a time without having one.

Is this too many? Or normal? I have a lot of armchair medical knowledge but I really don’t know a lot about seizures.

I’m so defeated. I’ve been sober for 2 years man after getting out of being trafficked and man it’s been so hard but I’ve been trying to create this life for myself just to have constant roadblocks. And I’m not talking about like normal life shit, I’m talking about like getting physically assaulted, domestic abuse, getting laid off, losing my art studio I worked so hard to build before it even opened, ongoing legal battles, and now being diagnosed with epilepsy WITHOUT insurance. I’m in 10k medical debt for like barely anything and can’t work right now.

Idk what I thought a sober life would look like but I just am not seeing the “health” and “success” I worked so hard for. I spent so much time in so many places, read so many books, studied coping mechanisms, worked two/three jobs, got my own apartment, saved, and nothing.

Nobody I was friends with wants to talk to me anymore because I’m just experiencing way more than anyone can comprehend so they don’t know what to say, especially after seeing me try so hard and just keep getting knocked down by life. I know I’m only 24 but how am I supposed to like genuinely want to live/stay sober?

I want to and will stay sober I’m just angry about the idea that sobriety magically fixes everything. Ugh.

Now I’m on limited activity which activity and concerts and being on the beach was my main source of motivation to stay sober. Idk.

I 24F have a history of vaping in college and longstanding bulimia/GI issues that cause vomiting. Genetic jaw deformity and underbite that I had fixed over the course of a decade, but was told would always cause constant teeth shifting. This has recently only been exacerbated by a recent onset of daily seizures where my teeth lock and grind back and forth.

I do and always have my entire life flossed and brushed and used mouth wash as directed. Teeth to me are the biggest indicator of health and beauty. Aside from that there was a long period unfortunately where I was trafficked/held so I was without access to any basic daily care for several months.

I have extreme tooth sensitivity at the moment which is causing me to be afraid to eat, along with constant feeling (it could be ocd/anxiety) that my teeth are shifting and I can wiggle them. My bite has changed and regressed SEVERELY in the past two months due to extreme stress causing grinding at night and seizures.

I’ve been having bad headaches and a fever for a couple weeks now of which 4 doctors and a round of Keflex did not fix.

My fiancé says I’m fine and that I have some of the best/whitest/straightest teeth he’s ever seen, but that there is a significant gap that is regressing as I said because of my bite change. He doesn’t think anything is an issue and it’s in my head.

I have been scared to seek help because of how bad my fear of the dentist is, like I’ve been in bed for four days unable to move worried about this, and also for financial reasons, though up until recently, I have had the best insurance coverage for my teeth thanks to my mom (who works for Colgate) being able to allow me for free to be on the family insurance plan.

Recently, my parents and I became estranged due to political disagreements among other things, so they have been threatening to pull my insurance for a while but today they finally did it knowing well of my current conflict and how I’ve been just trying to get the courage to book an appointment.

I’ve never not had dental insurance before, I’m very educated in a lot of things but navigating the dental world alone is not one of them and I’m so so so scared. I can’t stop sobbing and I haven’t left my house for a week. The random pains paralyze me.

Any advice helps. I live in like the 8th biggest city in the US by the way, so if that helps at all.

Edit: not currently on any medications besides 50mg seroquel, but have been heavily medicated with over 35 psych meds since I was 7-8.

Hi there!

I 24F have been living here for about two years. I have been struggling to find a good dentist around here that meets some requirements.

My teeth aren’t horrible, but I have a lot of issues from a longstanding ED and a jaw deformity, so they need some significant comprehensive work.

I am really scared, the dentist is my biggest fear, and because of my eating disorder (which I’m in remission treatment for) I don’t want a dentist that will only focus on one component of my mouth, nor do I really want one that will berate me for the damage I’ve done to my mouth, because I well know and am working actively to keep from doing any more, but I have some pain and discomfort that needs addressed soon.

I’m lucky to have pretty amazing insurance if that helps.

Thank you, sorry if this is a weird question!

I 24F have been in therapy since I was 5 and medicated since I was 8.

I’ve tried every modality and radical form of treatment from CBT to ECT and everything in between. Trauma wise, I can’t really fit in all in here but the most pressing are me being trafficked/held captive, an ongoing eating disorder, a couple assaults, familial abandonment, domestic abuse, legal issues, etc.

In the past six years I have tried 3 IOPs, 2 residentials, 3 PHPS and a sober living. I’m two years sober but I’m struggling so much. I don’t even know what a baseline is like because of all of the prescriptions and treatment.

The meds I have been on include:

Abilify
Ativan
Buspirone
Rexulti
Citalopram
Pristiq
Valium
Lexapro
Prozac
Haldol
Hydroxyzine
Lamictal
Lithium
Latuda
Remeron
Zyprexa
Seroquel
Zoloft
Topamax
Viibryd
Risperidone
Trintellix
Propranolol
Librium
Depakote
Klonopin
Wellbutrin
Trazadone
Luvox
Ambien
Phenobarbital
Doxepin
Halcion

Every psychiatrist fired me because I’m too complex after 6 weeks, then the new one comes up with another new recipe to try.

Any insight helps, I am so tired of constant intakes and med trials, especially as I’m going through a cancer scare atm and a lot of financial issues.
I’m at a loss, I’m at the point where I’m inducing seizures as a relaxation technique.

I’m supposed to see The Beach Boys (America’s Band), in San Diego on the 27th, will the Love Machine be up and running still? Or will it be a Weekend at Bernie’s type situation?

I feel like it might be real eerie with Mike propped up front with the entire SD Symphony Orchestra playing in the background but I’m hoping he should be spry as ever by Saturday 👍🏻