Alright I did it again but now it's solids now
Ok for the 4th I had a slice of cake and even unfortunately I can't have that.
What I'm guessing since I didn't look "p" before bed this is what I think happens.
For some reason for me the sugar+fat must activate whatever in my body to crave dopamine, so I'm guessing it's like the sugar +fat+ dairy must wake me up 45-1 hr later like a big amount of caffeine and unfortunately my mind is not al the way there when I wake up but this time I woke up and went right after it and "went" before I realized I was wrong in doing that.
So my conclusion is , somehow the background stress of just living and light walking must cause some sort of stress response and for some reason I'm not allowed to eat dairy, high fat or sugar before bed because I'm assuming I'm my body theirs a increase in insulin maybe(don't have diabetes) and that insulin maybe drops me internally background to.a lower state and then the drop in sugar must cause a internal craving to go up therefore in a hr time I'm woken up to the urge because normal insulin drops blood sugar and I'm guessing that why since I did it so many times is why my body goes into need a dopamine hit when I'm barely awake.
Because I know it can't be demons it has to be my flesh rising up since I fed it something triggering.